THE
TUTU DOCTRINE
THE
NEW WORLD ORDER
The TuTu Doctrine - The
New World Order is createdmanifested by
Harishchandra Sharma TuTu and Solvejg Sharma TuTu
Translated from Danish
22nd Edition
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BEYOND
REASON
THE
BRIDGE
THE
SOFTENING
OF THE STONE HEART
THE
HOLY
GRAIL
Four
fairy
tales describing one Buddhist and three Hinduistic archetypes, and The
TuTu Doctrine describing the Holy Grail
THE
AVATAR
OF SYNTHESES
THE
2
2
DOCTRINE 1
THE
FIFTH DIMENSION
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BEYOND
REASON
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THE
FEMININE:
THE
EMOTIONAL
Contents part 1 Contents
part 2 Contents part 3
Contents part 4
Contents part 5
THE INITIATION
While gazing at the ocean, I remembered the Master.
How God brought the two of us together is something I marvel at.
He lived in the far East, I in the high North.
One day, I was a guest of one of his servants in the North.
This visit was a result of various currents in my life.
CHILDHOOD FAITH
I grew up in an atheist family,
and when I wanted to attend Sunday school to get colored scraps like
some of the other children, my parents told me that the teachers of
Sunday school talked about God, but He did not exist in Reality.
I was further told that He was created by weak souls, who were not
able to face that death is a black hole, where you sleep forever when
life is over.
When I began public school, I was told that this wasn’t true; that God
existed and was a very old man, who had lived always and that He was
good and loving and loved all people.
His name was Yahweh and He was invisible, and he spoke in a way, which
common people could not hear, so they only became aware that He was
alive because some uncommon people existed, who were able to both see
and hear Him.
I got the impression back then that there were many, like my parents,
who believed that it was something the uncommon people invented
because they were out to cheat the common people, but there were also
many who believed in them, in particular, if they were able to perform
miracles, like Moses did.
The uncommon ones said that God lived in the Heavens and from there He
looked down on Earth and kept an eye to see if people complied with
the ten important rules He had made for them.
The good ones believed in God and complied with the rules but the evil
ones did not.
God invented various ways to torment the evil ones until they became
good.
Even if you shouldn’t think so, God loved the evil ones too and you
could know that because He grieved when He had to torment them.
God thought that some of the uncommon ones were particularly good,
because they complied so much with Him that they were willing to kill
their own children if He told them to.
In return, He would kill all their enemies, that is, if they otherwise
needed to have somebody killed.
He gave special rewards to those who were so good that they chose to
side with Him above everyone else.
They did not have to think about how they would have their wishes
fulfilled because He would see to that, and in addition, they were
allowed to be together with Him in Paradise, when they died
Furthermore, I was told that Paradise was a garden in Heaven, where
they felt so wonderful that they would rather be there than anywhere
else.
But at some point in time, nobody would obey Him anyway, and therefore
He decided to kill all the people in the World except Noah and the
animals, but this did not help much either; so He still had to torment
people at regular intervals.
For example, I was told that He once sent an angel to a city to find
out, who believed in Him in this city, but only one single person did.
The believer was told to take his wife with him out of the city, and
when he had left, God killed the rest of the people in the city by
burning them up with sulfur and fire.
The wife was told not to turn around to see what God did to the people
she knew, but since she did so anyway, God had to change her into a
pillar of salt.
I was told that God also had other means to torment those, who did not
comply with Him.
Once you died, He would meet you and tell you that He knew if you had
belonged to the good ones or the evil ones, when you were alive.
If you belonged to the evil ones, He sent you to hell, where the devil
lived.
Hell was a place below the ground, and it was awful to be there,
because people were burnt with sulfur and fire all the time, like the
people in that city, which God burnt down.
The advantage of being tormented by God, while you lived, was that you
risked becoming good from it, or else you could die from it; but the
devil you only came down to after you were dead so therefore he could
go on tormenting you forever.
The devil was easy to know from all others as he always had a trident
with him and was either black or red and very ugly, and besides, he
had a tail and horns on his brow like an animal, but he was so very
sly that he had learned to make himself invisible or hide in the
darkness, so he became difficult to discover.
He loved to torment and haunt as many as possible, and therefore he
would like many to be evil, so God would let him have them when they
died.
He tried to make people evil by making himself invisible and whisper
in their ear that they should do something evil, which they otherwise
never could have come up with themselves.
There were many, who did not discover that it was the work of the
devil until it was too late, so you should always be wary of what you
thought.
Those, who did not discover that it was he, who whispered in their
ear, he got more and more power over, and so they came to belong to
him when they died, and that problem God wouldn’t help them with
because it was their own fault that they had been so stupid.
That made me wonder; since God was the strongest of the two, He could
easily have taken those people from the devil and told him that they
had not meant any harm by doing the things they had done, but he did
not do it, because then it might happen that the devil would become so
cross, because God interfered in his whispering to people that he no
longer would help God; and then where was God to put all those He
needed to send to hell?
The good ones wept a lot because there were so many, who wouldn’t
believe in God, and the evil ones were so evil that they downright
laughed at those, who believed in God; so in the end God saw no other
way but sending his only Son out of the Heavens and down on Earth to
tell the evil ones that they had to believe in God now, because
otherwise it would become a serious matter.
His Son’s name was Jesus, and he had agreed to come down on Earth to
perform miracles to make it easier for people to believe in God.
He had also agreed to be tormented and killed in a horrifying way, and
therefore God loved him more than everybody else, because when people
saw that, they would surely understand that they should take pity on
God, because they had not believed in Him for such a long time that He
had to treat His only Son in this way.
While Jesus walked on Earth, he promised that he would come down from
Heaven again many years after he was tormented and killed, since he
could not die for real like other people, because he was God’s Son.
At that time, he would see if it had helped any that he and God had
done all this for people’s sake.
Those, who had not mended their ways, he would torment, and those, who
had regretted that they didn’t believe in God in the past would be
forgiven and be allowed to sit next to Jesus.
It was particularly fine to sit there, because he sat to the right
hand side of God, the Father, but there was nobody, who knew, who sat
to the left hand side of God, the Father.
HAVING IT OUT WITH GOD
I also felt sorry for God, because
people wouldn’t believe in Him.
I wouldn’t mind believing in Him and doing what He wanted me to.
I would even be so good so as to side with Him above everyone else and
was looking forward to have all my wishes fulfilled when I asked Him
or Jesus for something.
My parents wouldn’t agree to let me get a dog, and so I asked God for
a dog many times, but it didn’t help any because I did not get a dog
anyway.
Not even a guinea pig even though I had agreed to settle for a guinea
pig.
I thought that God might not be able to hear me, so I had better ask
Jesus for it, but that didn’t help any either.
I began getting a hunch that neither God nor Jesus liked me.
That, I thought, was mean, but I kept that a secret, because the worst
thing you could do was to think anything bad about God or Jesus.
I decided to go to church a lot to make God and Jesus like me.
One day, a priest threw me out of the church saying that it wasn’t a
place for children.
That convinced me that God and Jesus really didn’t like me, and now I
joined the evil ones, who thought that God didn’t exist, and who spoke
about Him in demeaning ways, if He was mentioned at all.
Even though I could not discern that God punished me for it, I began
fearing God’s revenge once I died and the time of reckoning came.
My fear of death slowly piled up into a feeling of hopelessness and
melancholy, to such an extent that I began longing for death to get it
over with and to get to know if God existed and wanted revenge, or if
death was a black hole like my parents thought.
GOALS OF LIFE
As a young
person, I sought for a goal for my life.
I took a closer look at those people who were rich and powerful, by
reading about them in magazines, but I did not think they had anything
that I wanted.
I took a closer look at the beautiful and the famous too, but I did
not think they had anything that I wanted either.
I thought that I would like to have a husband whom I loved, and who
loved me too.
I would also like to have some wonderful children who held out their
little arms to me when I came home from work.
I got a husband and discovered that the love between us did not give
me the satisfaction I had imagined.
I got a child and I did not think that the love between us gave me the
satisfaction that I had hoped for.
I had had my wishes fulfilled, but they did not extinguish that
peculiar longing that I had within me, and which I no longer could put
a name to.
PSYCHOTROPICS 1
When II approached
twenty-five years of age, my marriage dissolved, and I drifted on in
life without coming across anything that could fulfill me.
It was part of the zeitgeist at that time to experiment with various
substances to achieve expansion of consciousness, and I began smoking
Indian hemp together with my sister and her husband.
Under the influence of the hemp, I achieved expanded states of
consciousness that made it possible for me to experience life from new
perspectives.
For some time, this gave me the satisfaction I had longed for.
I, my sister and her husband were excited about the World that opened up
to us by the help of the hemp, and in the end, we smoked daily.
In particular we used the expanded states of consciousness to listen to
music and talk about life.
My sister’s husband was spiritually inclined.
He was the first person I had met since my childhood’s showdown with God
who did not use the word God as a profanity.
He talked about God as if He existed, and I wondered how he could bear
to take God seriously.
He had written some poems about his relationship with God that he read
aloud at times when we had smoked together, and they made a deep
impression on me with their descriptions of a beautiful and painful love
relationship, which was beyond anything I had experienced.
He also made paintings of God that envisioned an exploding power, and my
perception of God as an old man with a long white beard began to
stagger.
At the same time, this information createdmanifested resistance and fear
in me because my childhood faith still sat so deep that, in spite of all
my endeavors, I had not managed to shake it off, and my childhood God
demanded that you only looked at Him as God.
If now I began to assume a new perspective, I probably chose an idol,
and then He would surely take revenge when I died.
My sister’s husband also introduced the concept of reincarnation,
rebirth in life after life, and I began hoping that my childhood
understanding of God, death and hell was not true.
He talked about coming closer to God through inner enlightenment and
about meditation as a means to achieve it, and again, I became
interested in finding out something about God and shook off my
resistance and my fear.
At some point the impact of the hemp began to change.
I remained in my normal state of mind in its most confused and
suspicious form instead of feeling uplifted to expanded, clear and
intuitive states of consciousness.
Inspired by my sister’s husband and the expanded states of consciousness
from the hemp, I began to investigate the contemporary methods as to how
to learn to meditate instead.
Now and then I got a glimpse of something that reminded me of the lost
effect of the hemp, but not sufficiently, so I continued my quest.
INITIATION 1
One day, I was to meet a woman who also meditated.
When we met, she told me about her Master’s work that consisted in
transmission of higher states of consciousness, which he and his
servants, who are called preceptors, transmitted into the heart of the
disciples, and she suggested that I received a transmission from her
to experience it.
We sat down opposite each other with eyes closed.
She began transmitting.
Immediately, I got a vision, where I saw
a beam of light that streamed from her third eye in my direction,
and I got the impression of moving with great speed towards
something that I did not know what was.
The feeling of speed slowed down.
The light divided into two beams and touched me directly in two
chakras on my upper chest, and here they createdmanifested a slight
pressure, before sliding in with a tingling sensation.
Then I felt
a sharp snap in my head and re-experienced an event from the past that
I had forgotten.
The memory disappeared, and a vision of delicate pastel shades that
mingled with each other emerged.
In the end, it felt as if a hand gently stroke down the backside of my
head.
Until then, I had only seen something with my inner eye when I dreamt
in the night or formed images of memory from a situation or of a
person I was thinking of.
It had never occurred to me that it was possible to see anything else,
and when my third eye caught the light from the preceptor’s third eye,
I opened my physical eyes to see if the sunlight from outside had come
into the room and was playing on my eyelids, but that was not the
case.
I did not know anything about the third
eye, purification of old mind-images or The White Light, which
actually had a tinge of gray in the same way as a foggy ray of sun
that radiates down through a gap in the layer of clouds on an
overcast day.
Although I had a splitting headache when I left, I was impressed.
Two days
later, I was seated in the home of the preceptor again and received
transmission.
Again, I saw The White Light.
This time, it streamed from all of her upper body and glided towards
me like a huge wave that absorbed me and filled me with happiness.
I thought that life was wonderful and I wished to remain in this
happiness-creating light forever.
In the end, I saw myself sitting in miniature at the bottom of a gray
flower.
DOUBTS
I told
others about my experiences and expected that they would want to
investigate the Master’s transmission, but instead they doubted my
sanity.
That made me uncertain, and I began doubting it too.
I exerted myself to the utmost, to spot the insanity, but I could not
detect it, neither in myself nor in the other meditating people; so I
shook off my fears and continued to receive transmissions and other
guidance from the preceptor.
When she spoke about the Master, I became particularly attentive.
One day, she mentioned that he had ulcers.
I was shaken.
If it were really true that he was a Master, then why didn’t he heal
himself?
Again my childhood’s image of God emerged to the surface and made me think that if he had been Jesus, he would have healed himself.
Maybe he wasn’t a Master in Reality but one of the powers of darkness
who used the light to snare people, and only after they were trapped
would they become aware that, in Reality, all of it had been the
delusion of the devil.
It dawned on me that even if it turned out that this wasn’t the case,
innermost, I had hoped to get his help to escape from sufferings, but
how would he be able to help me with that when he himself was
suffering from an illness?
However, I did not feel like giving up the expanded states of
consciousness, so I decided that I had to wait and see how everything
developed, and I shook off my fear.
My desire to meet the Master in person grew, and finally came the day when I stood face to face with him for the first time.
FACE TO FACE WITH THE MASTER
ARRIVAL AT THE MASTER’S
We were a group of twelve
Europeans, who had traveled together to
I was going in the first batch, but three of the group members had
agreed to take a taxi from New Delhi to Shahjahanpur, and they had
left without telling the rest of us who had planned to take the train
the next morning.
When I discovered that, I persuaded the other two to take a taxi
together with me, but I was furious at those three who had left
without us.
We arrived in Shahjahanpur some time into the evening and asked people for directions, but it took a long time before we finally met a person who knew who the Master was.
I got disheartened by this, because if he was a great spiritual Master
like I had been told, it appeared strange to me that hardly anybody in
his own town knew who he was.
When we entered the courtyard, I spotted the other three standing on
the terrace, facing away from us.
I rushed over to them furiously and said to one of them: "Do you think you can stand by what you did?" but when he turned his face towards me, I came to a halt and stared at him, astonished.
His face had a peaceful refulgence, which had not been there when I saw him twelve hours earlier in New Delhi
TELEPATHY
At that moment, everybody turned their heads towards a corridor at the right side of the building complex.
The Master came walking out from there.
He was a delicately built, thin and bald man, 74 years of age.
Slightly stooped, he came towards us, and at that instant a thought
that I knew wasn’t my own arose in my mind: "Who disturbs the peace?"
In a breathless moment I realized
that telepathy exists.
The next moment, I realized that it was I who disturbed the peace.
First I felt ashamed, and then I felt angry.
It was unfair that I was attacked in this way.
It wasn’t I who had made a mistake but the others.
Inexplicably, I felt that the Master did not share my point of view
and got confused.
UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF THE MASTER’S RADIATION
He passed by
us with a short greeting, by placing one palm of his hand against the
other in front of his chest and nodding lightly with his head.
This greeting is called Namaste or the God-greeting and it means: "I
greet God in you."
He sat down on a chair on the terrace, and I and the rest of the
European and Indian disciples sat down on chairs in a semicircle
around him.
Yet not a word had been spoken.
Now and then I looked investigatingly at him.
He had radiant, beautiful eyes, and his face was light from
refulgence.
His radiation was intense.
I got an urgent need to meditate and closed my eyes.
A huge image of Jesus on the cross rolled up before my inner eye and
disappeared.
Yet another question, which wasn’t my own, appeared in my mind: "Why
have you come?"
I answered in my mind too: "I have come to get proof of…. something."
I wringed my brain: "Now, why was it I had come?"
I rummaged my thoughts but did not find
an answer.
I realized that I did not know why I had come, but I tried to wring a
question out of my brain because I sensed that the Master’s attention
would be directed elsewhere if I didn’t have anything to ask, but all
my thoughts had ebbed out and left me in a state of silence and a
feeling of happiness.
THE MASTER – MY GURU
After some time, I opened my eyes and looked impressed at the Master.
He looked straight ahead of himself, and I looked around a bit and
discovered that another disciple sat with eyes closed.
"He is truly a Master," I thought "never have I experienced anything
like this."
Little by little, we all had opened our eyes, and soon a lively
conversation went on between the Master and us.
When he bid us goodnight, I wanted to show him that now I considered
him to be my Master, my Guru.
I waited until the others had walked away a bit and therefore could
not hear me, made the God-greeting and said: "Good night. My Master."
Now it was said out loud.
QUESTIONS TO THE MASTER
The Master’s eldest son managed the farm and his wife, their two daughters, an old maid and an office worker helped out.
The next morning, we were woken up by one of the Master’s
grandchildren, a young woman, who said that breakfast was ready.
We went downstairs, and the Master already sat in a corner of the
courtyard in the early morning sun smoking his hookah.
His hookah sent out a pleasant spiced and
sweet fragrance, and later I found out what was in it.
At the bottom there was a layer of molasses, then tobacco, and on top
of the tobacco was glowing charcoal that kept the tobacco lit.
The Indian disciples sat in a semicircle around him on the ground, and
all of a sudden, I thought that I didn’t have time to eat my breakfast
and swallowed it in a hurry to join the group.
I wanted to
hear his answer to my most burning question and I asked: "What is
death?"
"Don’t you feel the peace of the morning?" he asked surprised.
"No, I have too many questions," I answered.
"Write them down, and I’ll answer them one by one," he said.
I went up to my room immediately but when I put the pen to the paper,
yet another question arose that wasn’t my own: "How would it help me
that he explained what death is?"
I realized that even if the Master were able to answer the question to
my satisfaction, my next question would be: "I wonder if what he says
is true."
I took up my next question, but in the same way, I realized that I
wouldn’t be able to use the answer for anything, and before I knew it,
I was purged of questions.
Marveling, I went down to the courtyard and sat down together with the
other disciples in front of the Master without asking him anything.
GOD’S WILL
The Master
usually sat on his terrace and worked with the disciples, who sat in a
semicircle around him.
I noticed that one woman often sat on the chair right opposite him,
and I also wanted to sit at the center of his happiness-creating
attention.
I decided to sit down on that chair next time
we gathered around him, but hardly had I sat down before I felt that I
had behaved improper.
I got up, went out into the courtyard as randomly as possible and sat
down on another chair when I came back.
I wondered about the incident and decided to repeat the experiment,
but the result was the same.
The third time we went down there, I arrived as the last one.
The only chair vacant was the chair opposite the Master.
Beaming from joy I sat down.
I had heard sentences like: "Every single hair on our heads is accounted for" or "Not a sparrow falls to the ground without it being the will of God."
After my experiences with the chairs I began to wonder if that might
be true, because if it mattered which chair I sat down on, then that
might also be true.
One day, another disciple asked the Master about it, and laughingly he
answered: "Yes, but the opposite is also true.
God’s will does not move without the creaturesmanifestations
wanting it."
ARROGANCE 1
A session where the Master or his preceptors transmit The White Light to a group or a single person is called a sitting.
The spiritual work, which took
place when we were together with him, most often, consisted in him
giving us a sitting in the morning and in the evening.
Besides this, another part of the work took place automatically when
we sat together with him and were influenced by his radiation.
One evening, the Master led a group sitting that lasted unusually
long, and he breathed deeply like a person sleeping.
I had become sore from sitting for such a long time on the hard
clay floor and I tiptoed out of the room to go to the back
most courtyard to tell the young woman who was his grandchild that he
had fallen asleep and ask her what we should do.
She said that she would take the dog to the courtyard and make it
bark.
Then he would probably wake up.
I tiptoed back into the room, and just as I slid through the door, he
looked straight at me, and then his eyes were closed again.
A few minutes later the dog barked in the courtyard and the Master
stopped the sitting.
When I and the married couple I shared room with were about to sleep,
the wife said: "It was good indeed that you had the courage to do
something, otherwise we would be sitting there still."
By this thought we burst into laughter, and after we started laughing,
we couldn’t stop again.
We laughed for hours about
everything between Heaven and Earth, and I was happy and satisfied
with
myself when in the end we dropped off to sleep.
The next morning, the Master’s transmission had hardly begun before I
began to feel ashamed and I got confused because I did not understand
why.
It occurred to me that I had reasons to feel ashamed about my behavior
the previous evening.
Patiently, the others had waited the unfolding of events even if they
were sore from sitting on the floor too, but I had not been patient,
and on top of that, I was arrogant enough to think that I was above
them because of my action.
It had not occurred to me that the event could be seen from this
perspective, and my feeling of shame grew.
In the end, tears rolled down my cheeks.
Till this point, I had not thought of myself as arrogant or impatient,
but after the sitting I decided that I will not allow myself to be
like that anymore.
UNIVERSAL LOVE
One afternoon, we were together with the Master on the terrace.
The conversation switched among many topics, but soon the voices
glided past my ear like a faint humming in the background.
I was absorbed in watching the Master’s facial expressions and hand
movements while he spoke, and at the same time, I sank deeper and
deeper into a feeling of bliss.
Gratefully I thought: "Oh Master. I love you."
At that moment, he stopped talking and leaned back in his chair, as if
he heard my thought, and it also felt as if a special connection arose
between us.
A moment later, he resumed the interrupted conversation.
I wanted to investigate if it was a coincidence, so the next day I
stood in a place where I could see him but he could not see me.
I concentrated, recreatedremanifested the emotion and repeated the
thought.
"I love you, too," it sounded soundlessly in my thoughts, and he also turned his face in my direction, and again I got this feeling that a special connection arose between us.
I became happy and thought that his love was a special boon for me
alone, but when I told it to one of the other disciples, she said that
she knew this experience too.
Later, I heard other disciples, both male and female, express similar
experiences and I understood that the Master’s love was universal.
PRAYER
In the Master’s suggestions for daily practice a short prayer was included but I was reluctant to prayer, so I hadn’t used it yet.
One evening, on the terrace, the Master made us all roar with laughter
again and again, and my mood became so light and bright that I decided
to use the prayer, and when we came up to our room, I asked the wife
if she would teach me.
I repeated it after her a couple of times, and then we lay down to
sleep.
I repeated the prayer a couple of times in my thoughts, and with a
rush I felt lifted to a feeling of great height, lying in blissful
darkness.
For some time I floated there, and then, before my inner eye, I saw
myself slide down through a long dark tunnel.
In the distance I could see the exit, and it was filled with The White
Light.
After this experience I let go of my reluctance towards prayer.
GOD IN A FELLOW HUMAN BEING
One morning, the wife was ill, and she said to her husband and me that we shouldn’t tell anybody because she was convinced that it would take its right course when she was with the Master.
Later that morning, a doctor came to her and inquired about her
health, and she asked us if we had told anybody, but that we had not.
She beamed like a sun and said: "No matter what happens to you, the
Master takes care of it. Just think, how did he know that I was ill?"
The doctor prescribed some homeopathic medicines which she should take three times a day, and turning towards me, he gave me the medicines and instructed me as to when she was to take what.
When he left, to my irritation, I became aware that it was expected
that I should give her the medicine.
I thought it was a restriction on my freedom that I had to keep an eye
on time so I could not just devote myself entirely to my experiences
with the Master.
Moreover, I had a feeling that the Master made me her servant, and it made me feel that he loved her more than me.
A biblical sentence went through my head: "Am I my brother’s keeper?"
I was unpleasantly affected when I remembered that it was Cain’s reply
to God when God asked where Abel was after Cain had killed him.
I considered giving the medicine to her husband but hesitated, because
if it was the Master’s wish that I should do it, he might punish me
somehow if I did not do it.
I did not feel like telling her that she had to take care of taking her medicines herself, because she sat gazing happily ahead of herself and repeated: “Just think, how did he know that I was ill? The Master certainly takes care of everything”.
Reluctantly, I took on the task, but was not very particular about
giving her the medicine on time.
The following afternoon, I saw the doctor together with her in the
courtyard and hurried over there.
He was dissatisfied with the effects of the medicine and was
prescribing something else, while he instructed another woman as to
what she was going to have and when.
I felt that my task was given to somebody else because I had been
irresponsible and I said a silent prayer asking for another chance.
At that very moment, the doctor turned towards me, took the medicine
from the other woman, gave it to me and instructed me.
I felt relieved, and after this I saw to it that she got her medicine
punctually until she was well again.
Sometimes, it also happened that some of the Indian disciples told me how to meditate, and I got irritated.
Why did they tell me that?
Did I look like a beginner?
How could they know?
I did not listen to what they said, but one afternoon on the terrace with the Master, he corrected my form of meditation.
His transmission started flowing towards me, and I closed my eyes.
Then, I felt how my consciousness was gently focused in my heart and
was rocking there, until the transmission stopped.
I had begun to believe that the Master knew everything
that happened to me because of our telepathic contact, and the events
with the doctor and the other disciples made me think that in some
mysterious way or other, he was also present in all the events I
participated in, so that he could steer my life and my development in
the right direction, now that he had become my Guru.
Thus I had begun to believe that he was omniscient and omnipotent, and
for the first time I had got the idea that God’s qualities could be
ascribed to a fellow human being, and that God’s influence on my life
had got something to do with my fellow human beings.
THE MASTER’S IGNORANCE
One afternoon on the terrace, the conversation changed onto healing herbs.
The Master told us that once he had been at the doctor’s, and then he
had known how the various medicines in the doctor’s bottles worked
merely by holding them in his hand.
The doctor had been amazed and had said that everything the Master said was correct.
After narrating this, he leaned back in his chair and looked around at
us like a happy child who was proud of what he had accomplished, and
now he expected that we came up with an appropriate reaction.
Nobody said anything, and I stared perplexed at him.
Didn’t he himself know that he was omniscient, so that thing should be
the very least of his tricks?
A CLAIRVOYANT DREAM
One night, I had an unusual dream.
I dreamt that I went into the bathroom at the Master’s farm to take a
shower.
When I came out there, the Master was lying in a new sunken bathtub, which had been built into the floor, together with a woman who was also his disciple, and who began meditating ahead of me.
I became a bit perplexed about the situation but thought that it was
probably all right when it concerned the Master and jumped into the
bathtub myself.
As soon as I lay there the other woman disappeared, and I was glad to
get an opportunity to be alone with him.
He put his arms around me.
Sexual feelings arose in me, but I hoped that he did not discover
that.
I was quiet as a mouse waiting to see what else would happen, but
nothing happened, and he got out of the bathtub.
While we stood there wiping ourselves, he also came in through the
door.
I looked in confusion from one to the other, but then the Master who
came in through the door took out a fire hose and washed down the
Master next to me with it.
His appearance melted away like wax on a doll, and a handsome young
man stood next to me instead of the Master.
I left the Master’s farm together with him.
For a long time we walked on an edge between the land and the ocean.
Towards the ocean was a deep fall.
He didn’t say anything, and I was waiting for something to happen.
At some point, we came to some kind of shop, which looked like a
cylinder with a pointed roof.
There was a hatch in the wall, and I put my head in and looked around.
There were all kinds of oddities in there.
The young man said that I could choose what I wanted from there.
For a moment, I was tempted by a mirror that I thought was magical.
I had a feeling that my choice was decisive, and therefore I did not want to take chances because of a mirror.
I pulled out my head again and said that there was nothing I wanted
from there.
The young man disappeared, and all of a sudden, I found myself inside
a white castle.
I had been taken there against my will, and when I arrived, a man in a
wheelchair came to inspect me.
He scared me for some reason or other and I recoiled, but he followed
me.
I made some hand movements, and he rolled his wheelchair backwards and
disappeared.
Then I was bathed by servants in a big sunken bathtub, which was built
in the middle of a beautiful room.
Then I was dressed up in transparent robes and lined up together with some other girls in similar transparent robes.
I was told that a bride for the prince would be selected from among
us.
The prince himself was only a child, and the chosen one had to marry
his substitute who was going to lead the realm until the prince
himself became adult enough to take over both the bride and the realm.
I felt that it was not appropriate for me to become the chosen one,
and wondered how I could make myself ugly.
At that moment, it was announced that the chosen one was found.
A lively talk arose, and I took the opportunity to slip out of the
hall.
On my way out, I tiptoed into the substitute’s room.
He was in deep sleep and was a handsome young man, with black curly
hair, finely drawn eyebrows and thick, black, long eyelashes, which
rested on his cheeks.
For a moment, I was sad that I wasn’t the chosen one.
I wondered if I should slip in and see the prince but gave it up,
because he was after all only a child yet.
Suddenly, I found myself in front of the gate leading into the Master’s farm.
My clothes were torn and dirty, and I had a pair of wet socks in my hand.
Tired, I dragged myself across the
courtyard.
The Master sat in a corner in the sunshine together with a group of
disciples and he did not react to my return.
I went upstairs to my room, took off my clothes and showered; dressed
in a long, clean, white cotton dress and went down and sat among the
other disciples in front of the Master.
As soon as I sat down, I felt the blessed feeling of the power of the
transmission streaming into me and filling me up.
Tired but satisfied, I closed my eyes and slipped into meditation.
When I woke
up, I felt intuitively that I had had a clairvoyant dream about the
future.
I was upset about it, because I believed that it said that at some
point in time I would leave the Master to be together with a young man
who looked like the Master but who wasn’t him.
Then, I would go through a series of hardships and, in the end, return
to the Master in a soiled condition with a pair of wet socks in my
hand as a sign of my mistakes.
I thought it was best to avoid the mistakes and pondered over how to
avoid the dream from coming true, but then realized that I couldn’t
figure out how to avoid something which I didn’t know what was.
THE MASTER’S RADIATION
Reluctantly, we realized that the last of our seven days with the Master had come.
The other group would arrive in the course of the evening, and I
looked forward to seeing them again.
I was in the dining room when I heard them arrive and hurried out to
say hello, but when I came out into the courtyard I stopped,
surprised, and I stood still observing them from far.
A quivering unrest streamed out from them and any desire to go meet
them left me.
Their luggage had just been unloaded from the rickshaws, and they
stood a little inside the gate looking tired and colorless.
The quivering unrest which surrounded them vibrated through the sublime peace that existed on the Master’s farm, and which I had become a part of.
First, when I experienced the contrast, I understood how the Master’s
radiation had affected my state of being.
THE MIRROR OF THE SPIRIT
When the group had been quartered, we went to the terrace.
I was curious to see which chair I would get, and when I reached
there, both the new and the old group were seated already.
The only chair available was the one opposite the Master.
Happily I sat down and looked at him.
I wanted to do something or the other to show him how grateful I was
because I had met him, but couldn’t think of anything.
Suddenly, he looked straight into my eyes.
I looked into his eyes, which opened to me in a very special way.
It appeared to me as if veil after veil lifted from them, and I looked
deeper and deeper.
I looked and I looked, but no matter how deep I looked, there were
still immeasurable depths to be seen.
It lasted maybe a few seconds, but I was overwhelmed.
It had been like looking into eternity!
DEPARTURE
Somebody whispered to me that our taxi had arrived.
I bent over and said it to the Master with a soft and subdued voice.
We got up to take leave and said goodbye one by one.
When we came back to
SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCES
It was
strange to return to my usual surroundings, because they were the same
as they were ten days ago but I had changed.
I often experienced the same condition, which I had had together with
the Master.
When the condition was not there, I tried to bring it forth and
discovered that an efficient means to achieve it was to think of him.
Hence, I
made it a habit to think of how it had been to be together with him,
and about what transpired while I had been there.
I also began reading his books and in one of these it said that what I
was doing is called Constant Remembrance, and that this was one of his
suggestions for training one’s capacity to focus spiritually.
Gradually, as I spoke with other meditating people both from the
Master’s system of meditation and other systems, and at the same time,
my capacity to focus developed, I understood that a person usually
selects his/her spiritual guide for the purpose of achieving his/her
own conscious contact with God, but since it is difficult to focus
your attention on something as abstract as the emptiness in the focus
point, which is required to see, hear, feel or sense God, you can use
your chosen guide to create an inner focus point by directing your
thoughts towards this person throughout the day.
However, this is only an advantageous practice if the guide has a
capacity which makes it possible for the disciple to experience God’s
qualities in him/her.
THE MASTER’S ANSWER TO A LETTER
Sometimes, I wondered what it actually was that I wanted from the Master.
At one point in time, I had imagined that experiences with
extrasensory phenomenon such as telepathy would satisfy my longing to
get an answer to something that I still did not know what could be,
but the extrasensory experiences that I
had together with the Master had not brought me any closer to my goal,
which I was not aware of what could be either.
Eventually, I decided to write to him that I was frequently seized by
doubts about who he was, what his qualities were, and what his purpose
was, and his answer to this letter was overwhelming, particularly
because he didn’t say or write one word.
At the same time, I became aware that I didn’t have to sit in front of
him in
A little more than a week after posting the letter, I got a fever and had to go to bed.
I intuitively felt that my fever-condition was due to the fact that
the Master had received my letter and transmitted to me so powerfully
that my physical system became heated, and therefore I decided to
meditate although I had been told that it was better not to do so
during illness.
I was lying
in bed meditating but, suddenly, I felt as if I was sitting up, and
that was the first time I experienced that my body sensation was in
another place as compared to where my physical body was placed.
This made me think that the Master wanted to show me that he had the
capacity to bring me into contact with my astral body.
In the evening, I heard light running steps on the stairs that led up to my bedroom.
I was alone in the house and I listened anxiously.
Suddenly, I sensed that my sister stood in the doorway, invisible to
my inner and outer eye.
She shook in a heart-breaking way and a complaint reached my inner
ear: "I'm freezing, and I am so lonely."
My stomach contracted from compassion.
Without words or thoughts I answered: "Then come and make yourself
warm here by me."
I lifted the cover and felt a light weight of an invisible being, half
my size, lay down next to me.
I wanted to say something but could no longer find out how one
communicated without thoughts or words.
Instead I thought: "Do you want me to come and visit you?"
I did not get an answer, and the feeling of the weight next to me had
disappeared too.
I hoped to attain clarity about the experience by comparing it with
her experience at the same point in time, and so I called her the
following day and asked her what she experienced around that time.
She slept.
In spite of the lack of confirmation from her side, I felt that the
Master had shown me that he had the capacity to establish my
communication with other beings in the inner World in a special way,
without the use of words or thoughts, and yet clearer and more direct
than when I expressed myself by the help of words or thoughts.
In the afternoon, again, I decided to meditate and had a vision of a strange cylindrical object that turned around its own axes while at the same time moving forward in space.
From its North and South Pole ran some kind of tubes with various
colors at the ends.
When it disappeared, my field of vision
was filled with a blue sky with oval openings.
I discovered that the colors of the oval openings imperceptibly
changed color to the tones of a celestial music the likes of which I
had never heard before or since.
"Oh, this must be the music of the spheres," I thought.
Much later, I realized it to be the sound of OM emanating from the Heavenly choir.
The
following day, I had a vision where the extended space was filled with
little tiny dots that moved forward in the sky in perfect formation.
At that time, I did not understand what the Master tried to show me with these two visions and sadly, I wrote in my spiritual journal: "What good does it do me that the Master shows me all of this when I don’t have the capacity to understand what he says to me".
Much later,
after my Spiritual Wedding with TuTu had taken place, I was led into
the consciousness of our Cosmic Egg by my groom, and seen from this
perspective, I understood that the Master had indeed answered my
questions as to who he was and what his purpose was by the help of
these experiences.
In the first vision, he had let me experience The Cosmic Eggs seen
from the outside, together with the sound-image which springs from
them.
In the second vision, he had shown me the archetypal formation of
The Cosmic Eggs.
At that point in time, I also understood that a spiritual aspirant can
experience The Cosmic Eggs from the outside, if he/she can penetrate
the seventh dimension consciously and from the inside if he/she can
penetrate the Absolute consciously.
His answer to my letter had thus been that he was a seventh dimension Master, and as such, he had the capacity to take me into this dimension and this was his purpose.
This conclusion, I felt, was confirmed by the Master himself when I
read in one of his books that his highest approach to the Absolute
consisted in seeing the shell of the Egg from the outside.
When he tried to come closer he felt a powerful jolt, which prevented
him from advancing any further.
SELF-CREATEDMANIFESTED LIMITATIONS
For a long
time, there had been rumors that the Master would come to
My disappointment was so intense that I decided to go to
I took a closer look at my finances and found that it could be done
comparatively easily, and thereby, for the first time, I made the
discovery that many things I did not think possible proved to be so if
I began to act as if they were.
SIGNS FOR MY MEETING WITH TUTU
The second
time I was at the Master’s, I had many dreams and two of them stood
clear for several years thereafter.
In one dream, I was very weak and some people circled around me,
worried.
I didn’t think there was any cause for worry as my weakness was a kind
of an act that I put up, because I hoped it would make the Master
personally come and attend to me.
I had the idea that he would only come if I weren't able to do without
him, and therefore, I rejected help from those present who did not
understand my unspoken desire for his
presence.
I managed to become so weak that I could
let myself drop lifeless on the floor.
That createdmanifested commotion, and a couple of people tried to get me back on my feet but I made myself heavy and let myself drop on the floor again, and in the end they saw no other solution than to implore the Master to personally to come and see what could be done.
When he came, I had been lifeless for so long that I wasn’t able to get back on my feet even if I wanted to get up to show him my joy about his arrival.
However, with great effort, I managed to whisper: "It is because I love you so much."
My voice was barely audible and I was afraid that he had not heard it,
so with a superhuman effort, I managed to get on my feet and take one
staggering step towards him.
Then my legs carried me no further, and I fell into his arms.
Before I lost consciousness again, I managed to repeat barely audible
"It is because I love you so much."
Later, it would prove that the dream showed the state of confusion and
weakness I was in when TuTu came into my life, and that this was
actually the energy pattern or archetype of The Sleeping Beauty that I
experienced in this context.
MEMORY IMAGE FROM A PREVIOUS INCARNATION
In the second dream, I was on tour with the Master and a group of other disciples who were allowed to follow him on this tour.
He was young and handsome and looked like
one of those colored scraps of Jesus I had seen in my childhood.
His mere presence was a blessing to the places he visited, and it was
exciting to see that even if many people weren’t aware of who he was,
they were attracted to the love and compassion that radiated from him.
On our tour, we made a stop at a small village.
In this village, there was a kind of restaurant, which consisted of a
roughly carved wooden table with roughly carved benches on each side
of it.
Soon the interaction between the Master and the local inhabitants
began.
I was seized by jealousy when too much time passed by without him
giving me special attention.
Usually, he helped me instantly by sending me a loving glance or by
coming up with a cheerful remark.
When he had done that, I felt reassured and was able to observe his
interaction with the surroundings again.
Once, my
jealousy arose when he was deeply absorbed in a conversation, and he
continued with it without taking my feelings into consideration.
I was out of my mind of restlessness and pain, and I realized that I
had to find a way out of this feeling, but I could not get out of it
and became despondent.
At that moment, he turned his face towards me with a cheerful twinkle
in his eyes, while at the same time, he almost imperceptibly shook his
head as if he wanted to say: "You little fool. You do know that I love
you."
I became so happy to discover that he had been aware of what was
happening within me all along that my jealousy vanished and I was able
to rejoice in his interaction with the surroundings again.
Later, this proved to be a memory dream from a previous incarnation
that, at the same time, pointed out what was going to become my most
important problem in my relationship with TuTu.
SUICIDE
It was a
common perception among disciples that the Master could say everything
about a person merely by looking at a photo of the person, and I had
brought a photo with me to
His wife and I had talked a lot about his suicide, and she wanted to
write a letter to the Master, to ask about his destiny after death.
We spoke about it one day when I had just come from a sitting with my
preceptor.
The preceptor had mentioned that one could get answers to spiritual
questions by channeling them up through a certain point on one’s head
and then going into deep meditation, forgetting about the question
asked.
I did not think that it was a coincidence that I had got this
information on this very day, and so I suggested to my friend’s wife
that I should try to get an answer for her.
She agreed, and I sat down, asked the question, went into deep
meditation and forgot about it.
During the meditation, I had a vision.
I saw a bright figure in front of a dark
house.
Everything
was in darkness, and the house wasn’t visible, but I knew that it was
there.
In the distance, far behind it, I saw a whitish gleam.
The bright figure rushed restlessly back and forth in front of the
house.
I could see the entrance of the house and did not understand why he
did not go through it so that he could reach the light in the
distance, but then I realized that he could not see the door.
I got an intense desire to help and thought: "There! There!" when he
passed by it.
When my inner eye caught the image, I looked at it with the same
detachment as I would look at a random passer-by in the street.
Then, I remembered my question and it gave a jerk in me.
"Yes, but that is my friend," I thought.
My next thought went to his wife.
"No, I can’t tell her that. She’ll go out of her mind from sorrow,
when she hears it… on the other hand, the purpose of this meditation
is, after all, to get an answer for her, so I have to tell her."
I opened my eyes and told her what I had seen.
To my surprise, she got relieved and said: "How good it was that I
didn’t get around to send a letter to the Master, because it is a
totally different question I want to ask; now that I hear the answer,
instead, I want to know what can be done to help him."
She wrote a letter to the Master and after some time she had a dream,
where her husband smiled at her and seemed to be feeling good, but she
wasn’t satisfied with this result, and we decided that I should take a
photo of him to the Master and ask if anything could be done for him.
The Master looked at the photo for a while and answered that I and his
wife could pray for him and so we did at times until the Master came
to
The wife approached him again and asked yet another time for help, and
he answered that she could pray for him.
She said that she had done that.
He became silent for a couple of minutes.
"I will do something," he then said.
Later that evening, I sat in his room
together with some other disciples when his most prominent Indian
preceptor entered.
Later on, he turned out to be the Master’s successor as a guide for
the disciples, and therefore, I have chosen to call him the Master’s
Crown Prince.
"I have got a suicide case and…" the Master said cheerfully and
reverted into Hindi while he eagerly
gesticulated and explained the case to the Crown Prince.
I was surprised by his cheerfulness because I thought that suicide was
a depressing topic, but he seemed to think that he had got an
interesting case, and now, he wanted to show the Crown Prince how you
could handle such a case.
The next day, he summoned my friend’s wife and said: "I
found him in a corner of the Universe. I simply took him and moved him
from one shelf to another. Now I have done something, and now he has
peace."
THE
INITIATION TAKES PLACE
After my
second visit to India, I was convinced that the only thing I really
wanted was Self-realization, about which I did not know anything, but
the Master often spoke about it as the highest good for the disciples,
and sometimes I reproached him in my thoughts that he did not uplift
me to this stage immediately as he had the capacity to do so.
I found it hard to believe when he wrote in his books that he was
always eager to give his associates, as he called the disciples, the
highest spiritual approach as soon as possible.
If that was so, then why didn’t he uplift me to the stage of
Self-realization right now?
One day, I
received a transmission from a preceptor and got a vision of the
Master’s face, which was transparent and covered my whole field of
vision.
The hollows of his eyes were empty, and I stood in miniature on the
rim of one eye.
An invisible hand was stretched out towards me and a soundless voice
offered me: “Self-realization NOW?!!”
I felt I had
to throw myself out from his eye into the empty void if I wanted to
attain it, but I was as if frozen in death fear.
"I first have to see what will happen between my boyfriend and me," I
thought.
In that fraction of a second, the vision disappeared.
I was surprised to discover that I was afraid of Self-realization.
After that day, I often tried to do away with my fear by recalling the
vision during contemplation and imagining that I jumped.
Even if I set my willpower up to do it I only succeeded in imagining
doing it once, but this fantasy did not bring about any change in my
state of consciousness.
On the other hand, I became aware that the difference between a
fantasy-induced spiritual experience and a genuine one
is that the genuine one brings forth a change in my state of
consciousness and the one produced by my fantasy gives me information
of a different kind about my mind.
DECISION TO TRAVEL
While the Master was in Copenhagen, a desire emerged, to stake everything I’d got to come closer to him, and I decided to do a pilgrimage where I would spend a year together with him but various hindrances arose that restricted my stay in the East to three months, where I would spend one week in the beginning and one week in the end of the journey together with him.
Between the first and the last
week of traveling, I would go into the
My sister wanted to come.
We agreed to travel, five people in all - my sister, her boyfriend, her son, my son and I.
PILGRIMAGE
SIGNS
OF THE MAGICAL RING
We left the
Master’s farm and went towards
When we reached into the
After a short stay in
Here, we met a traveling salesman from the West, who showed us a
little dull looking metal lump, which he had hanging in a leather
strap around his neck.
He told us that this metal was made in a distant past in the temples
and consisted in an alloy of seventeen metals.
People with knowledge of it would pay high prices to gain possession
of just a little piece, because it was said to possess magical
properties and bring luck to the possessor.
He shone a small corner of the lump, and we saw that the metal shone
clearer than gold and deeper than silver.
We imagined that he tried to sell it and asked the price, but it
turned out that he did not want to sell it.
PSYCHOTROPICS 2
Usually, we took our meals in a small restaurant called Suraj, which means sun.
One day, I spoke to an Irishman there.
I had seen him several times.
Every day, he sat there rolling a joint after his meal, and I felt
like smoking some of the famous Nepalese hemp, but did
not know where one could buy it.
It was a long time since I had smoked
hemp, and I wanted to see if the effect was still confusing.
To get into contact with him I asked what he was doing.
He explained that he was making a joint and asked me if I wanted to smoke, so I took a couple of drags.
I got strongly affected and entered a high and clear altered state of
awareness.
THE
OLD MAN OF THE FAIRY TALES
In the
course of the next few days, the Irishman and I spent more and more
time in each other’s company, and every time I took a couple of drags
from his joint.
One afternoon, I
sat together with him in silence and looked out through the open
doors of the restaurant.
An old man came walking down the path towards us.
He was delicately built and fragile like the Master, and he walked in the same way.
I swallowed him in one glance.
His clothes were poor and worn out, and
he looked tired.
I thought that if he had been the Master I would have helped him by
giving him some money.
Spontaneously,
I got up, went over to him, greeted him reverently with the
God-greeting and gave him all the money that I had in my purse.
When I came back to Suraj, the Irishman asked: "What on Earth did you
do?"
"I gave him all my money."
"Are you crazy?"
"You don’t understand," I said, "but he looked like my Guru."
The Irishman shook his head, but I was very satisfied with my action
because it was the first time in my life that I acted spontaneously
out of pure generosity.
THE MAGICAL RING
The following morning,
the
Irishman, my sister’s son, my son and I sat in the morning
sun and had our breakfast when some traveling Tibetan merchants came
over to our table.
The boys had spent a lot of time trading with various merchants, and they had tried to find someone who sold snake rings.
I decided to give them one each and asked the two merchants if they
had snake rings.
They showed us some, which looked like black-spotted old brass rings,
but they had a beautiful form and so the
boys wanted them anyway.
Spontaneously, I bought and paid for three
rings without negotiating the price.
One I bought for myself, and wondered why I
had bought it.
The Irishman bought a beautiful silver ring, asked me to receive it
and put it on my finger.
With this, I felt that our relationship was sealed with a ring of love
like it is commonly done in the West.
We went down the path, and the boys were talking between themselves
some distance behind us.
Suddenly, my son came up with an exclamation and he came running to
us.
They had started shining their rings, and my son showed us that they
shone clearer than gold and deeper than silver.
When we parted from the Irishman, we
began to shine the rings all over, also
the snake’s eye pits that were no larger than pinheads, and then we
went out into the sun to let it shine on them.
The rings shone with a mysterious brilliance and a pencil of rays
stood out from each eye.
"Yesterday I helped an old man, and today we come into possession of a
magical ring which was made from
seventeen metals," I said, "that makes me think of the fairy tales
from my childhood, where an old man comes out of the forest in need of
help. If someone helps, the person receives a magical present."
It turned out that only I got the full benefit
from this gift of power.
Neither my son nor my sister’s son had acquired that type of attention
which is required to spot that side of Reality which contains gifts of
power.
THE
HEALING POWERS OF THE MAGICAL RING
Late in the afternoon, I went up to Suraj to drink tea, and there I met the cook’s wife who carried her sick baby on her arm.
The family had been to the doctor and to the hospital but nothing
helped.
I caressed the baby, who took a firm grip
of my hand and turned it while his lips sought down it.
He found the snake ring and began sucking it.
Gradually, he straightened up, and his
feverish eyes appeared to me to be more normal when he let go
of the ring.
"He seems to be better now!?" I asked.
The mother nodded and looked warmly at me.
When I left from there, I looked for the boys to tell them what I had
experienced and that apparently it wasn’t just a mind game that we had
come into possession of a magical ring.
In the course of the next couple of days, the baby got completely
well, and the mother’s face became soft when she looked at me.
THE
OLD WOMAN OF THE FAIRY TALES
The next day, I went for a walk and noticed that I felt differently than I used to.
I walked down the path and felt a special communion with the people,
the water buffaloes, the birds, the spiders in their webs, the
flowers, the plants and the trees.
When I walked back towards Suraj, I
spotted the old woman whom I had met
one of the first days of my visit.
She had asked me for a cigarette and a rupee, and it had become a
ritual between us that she got a cigarette and a rupee from me every
day.
She leaned towards a post and held
on to her stomach with a face distorted from pain.
I ran the last stretch up to her.
Tears welled up in my eyes when I asked: "Whatever happened to you?"
"Oh... huh… have pain," she groaned
in broken English.
"I don’t know if the ring works or not, but it doesn’t do any harm to
try," I thought.
"Is it here it hurts?" I asked, while at the same time, I put the ring
against her solar plexus center.
At that moment, a prayer went through my head on its own accord: "Oh
Babuji, help this being in agony."
Babuji was the pet name
of
the Master.
As the prayer passed through my head, it felt as if my head opened up
above my eyebrows and the whole way around and so the top of my
head opened, and a pillar of light gushed up.
At the same time, wave after wave of bliss rushed through me.
The old woman’s face became calm.
She seized my hand, lifted it to her third eye and pressed the snake
ring against it, stood like that for a moment with eyes closed, let go
of my hand, looked calmly at me and said: "You
doctor," greeted me with the
God-greeting and left.
I looked around.
My eyesight had expanded.
It appeared to me as if I had lost focus, and that made it possible
for me to see a wide-angle picture of the surroundings, while at the
same time, I saw every person, every water buffalo, every tree, every
house and every movement in the landscape.
I saw the totality and the individuality at the same time.
My hearing had changed in the same way as my eyesight.
I heard the total sound-image and every sound by itself.
I heard the music of Reality from the
unfolding of life around me.
It was like a symphony, an undulating movement of sound that no piece
of music could match.
I was full
of wonder about this elevated state that came into being when an
intense desire arose in me to help the old woman.
Yet another time, I had to think of the fairy tales saying that the
person who helps an old man or an old woman in need receives a magical
present.
THE
INFORMATIVE POWERS OF THE MAGICAL RING
The Irishman and I had once
visited a Danish journalist couple who lived in a hut near the lake,
but now they had taken up a room at Suraj because some of their Danish
friends had come back from
One evening, a girl from the Danish group was missing and I asked
where she was.
She was ill, and they feared the worst because she had a fierce attack
of diarrhea.
I went up the hen coop ladder to her room.
"Where does it hurt," I asked.
She lifted the cover and pointed to her belly.
"Is it here?" I said, intuitively putting the snake ring to her belly
at the same time.
She nodded.
Names of various food items and a glass of freshly squeezed grapefruit
juice went through my mind when the ring got in contact with her
stomach.
"Have you had something to eat?" I asked.
She shook her head: "I can’t eat anything."
"You ought to eat something. Maybe you could eat these things?”
I listed that, which had gone through my head.
She nodded: "Yes I can eat that."
"Good, then I’ll go down to the kitchen to order it," I said.
The next day, I met her in the restaurant and was told that she became
well again after she ate.
SELF-CENTEREDNESS
The word got
around that something special was going on with me, and one day, a
Nepalese woman with her baby on her arm came to me together with the
old man.
The children, with whom I used to play five-stones games, usually
crowded around me when I showed up, and now they translated in broken
English what the old man said.
They explained that the woman swung her baby around in a fit of temper
and the baby had become so scared that she cried now when anybody
approached her, and therefore the mother had given her a bonnet with a
big flounce to wear so she couldn’t see when anybody approached her.
The mother herself was unable to speak.
We sat down on the ground and the children and a group of local people
gathered around us.
Intuitively, I turned my hand with the snake ring so it sparkled in
the sun, and when one of the rays hit the baby’s eye, she stopped
crying, and I stretched out my hand to touch her.
A whisper went through the crowd, and I became aware that I was doing
something extraordinary and was momentarily shaken by
self-centeredness as if it was me who personally caused this healing.
Thereby, I was
seized by fear of doing something ridiculous, sitting here and
playing healer by the help of a ring which was probably quite an
ordinary ring when all came down to it.
I shook off my self-centeredness.
The baby seized my hand, lifted it to her mouth and began sucking the
ring, and when she let go of my hand, we sat quietly for a little
while.
Then, I put one hand around the neck of the mother and my other hand
with the snake ring intuitively at one point on her throat.
I looked at her in confusion, but followed the impulse, which sprang
from the ring touching her throat, and said that there was nothing the
matter with her.
She should
just speak.
She didn’t say anything.
I thought
that she did not understand what I said and got one of the children to
translate it to her.
The child explained it to her and then said to me that it wasn’t
because she did not want to speak.
She was not able to.
For the second time, I got self-centered and began wondering what I
was actually doing, sitting here telling a sick woman that she should
speak without knowing if she came to harm if she tried.
This time, I did not manage to shake off my self-centeredness and fled
to my hotel to recover.
I dropped off to sleep, and after a couple of hours I woke up and went
up the path to Suraj.
The old woman waited for me together with the mother who carried her
baby on her arm.
The mother greeted me respectfully and said something in Nepalese.
The old woman said: "She thanks you."
Tears of gratitude welled up in my eyes
because she spoke now, and because I had not harmed her.
I looked at the baby who sat on her mother’s arm without the bonnet
and understood that the mother thanked me for the baby’s healing.
The old woman and I lit a cigarette and smoked in silence.
When I was about to leave, she put her hands on my shoulders and
looked affectionately at me.
"You, my daughter," she said.
ATTACHMENT
One
afternoon, a Nepalese woman came to me and pointed to the snake ring
and then to herself.
The children were as usual flocking around me and they explained that
she wanted my ring.
I said that
I couldn’t give it away because it belonged to me for special reasons.
Afterwards, I became sad because I felt that my action was contrary to
the power of the ring.
Why had I not given her the ring?
I went down to sleep for a couple of hours and when I woke up, it felt
as if the snake ring was not on my finger.
Feverishly I lifted my hand and saw that it was still there, but now I
understood that I was more attached to the ring than was good for me.
We were moving on toward
That very moment, it felt as if the snake
ring slid off my finger.
With a jerk I pulled my hand back and looked at it, frightened.
The ring was still there.
It was the second time I experienced a feeling of the ring
disappearing and wondered what was going on.
It suddenly appeared to me that I had to give the ring to the first
person who asked for it.
I shook my head, but since then, frequently, I caught myself skip
shining the ring every day, which I had to if it should not lose its
brilliance.
THE
ARRIVAL AT THE HOTEL OF BLISS
As soon as
we reached
He gave us a sitting, and afterwards, he said that I had taken in an
unusual amount of impressions, and so cleaning was needed.
After the sitting, we found a hotel in the same area of the city.
The hotel was called Anand Hotel, and that means The Hotel of Bliss.
My sister, her boyfriend and her son shared one room, and my son and I
another.
The hotel had a big open terrace in front of my sister’s room, and mostly we had our breakfast together there.
The day after our arrival, I told the Crown Prince that I was
disappointed to hear that I needed cleaning, because I had had the
impression that I had achieved a spiritual elevation in
He said that it was correct, but at the same time, I had taken in many
impressions which had to be cleaned out.
THE PALM
LEAF ARCHIVES
One day, I
managed to get access to the Palm Leaf Archives, which were found in
this city.
I heard about these archives at the Master’s farm.
They were said to be spread out all over
The Master believed in them, and therefore I was curious about them
and wanted to visit them, but I did not know where they were to be
found.
The father of the Crown Prince mentioned them one day, and it turned
out that he had the address for that part of the archive which was
found in
I looked forward to seeing if my palm leaf was there after giving my
date of birth and seeing the archivist disappearing to the backroom of
the place.
After some time, he came back with a small bundle that looked like
broad ice-cream sticks, but which were compressed palm leaves covered
with writing in Old Tamil.
He said that now he would find out if I was the right person who
fitted these palm leaves’ description.
He looked ahead of himself, began chanting and then asked: "Did your
first Guru come from your own country?"
I had not thought of my sister’s husband as my Guru, but actually it
was he who had revived my spiritual life and inspired me to embark on
the path I was on now.
He went on chanting and asked: "Is your father’s and mother’s name the
same?"
That I had
not thought of earlier either, because I was used to just calling my
parents mother and father.
When then he asked if their names were a religious designation, I
surrendered to believing that indeed these archives contained
information about me.
He asked me about other things from my
life too, but that did not impress me so much, because this
information was from those areas of my life which did not take me by
surprise.
In the end, he chanted: "Then let it be justified that this person is
the person who is described on these leaves."
Before we began, he had asked me what I wanted to know, and I had said
that I would like to know how my spiritual life and my love life would
develop in the future.
He now translated those pages into English and said that in the
beginning of my fifties my inborn melancholy would leave me.
From the middle of my fifties, I would get continuous visions of my
Guru and God, and in this life itself I would achieve my spiritual
goal.
My husband would come from another country south of my own, and his
name would be the name of a king.
I would meet him very soon, maybe tomorrow, but at the latest within a
year, and he would take well care of me.
FIRST MEETING WITH TUTU
A few days later, I played chess with my sister one evening and it was late before I got up to go to my own room.
When I came out into the hall, my son was talking with a young man and
it turned out that he also came from
I joined them, and it turned out that the Dane just arrived from
We talked about our experiences, and the conversation slid into
spiritual topics.
The Dane spoke in enthusiastic terms about a man who lived in
They met each other in
Every time we came across a spiritual issue that he had difficulties taking a stand on, he said that the Indian would not only be able to give a better answer than he could but also a better answer than I, because he felt that the answers I had found were lacking.
I got irritated because I felt he covered himself behind this Indian
all of the time, but my curiosity was aroused, and the following
morning when we had our brunch on the terrace, the Dane
came together with the Indian to pay us a visit.
He was a handsome young man with
glittering eyes that had an expression of cheerfulness and a depth,
which I, until then, only had seen in the Master.
The Dane flung out his hand and introduced him with the words: "The
king of the Universe."
I threw a fast glance at him to see if he was joking, but he looked at
the Indian with an expression of seriousness and adoration, and I
concluded that the Indian was his Guru.
The Indian introduced himself as Harishchandra, and later it turned
out that his holy name was TuTu.
A person's holy name is a designation of his/her spiritual condition,
and I have chosen to use this name for him where it is possible
without disturbing the context.
He wrote it himself in two ways, either as
22 or as TuTu, which was his personal preference of the English
‘Two-Two’.
They sat down at our table, and soon we were all spellbound by TuTu, who told us about his stay in the mountains, where a holy man gave him a pilgrim’s staff which had an expanding effect on his consciousness.
At some point in time however, the staff had served its purpose in his
life, and it glided away from him down a river he was bathing in.
He thought that this type of power
objects had to go on to others when they had served their
purpose, and was glad that now it went on to somebody else who needed
it.
I looked at the snake ring on my finger
and was relieved to think that if I had to pass it on, it would be
because it had served its purpose in my life.
He talked about spirals and reversed spirals, about time and its
dissolution into its opposite, but I did
not understand what he was talking about.
Anyway, I was spellbound listening to him,
and when he came to a point he found particularly funny, he laughed
out loud in a charming childlike way.
He told us that he left his home
with a few rupees in his pocket to go up into the
Sometimes, he lacked the daily necessities,
and sometimes, he got help from unexpected sources.
He was convinced that this happened when he moved through Reality in
the right way.
TUTU’S EGO DEATH
On a foggy
night on his way to
He was walking alone on the road and for no reason he was seized by
fear, and in his agony, he walked and walked.
At some point in time, it became clear to him that it was not he who
felt this fear but his ego.
He had some visions, and when they
stopped, he became completely calm and understood that he had
passed through the ego death.
As soon as this experience was over, he spotted
a house but was not sure whether to enter it or not as the people
inside might get scared if he knocked on their door in the middle of
the night to ask for shelter.
At that moment, he spotted a Tulsi plant outside the house.
His mother’s name was Tulsi, and when he saw the plant, he knew that
he could knock the door.
He did and was well received.
I looked suspiciously at him, because when he claimed that he had passed through the ego death, in actual fact, he had to be a Self-realized spiritual Master, and then, in my eyes, he ought to be way more ascetic than he was.
On the other hand, I had been drowning
in The White Light while he spoke, just like it sometimes
happened when the Master transmitted to me.
At first, I thought that it was the Master, who, for some reason or
another, had chosen to transmit to me from Shahjahanpur just now, but
then it occurred to me that maybe the transmission came from TuTu.
I decided to try to find out, and when
he and the Dane got up to leave, I said: "Thank you for the
transmission," and looked excited at him to see if he would look
surprised or ask "What transmission?" but
he flung his head back and laughed out loud: "You're welcome."
Showers of The White Light poured down on
me, uplifting and intoxicating me.
I was completely taken in by his free laughter, his soft voice and his
glittering and brilliant eyes, but I was shaken to my core.
I had believed that only the Master and his preceptors were able to
give transmissions of the White Light, but now I had met one more
person who was able to.
TRAVELING PLANS
Halfway, I had expected the
Irishman to turn up in
Before we separated in Pokhara, he had told me that he came to Pokhara
with a friend in an old green van, and suddenly the friend had turned
up and insisted on leaving immediately.
The Irishman and I said goodbye.
He and his friend planned on going to
However, I did not know that at this point of time, and I had decided
to go to
I imagined that there was a short stretch in Goa where Westerners met
each other just like in Pokhara, because I often heard the sentence:
"We meet in Goa," among Westerners, and I could not imagine that one
would have a casual arrangement like that without having a
limited area to meet up.
I had bought an air ticket to
I had to start two days later, but
after TuTu and the Dane left, I went into my room and thought about
the issue.
For some reason or other I had lost my desire to travel.
SECOND
MEETING WITH TUTU
The next evening, the Dane and TuTu came to visit us again while we had our dinner on the terrace, and we invited them to join us.
After dinner, the conversation soon entered spiritual issues and TuTu
told us that his spiritual elevation had begun already before he went
further up the mountains.
On his way, he had passed through Manipur and had made a stop there.
One day, he meditated and saw a White Light before his inner eye.
The experience was very powerful, and afterwards he had a splitting
headache.
I remembered my first transmission from the preceptor, where I saw The
White Light too, and I also had a splitting headache when I left from
there.
He continued by sharing about
small and big events during his journey but soon his words passed by
my ear as a soft rising and falling, while shower after shower of
White Light poured down on me and drowned me in bliss.
It was late before they got up to leave.
"We’ll be back one of these days," TuTu said.
"I am not here the next few days. I go to
"When will you be back?"
"Tuesday."
"Ok, we’ll meet Tuesday evening then," he said.
CONVERSATION
IN THE BATH
The next morning, I went out into the common bathroom for women and my sister joined me.
While showering, she said: "You… eh… that
Indian guy… let him be. He is too young and inexperienced, and an
experienced woman like you can twist him around your little finger
much too easily. I feel sorry for him if you only play with his
feelings, because I take it that you’re not interested in involving
yourself?"
TuTu was twenty-one, and I was thirty-three.
"I don’t know. You never know."
I stared thoughtfully ahead of myself.
Apparently, she had observed something about him and me, which I
myself wasn’t aware of yet.
"What about the Irishman?" she asked surprised.
"I don’t know. It’s difficult to say."
By now I completely regretted my decision about going to
PASSING
ON OF THE MAGICAL RING
When I arrived in
I did not know which direction to
take but spotted a group of Westerners in colorful clothes in a small
square.
I told them my problem and said that I was looking for two Irishmen in
a green van.
One of them said that a Goan would come in a moment, and he knew where
all foreign cars were to be found in
A moment later, the man turned up, and he suggested that we went to a
nearby café and talked it over.
I told him my problem, and he said that it
was too late in the day to go looking for the green van which he
knew very well as to where it was.
He told me that it was Christmas time, and therefore it wasn’t
possible to get a hotel room, but he had some friends who had a hotel
on the outskirts of town, so he would take me there for the night and
quarter me in their private domain, and then we could go the following
day.
There was something smooth and businesslike about him, which made me
feel unsafe, but I didn’t feel I had any choice
other than surrendering to the mercy
of fate, and I agreed.
"What kind of ring is it you have there?" he asked pointing to the
snake ring.
"Oh, it is one I bought in
"Was it expensive?"
"No, it only cost a few rupees."
"If you had two, I would ask you to give me one of them," he said.
My heart sank.
The impossible had happened.
Slowly, I took off the ring and pushed it across the table.
"You can have it," I said in a low tone of voice.
It glittered and sparkled on his little finger.
He got up and said that he had to pick up a scooter so he could take
me to the hotel.
He disappeared, and I went out and sat down on the square to wait for
him.
The ring had left me at the worst possible moment.
I was alone in a foreign town and I did
not believe that the Goan would return.
When I carried the ring, I felt protected.
I felt more and more defenseless as time passed, and when half an hour had passed, I began crying.
After crying for a while, I found it absurd that I was sitting here
crying about the loss of the ring.
I turned my thoughts towards the Master, and slowly I came at ease and
slid into meditation.
The meditation ran out, and the Goan came back on a scooter and took
me to his friends.
AGAINST ALL ODDS
The
following day,
the Goan did not come back, and I took a bus that went along the
many beaches in
I found the green van, which the Goan talked about, but it belonged to a young European couple.
I made friends with the bus driver, and in the end, when I gave up
finding the Irishman, he said that I could live in his home, where his
mother and his sister would care well for me until I had to go back to
I said that I wanted to go back immediately and asked him to show me
where I could change my air ticket.
He shook his head and said that it wasn’t possible to get a plane out
of
It wasn’t open yet, but there was already
a long queue outside it.
Against all odds, I joined the queue.
The ticket office opened and people pushed their way in.
After another half an hour I reached the office.
Every time a person reached the counter, the clerk said: "No, there
are no seats available today. Next."
When I reached, the clerk looked at me, annoyed: "Yes?"
"I would like to go back to
"There are no seats today…" he stopped,
looked at me again and then said: "Well…
let me see."
He disappeared for a moment and came back: "Yes, there is just one
seat left. Let me see your ticket.”
A moment later, he came back with it stamped
‘ok’.
THE LOVE RING
It was
I was looking forward to meeting the Dane the next morning but he had
moved out of the hotel.
I was
disappointed because I did not know how to meet TuTu again if he did
not come to visit the Dane.
It felt like a waste of precious time to wait
till Tuesday to see him.
I was surprised that my emotions were so intense and over some unusual
thoughts that emerged.
I thought that until now I had been incarcerated in the cage of time,
and presently the time-cage had finally lifted and allowed him whom I
had been waiting for to step into my time-space sphere.
When I saw his delicately built, slim, almost feminine figure again, I
wondered why I had yearned so intensely for this moment.
He came Tuesday evening, and we all went out and sat down in the
moonlight on the terrace where he entertained us, and around
"Did you have your purposes with your trip
served?" he asked.
I told him that I did not meet the Irishman, and as I wanted to show
him that my relationship with the Irishman was over, I took off the
love ring and gave it to him.
"This is a special ring," I said, "It is a love ring. The Irishman
gave it to me, but I don’t want to be tied to him anymore. You can
have it, so if you want to tie a woman to
you in love, you can give it to her."
"I wear no jewelry" he said, "but I’ll take it home and have it with
me."
One day, we were out driving around in the city on a motorbike, and he
told me that now he had found the woman whom he wanted to tie to
himself in love, and therefore he had decided to give her the ring.
My heart sank.
He took the ring out and gave it to me.
Happily I received it.
A TEST
One afternoon, he casually said to me: "What is wrongdoing?"
In spite of the casual tone in his gentle voice, everything in me went
into red alert together with a feeling that my answer was decisive.
I mused and got the topic narrowed down to theft and murder, but was
it always wrong to take something that
did not belong to me?
It depended on whether the owner had thrown it away.
Was it always wrong to take another person’s life?
It depended on whether it happened as an accident in a situation,
where I defended my own life.
I thought and I thought, but could not
think of anything which was wrong through and through.
"I don’t know," I answered.
"Don’t you know what is right and wrong," he asked in his usual gentle
voice but with an undertone that made me squirm.
"No," I said stiffly, "it depends on the circumstances."
He laughed aloud with delight and threw his arms around me, looking at
me tenderly, and thereby I got the feeling that I had accomplished
some kind of achievement and I found it fortunate that I had thought
so deeply before I answered.
TUTU’S TASK
One day, TuTu told me that he had seen me in the afternoon sitting on the stone-step in front of the hotel the day before we met.
I looked melancholically ahead of
myself.
He had pointed to me and said to the Dane: "Look at that woman sitting
there. She is sad, and I have to help her with something or the
other."
I got irritated.
What a conceited guy.
Was he together with me because he thought that I was a poor wretch he
had to help with something or the other?
On the other hand it might be true?
I could not deny that slowly I had begun
to take up the Dane’s viewpoint that TuTu was some kind of
spiritual teacher.
He was very young, but it wasn’t the first time that a very young
person exposed spiritual qualities beyond the usual.
1001
NIGHT’S ADVENTURES
My being
together with him made me feel like a princess from 1001 Night’s
Adventures who had slept alone enclosed in a room while she dreamt
about her beloved, who in the end came flying through time and space
on a winged unicorn to wake her up by his magical arrival.
I was so
impressed by the feelings that arose in me in his company that I said
to my sister one day: "This is too good to be true. The abundance
which comes to my lot is so much that I fear the envy of even the
Gods"
In the same
way, on other occasions, words streamed out of my mouth which took me
by surprise.
One day, when TuTu and I were on our way to the beach in a rickshaw, I
turned towards him and exclaimed: "If people
can’t see that you are a king, even if you don’t wear a king’s
garment, they are completely blind."
And then I added: "Your Majesty, my king."
"My Goddess," he said.
I wanted to answer by addressing him with the words: "My God," but my
childhood’s image of God surfaced and prevented the words from coming
across my lips, so it was only much later that I came to understand
how much truth was hidden in those words.
Another day, I exclaimed: "I have been looking for you in all the Worlds, and just think that we were to meet here on this little piece of dust in the Universe called the Earth in the year of the Lord 1977. Who would have believed that?"
These statements mystified me and made me think that there was some part of my consciousness knowing something, which the rest of me did not know, but it turned out that everything came to light.
THE END
OF THE PILGRIMAGE
Our time in
Before our return to
When we arrived at the ashram, I decided to go back to
He looked surprised at me: "Don't you want to participate in
this… eh… celebration?"
I felt ashamed and looked down: "No, I’m leaving tomorrow."
He nodded and did not say anymore, and
the day after, both the boys and I were on our way back to
My sister and her boyfriend wanted to stay, and we were to meet in
The few days we spent in
My pilgrimage was over.
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DOCTRINE 2
THE
SIXTH DIMENSION
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BRIDGE
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THE
MASCULINE:
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MENTAL
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THE PRINCIPLES
THE
SECOND COMING OF JESUS CHRIST
During my
first visit at the Master’s, when I saw an image of Jesus on the cross
come and go in my mind’s eye, I wondered what the Master had to do
with Jesus, but I brushed it aside by thinking that he cleansed an
impression from my own culture out of my mind even though I didn’t
remember when it was createdmanifested.
One day, I heard from one of the Master’s disciples that the Master
had taken on the responsibility for the disciples of Jesus for a
period, but secretly that made me think that he had to suffer from
self-aggrandizement, although I could not make it fit with my other
impressions of him.
Gradually,
as my interaction with TuTu developed, I came to believe that the
cleansed impression did not stem from my own culture but was almost
two thousand years old and it sprang
from the pain I felt as the thirteenth disciple Mary Magdalene, when
I witnessed the crucifixion of Jesus Christ.
I also came to believe that it was necessary that the Master took on the responsibility for the disciples of Jesus for a period, because Jesus himself took on a life on Earth which demanded all of his attention, and that TuTu was the Second Coming of Jesus Christ.
It is said about Jesus that when he comes back he will bear the name The King of Truth.
TuTu was born on
He bore the name Harishchandra, which is the name of The King of Truth
in Indian mythology.
GOD’S WISH
For daily
use, he was called by the first two syllables of his name, Harish.
Har means Wish and Ish
means God.
Put together it means God’s Wish.
TuTu called himself the reluctant Messiah, because it was not the
achievement of a personal desire which necessitated that he accepted
to live through those sufferings that came to his lot but a life he
took on according to God’s wish to carry out a specific task, like it
was the case for Jesus too.
THE FATHER
AND THE SON
Jesus said that God the Father is
found in Heaven and God the Son on Earth, and that the father and the
son are one.
TuTu called Heaven for the God Realm or the eighth dimension and Earth
for the third.
He explained that God the Father is to be found in the eighth
dimension – the Spirit plane, and God the Son is to be found in the
third dimension – the physical plane, but that they are one and the
same individual consciousness that comes to expression in two
different dimensions – a man and his Spirit, and they are thus one and
the same consciousness in two different forms of expression.
THE HOLY SPIRIT
The last
part of TuTu’s personal name was Chandra, which means Moon.
In mythology, the moon represents the feminine principle - the
emotional, and the sun represents the masculine principle - the
mental, and his full personal name can thus be translated to – God’s
wish: The feminine principle.
TuTu
also explained that in every human being, whether man or woman, the
emotions reflect the light of the thoughts, like the moon reflects the
light of the sun.
Jesus taught about the masculine principle God the Father and God the
Son and came back as Harishchandra to complete this work by teaching
about the feminine principle Goddess the Mother and Goddess the
Daughter.
TuTu explained that Jesus veiled the feminine principle under the name
The Holy Spirit, because humankind at that time needed to step out of
the flock mentality by the help of the masculine principle.
The Holy Spirit is thus the veiled feminine principle Goddess the
Mother and Goddess the Daughter, who is the woman and her Spirit that
is one and the same consciousness expressing herself in two different
dimensions, and whom God now wishes to unveil and thereby place the
masculine and the feminine in their right places, side by side, on an
equal footing.
HIERARCHY
AND FELLOWSHIP
Further,
TuTu explained that on Earth, the masculine principle represents the
mental plane, the individuality and the hierarchy, and the feminine
principle represents the emotional plane, the unity and the
Fellowship.
The mental
plane is different for everybody irrespective of gender and life
circumstances, and the emotional plane is the same for all
irrespective of gender and life circumstances.
Humankind
has now stepped out of the flock mentality by the help of the
hierarchy, and in that way achieved the respect for the individual,
and therefore time is ripe to achieve unconditional love, care,
compassion and mercy for the individual by the help of the Fellowship.
TO
SEPARATE THE SHEEP FROM THE GOATS
In the
Bible, the disciples have written that when Jesus comes back, he will
sit at the right hand side of God the Father, separate the sheep from
the goats and then pass judgment on them.
Those who are ready will follow him to the
TuTu said that the people will themselves
choose if they want to stand either by his right hand side or by his
left hand side, and thus they will themselves pass the judgment on
themselves.
Those that are goats will choose to stand by his left hand side and
those that are sheep will choose to stand by his right hand side.
The place by his left hand side belongs to God the Father, and the
place by his right hand side belongs to his Spirit Mate, his other
half, his Eternal Beloved.
Those who stand by his left hand side express in that way their desire
for God the Father’s place and thus their desire for the power and the
glory, but that is not due to them.
Those who stand by his right hand side express in that way their
desire for his Eternal Beloved’s place and thus their desire for the
unconditional love, care, compassion and mercy, and that is due to
them.
THE
JUDGEMENT
Those who
wish to take God the Father’s place wish to
take a place which no human being is able to fill in and any
attempt to do so is therefore due to lack of discernment.
As written in the Bible, people who lack
this discernment, fornicate with the great harlot, whom the
disciples called
TuTu called the great harlot prestige and said that these people think
they can have their desire for the power and the glory fulfilled by
the help of the great harlot.
They court the favor of the harlot
by acquiring all the riches of the Earth, but the riches do not belong
to them, and in that way they become robbers and assaulters, although
they are dressed in gold and purple.
All the riches of the Earth are Mother Earth’s gift to all of her
children, but in their insanity those who fornicate with the harlot,
rape their own mother, the Earth, to acquire more and more.
As a result of these actions, they will be thrown into the lake of
fire, which consists of the great pain in their innermost heart,
because they cannot hear the desire of their heart.
In the lake of fire, they learn
to discern their innermost heart’s desire from all other
desires.
Only when they honestly admit their human
limitation,
ignorance, powerlessness and mortality and
act accordingly, they achieve the power of discernment that whispers
in their ear that the only thing their innermost heart desires is to
give and receive the unconditional love, care, compassion and
mercy.
Those who desire his Eternal Beloved’s
place show that they are ready to receive the unconditional
love, care, compassion and mercy, and
thereby they show, as written in the Bible, that they have the
wedding garment on, and therefore they shall follow him to the
They will do this as groom’s swains and bride’s maids to participate
in his Spiritual Wedding with his other
half, and this means that they
acknowledge and pick up the message that the Spiritual Wedding
exists, and pass it on.
When they themselves reach the point
where, consciously, they are able to enter the seventh dimension,
they know that soon they are going to stand in front of God's Holy
Altar, to enter into their own Spiritual Wedding with their own
Eternal Beloved, who will give them the unconditional love, care,
compassion and mercy, and to whom they will give the same, and in
their joy and anticipation they sing songs of praise about his
Spiritual Wedding together with the Heavenly Choir as written
in the Bible.
GOD
THE FATHER AND GODDESS THE MOTHER
TuTu explained further that God the Father holds the power of creation and Goddess the Mother holds the power of manifestation.
The creationmanifestation took place as a result of the love between
the power of creation and the power of manifestation.
In the third dimension, this comes to
expression when the man’s seed that holds the power of creation and
the woman’s egg that holds the power of manifestation merge, and in
this way, new life and new movement is also brought into the World
as a result of the love between the two.
The power of creation is the
unmanifest, the invisible and the darkness, and the power of
manifestation is the manifest, the visible and the light that streams
out from the Soul Plane, the seventh dimension.
In the individual human being, the presence of God the Father can be
observed as the Spirit of the Soul or the oneness and the presence of
Goddess the Mother can be observed as Soul of the Spirit or the
individuality.
SELF-REALIZATION
AND GOD-REALIZATION
Self-realization
means to make oneself real to oneself, and God-realization means to
make God real to oneself.
At its highest vantage point, Self-realization and God-realization is
one and the same, but the achievement of the highest vantage point
consists in a process involving various stages, where a person
gradually realizes his/her multidimensional existence.
A person who
exclusively perceives his/her existence in the third dimension as real
and therefore acts in accordance with this achieves his/her perception
of Reality by attaching himself or herself to people, animals, plants
and material things in the third dimension.
To such a person, God is either a hope that maybe there is more
between heaven and earth or a fantasy that other people have for
various reasons.
A person who
perceives his/her existence in both the third and the fourth dimension
as real and therefore acts in accordance with this achieves his/her
perception of Reality by also attaching himself/herself to his/her and
others’ need for time and space as well as his/her own and others’
movements through space over time, besides the attachments to the
third dimension.
To such a person, God is either a hope to
personally experience a miracle, something which is in opposition to
the generally accepted facts in the third dimension, or despondency
because of the lack of miracles in his/her own life, but TuTu said
that such a person need not despair and added: "Don’t hope for a
miracle. Count on it."
A person who
perceives his/her existence in the third, the fourth and the fifth
dimension as real and therefore acts in accordance with this achieves
his/her perception of Reality by also attaching himself/herself to
his/her own and others’ emotional life, besides the attachments to the
third and fourth dimension.
To such a
person, God is either a merciful but inexplicable power whose paths
are incomprehensible, or a threatening force that can crush all hopes
to punish the person in question for known or unknown trespasses.
A person who perceives his/her existence
in the third, the fourth, the fifth and the sixth dimension as real
and therefore acts in accordance with this achieves his/her
perception of Reality by also attaching himself/herself to his/her
own and others’ thought life, besides the attachments to the third,
fourth and fifth dimension.
To such a
person, God is a rational being who acts for reasons that might appear
incomprehensible to the person but because the motives of God spring
from a desire for the most advantageous for each and all, life as it
transpires has to be accepted, because there are good reasons behind
the happenings that the person will probably come to understand at
some point in life.
A person who
perceives his/her existence in the third, the fourth, the fifth, the
sixth and the seventh dimension as real and therefore acts in
accordance with this achieves his/her perception of Reality by also
attaching himself/herself to love, care, compassion and mercy, besides
the attachments to the third, fourth, fifth and sixth dimension.
To such a
person, God is a loving, caring, compassionate and merciful Being who
acts with a loving, caring, compassionate and merciful intention for
all, and therefore such a person has to receive both life’s pains and
joys as an expression of God’s gifts of love, and at the highest
vantage point of this stage, the person in question achieves his/her
individual and personal Self-realization, which consists in realizing:
"I am God."
Through this realization, the person slowly realizes that not only he/she is God, but that everything and everybody everywhere at all levels of existence is God, and as a result of this realization, the person slowly achieves his/her universal and impersonal Self-realization, which consists in realizing: "Everything and everybody everywhere at all levels of existence is God.”
Therefore, such a person perceives his/her own impulses and his/her interactions with everything and everybody everywhere at all levels of existence as his/her continuous conversation with God.
A person who
perceives his/her existence in the third, fourth, fifth, sixth and
seventh dimensions as well as the Absolute, the eighth dimension as
real and therefore acts in accordance with this achieves his/her
perception of Reality by also attaching himself/herself to God,
besides the attachments to the third, fourth, fifth, sixth and seventh
dimension.
For such a person, God is the Eternal Beloved, the Only One, and when such a person connects himself/herself to another human being of the opposite gender who is the Only One for him/her, he/she slowly gets to know God’s unconditional love, care, compassion and mercy through his/her own unconditional love, care, compassion and mercy for his/her beloved and through his/her beloved’s unconditional love, care, compassion and mercy for himself/herself.
Some thought that their one and only was of the same gender as themselves, but TuTu said that to be able to move from the seventh dimension into the Absolute, all the assumed forms of identity had to be shed.
He explained that some of us chose our other half, our Eternal Beloved, from the same gender as we ourselves have, because a masculine soul could take on a female body and vice versa so as to fulfill specific purposes in life and therefore it might happen that we found our Eternal Beloved in a form with the same gender as ourselves.
When these purposes have been fulfilled and the life goal has become to enter the Absolute, such Souls take their rightful gender so as to be able to enter the Absolute.
OUR MULTIDIMENSIONAL BEING
To illustrate our multidimensional existence a graph is found below that links our life experiences together with the dimensions.
The green circle in
this graph is supposed to
illustrate our physical
life, and that
is referred to as our
third dimensional life.
The blue circle illustrates our
life in
space and time, and that
is referred to as our fourth
dimensional life
The red circle illustrates
our emotional life,
and that is referred to as
our fifth dimensional
Life
The yellow circle
illustrates our thought
life, and that
is referred to as our sixth dimensional
life.
The orange circle
illustrates our thought-free
mental life, and that
is also referred to as our
sixth dimensional life
The violet circle illustrates
our social life, and
that is referred to as our
seventh dimensional life.
In the center of the graph, the black color illustrates the unmanifested power of creation, and the white color illustrates the unmanifested power of manifestation.
The gray color is supposed to illustrate the merger of the black and the white color, the merged power of creation and manifestation.
All the colors of the rainbow that surrounds these three energies illustrate the radiation from the merged power of creation and manifestation, represented by the gray color.
There are a total of eight colors in the rainbow, but the ultraviolet and the infrared cannot be illustrated in a graph.
The ultraviolet change the hue of all the colors, and the infrared is the heat that radiates from the entire structure.
THE
PATH TO THE INDIVIDUAL AND PERSONAL SELF-REALIZATION
To achieve his/her individual and
personal Self-realization, his/her own wholeness, a person has to
achieve the realization of the existence of God the Father
and Goddess the Mother.
To achieve this, a person has to surrender to the universal and
impersonal presence of God the Father by surrendering to spiritual
principles and to the universal and impersonal presence of Goddess the
Mother by surrendering to earthly principles.
The spiritual principles are omnipresence, omniscience, omnipotence
and immortality.
The earthly principles are limitation, ignorance, powerlessness and
mortality.
To surrender to the spiritual principles a person has to take help
from his/her thinking, and to surrender to earthly principles he/she
has to take help from his/her feelings.
The surrender takes place gradually as the
person learns to see, hear, feel and sense both his/her Spirit and
his/her body, and at the same time, acts confidently in accordance
with what he/she sees, hears, feels or senses.
THE
PATH TO THE ABSOLUTE SELF-REALIZATION
Once the
Master was asked if it is good for the spiritual life to live in
celibacy and he answered laughingly: "God is no fool. If it was enough
with one gender, there wouldn’t be two."
TuTu explained that the most potent power of the human being is the
sexual, and a person can go as far as the seventh dimension by the
help of platonic love or by the help of sexual love for a person of
the opposite or the same gender.
To get
access to the Absolute, the sexual power also has to be active, but
for this purpose, it has to be pure.
The sexual power is pure when the person has attained the capacity to
honestly follow the swing of his/her own sexual feelings during
lovemaking without denial of the intensity or lack of it in his/her
sexual feelings.
When both partners have attained this, and at the same time, surrender
in unconditional love and care for, compassion with and mercy towards
to each other, together they are powerful enough to enter the
Absolute.
They step in, hand in hand, after concluding their Spiritual Wedding
with each other in their personal Ardhanarishwara/ManWoman and with
their impersonal Ardhanarishwara/ManWoman at the entrance to the God
Realm.
THE FOUR
WEDDINGS
A human being’s surrender to his/her beloved’s Spirit and body takes place through the four weddings.
The first
wedding is The Earthly Wedding, which consists in the sexual union of
his and her corporeal bodies.
If love and compassion fades when the sexual
attraction fades, this marriage can be broken.
If love and compassion does not fade, time is ripe for The Angelic Wedding, which is the union of his and her heart.
This marriage cannot be broken no matter how much hardship the couple
is exposed to, because nobody can resist the power of love.
When hardships have cleansed their hearts so that love, care, compassion and mercy stand pure, time is ripe for their Divine Wedding, which is the union of their Souls, and as a result of this wedding they realize that their beloved’s Soul and body is God the Father’s and Goddess the Mother’s individual and personal presence for them outside themselves, like their own Soul and body is God the Father's and Goddess the Mother's individual and personal presence for them inside themselves.
When love, care, compassion and
mercy for the beloved’s Soul and body has become unconditional, time
is ripe for their Spiritual Wedding, which is the union of their
Spirits, and this wedding gives them access to The Holy Grail, The
Ocean of Love, in the Absolute, and thus the high God The
Father and Goddess the Mother, and the low God the Son – who
is the outer to his beloved and the inner to himself –
and Goddess the Daughter – who is the outer to her beloved and
the inner to herself – unite in one being who holds both the high
and the low, the inner and the outer, and this
United consciousness is their individual and personal God.
As a result of their Spiritual Wedding,
at the same time, they also get connected with everything and
everybody everywhere at all levels of existence, and this is their
universal and impersonal God.
In the Bible
it is written that a time will come where God comes down on Earth to
sleep by the side of humankind, and at this time, God will wipe every
tear from humankind’s eyes.
TuTu said that this time occurs for a human being after
The Spiritual Wedding has taken place.
THE
MUTUAL BODY OF THE MAN AND THE WOMAN
The relationship between spouses consists in their separateness in the form of their individuality and their unity in the form of their love and compassion for each other, and this love and compassion is their mutual body.
In their mutual body, the man is
the mental and the woman the emotional.
Therefore, the man takes the position of the head that juts into the
heaven, and the woman takes the position of the feet that walk on the
Earth, and in this way they both take their rightful places in their
mutual body.
With love and compassion for his own and the woman’s individuality,
the man selects the path the couple has to walk, and the woman
achieves her
With love and compassion for her own and
the man’s individuality, the woman selects where on the path the
couple has to place their feet, and the man achieves his
TuTu explained that shortly before his death Jesus washed the feet of
his disciples to call attention to his love, care, compassion and
mercy for the feminine principle with this symbolic act.
TO
BECOME LIKE CHILDREN ANEW
A man can approach his beloved’s four aspects by approaching the Goddess, the mother, the woman and the girl.
A woman can approach her beloved’s four aspects by approaching the
God, the father, the man and the boy.
A man
approaches the Goddess to ask for directions as to where to place his
feet, and the right attitude is then to take his place as the boy who
asks for a favor and becomes grateful if he receives it.
A woman approaches the God to ask for directions as to which path she should take, and the right attitude is then to take her place as the girl who asks for a favor and becomes grateful if she receives it.
A man
approaches the mother and a woman approaches the father to ask for
care, and the right attitude is then to take his/her place as the boy
or the girl who asks for a favor and becomes grateful if he/she
receives it.
A man/woman approaches the woman/man to ask for lovemaking, and the right attitude is then to take his/her place as the boy/girl who asks for a favor and becomes grateful if he/she receives it.
In the lovemaking, the man and the woman take the right attitude by being innocently selfish like children who only listen to the swing of their own sexual feelings, and they ask their partner to satisfy their desire for touch in a way that their sexual feelings reveal to them will feel the best, and they become grateful if they receive it.
A man/woman approaches the girl/boy to ask her/him to play with him/her, and the right attitude is then to take his/her place as the boy/girl who asks for a favor and becomes grateful if he/she receives it.
These
attitudes are the right ones because we must become like children anew
to enter the Garden of Eden, that place in existence where love and
compassion for the beloved fill in all emptiness.
THAT
HUMAN BEING WHO LIVES ALONE
That human being, who has achieved his/her individual and personal Self-realization, but who lives alone, must patiently wait to meet his/her beloved to achieve his/her Absolute Self-realization and in the meantime prepare for this meeting by using his/her personal contact with his/her Higher Power as the head and his/her life and will as the feet.
The Higher
Power then selects the path this person must take, and the person
himself/herself chooses where on the path he/she will put his/her
feet.
THE
CAMEL AND THE NEEDLE’S EYE
It is
important that money, property, power and prestige issues do not
divert us from taking our rightful places, because it is as difficult
for the rich to enter
The rich has acquired more than he/she
needs to be able to strut around in self-important seriousness and
let others serve him/her for money, and because others serve him/her
in that way, he/she believes that his/her desires are more
important than everybody else’s, and therefore he/she is like a fool
who plays wise.
The one who receives the fulfillment of his/her big and small desires
like a grateful child instead of demanding is a fool in the eyes of
the rich but is, however, the true sage who takes his/her rightful
place as the child at the root of his/her own being, and who can
therefore get access to Paradise where to tickets cannot be bought for
property, money, power or prestige.
THE
ONE WHO EXALTS HIMSELF/HERSELF SHALL BE HUMBLED
A spiritual
teacher, who lets himself/herself be served by his/her students, or
who receives payments in any form to pass on his/her spiritual
experiences is like the rich, who distributes pearls to exalt
himself/herself, but when a person exalts himself/herself, also the
abasement has to follow
This will take place at the point
in time when the concerned person
realizes
that he/she is neither more nor less than any other
creaturemanifestion and thus has to step down from his/her
self-exalted state.
SOCIETY’S
PERCEPTION OF THE MASCULINE AND THE FEMININE PRINCIPLE
TuTu explained that the masculine image of the World is perceived as rational, exact and predictable, and the feminine image as irrational, inexact and unpredictable.
In some societies, the irrational is
perceived as negative, on the border of insanity.
This attitude is often found in societies which are dominated by the
mental.
In other societies, which are dominated by the emotional, a similar
negative attitude is found about the rational, but both attitudes are
out of balance because thoughts that are not combined with emotions
can lead to many cold and heartless actions, and emotions that are not
combined with thoughts can lead to many explosive and destructive
actions.
Therefore, it is just as necessary for men to learn to listen to their
emotions as it is for women to learn to put their emotions into a
mental frame, and in this way, both of them
can learn to createmanifest balanced actions.
THE
Christ Consciousness
Jesus was referred to as Christ.
Many use the two names at random but TuTu explained that it is essential
to discern between the individual person Jesus and the
universal field of consciousness called Christ, which Jesus came into
the World to inform humanity about.
Furthermore, he said that today there are many to be found in this
field of consciousness.
Some are not even aware of it themselves because they don’t discern
between the person Jesus and his state of consciousness called Christ.
The Christ Consciousness expresses itself differently in different
people depending on their personal inclination and capacity, but the
characteristics for anyone who has achieved the Christ Consciousness
is that he/she has a personal contact with his/her chosen Higher
Power, that he/she has surrendered his/her will and life to his/her
chosen Higher Power's care, and that he/she shows love, care,
compassion and mercy towards those who still suffer.
Anybody who is found in the field of consciousness called Christ can
rightfully add this designation to his/her name as his/her holy name
showing his/her existential standing.
THE
PRINCIPLES IN CHRIST AND THE PRINCIPLES IN TUTU
The development of the Christ Consciousness can take place in many ways, and one of these is to work all The Twelve Steps in any of The Fellowships Anonymous, which TuTu called The Free Church of the Christ, where the members can learn to live in accordance with the principles of the field of the Christ Consciousness that consists in having a personal contact with one's chosen Higher Power, having surrendered one’s will and one’s life to one's chosen Higher Power's care and in showing love, care, compassion and mercy to those who still suffer.
In these Fellowships, the members can easily get access to the Christ
Consciousness because a spiritual teacher who has worked the 12 Steps
in any of the Fellowships Anonymous and who is called a sponsor can
guide the newcomer on his/her path to his/her Higher Power and thereby
make it possible for him/her to surrender to his/her Higher Power's
care and thus achieve the spiritual awakening that consists in love,
care, compassion and mercy for the still suffering.
Thereby he/she has attained the Christ Consciousness that is also called the consciousness of mercy and he/she can justly ad the name Christ to his/her personal name and thereby express his/her existential stage by the help of his/her holy name; Christ.
The sponsors do this work without receiving either money or services,
and therefore nobody needs to lack the Christ Consciousness and the
personal contact with God today.
The principles that express themselves through the field of
consciousness called TuTu are: A personal contact with one´s chosen
Higher Power, unconditional surrender to one's chosen Higher
Power's care, unconditional love, care, compassion and mercy
for all,
be it the still suffering or those who
are successful in
their own eyes or in the eyes of society.
A person can merge his/her consciousness into the field of consciousness called Christ by carrying out the 12 Steps in the 12 Step Program of Active Addictions Anonymous – The Wild Life and then direct his/her consciousness towards TuTu by working the Program of Christs Anonymous – The Thirteenth Step, and in that way prepare himself/herself to attain the consciousness called TuTu by the help of his/her Other Half – his/her Eternal Beloved.
THE
OUTRAGE OVER CHRIST
Anybody who
has worked the 12 Steps either in Active
Addictions
Anonymous -The Wild life or in any of the other 12 Step
Fellowships Anonymous, or who otherwise
considers himself/herself to be
ready can participate in Christs
Anonymous - The Thirteenth Step if he/she desires to, and
in ChrisAn he/she can work with The Thirteenth Step after having
completed the Twelve Steps of Christs Anonymous.
This program is called The Thirteenth Step because one first works The Twelve Steps and then The Twelve Traditions that constitutes one more step, the Thirteenth Step.
In this Fellowship, members introduce
themselves by first stating their personal name followed by an
honest and courageous admission of their holy name, their state of
consciousness, by saying: "I'm Christ".
Although,
some may feel outraged by this, TuTu suggested to those who fear the
outrage to be brave and stand by their Christ Consciousness.
In this way, we can contribute to make the Christ Consciousness real
to ourselves and to the World in all its nuances, and this will help
us to get everything put into its right place and others to achieve
the Christ Consciousness, even though we have been told that this
state of consciousness is unattainable to anybody but Jesus.
This untruth is expressed by those who desire the power and the glory,
and so they demand that anybody who admits to possess the Christ
Consciousness must be able to walk on water in physical Reality, and
thereby, they hinder the nuances of the Christ Consciousness in coming
to an honest expression.
THE
PROGRAM OF CHRISTS ANONYMOUS
The program of Christs Anonymous consists in first admitting that we are powerless over our addiction to our thinking mind, our Ego, and how that makes our life unmanageable and then to open ourselves to believing that a Power greater than us can lead us to our true Self, our Spirit, and thus to Joy of Being.
Then we make a decision unconditionally to surrender our will and our
life to the care of our chosen Higher Power as we understand that
Power.
With the courage and the strength this decision brings forth we make a
searching and fearless inventory of ourselves, and then we admit our
exact nature to ourselves, to our Higher Power, to another human being
and to our ChrisAn Fellowship.
After this, we make ourselves ready to be liberated from all our defects of character, and when we have become entirely ready, we humbly ask our Higher Power to liberate us from them.
Next, we make a list of all the persons we have harmed - seen through
the eyes we have achieved by the help of the first seven Steps in our
Christs Anonymous Program, - beginning with making amends to ourselves
and we also become willing to make amends to everyone else on our
list, and when time is ripe, we make the amends, unless making direct
amends will harm ourselves, them or others that are indirectly
involved in the consequences of the situation we want to make amends
for .
If that is the case, we give indirect amends by doing what we want to
do for the person, we have harmed, but to another human being, who
needs it.
Then, we continue to take daily inventory and when we are wrong
promptly admit it.
Through prayer and meditation, we seek to improve our conscious
contact with our Higher Power, as we understand that Power,
asking only for knowledge of our Higher Power’s will for us and the
power to carry that out.
After having achieved a spiritual awakening as a result of this work,
we continue to practice these principles in our daily life and pass on
the message to others that it is possible – by the help of the 12 Step
Program of Christs Anonymous – to let go of one's addiction to one's
thinking mind, one's Ego so as to be united with one's true Self,
one's Spirit and thereby be led to Joy of Being.
GAYATHRI MANTRA
TuTu explained that it helps in this work to use the Gayathri mantra or to use the essence of this mantra as a prayer that corresponds with the vibration the mantra holds at appropriate moments in the course of the day.
Gayathri mantra consists in the sound hrim, [pronounced: hreem] that holds the vibration which means: "God, liberate me from this self-important seriousness," and this sound is the root sound which comes second in the hierarchy of root sounds after the primary root sound OM.
After finishing the work with the Twelve Steps we work with The Twelve
Traditions, each of which deals with our relationship with The World
around us, and by the help of this work we become able to place our
spiritual clarity in our Earthly contexts.
The Twelve
Traditions put together are equivalent to one last Step - The
Thirteenth Step.
THE
COMPLETE BRIDGE TO THE NEW WORLD ORDER
TuTu said
that, to complete The Bridge to The New World Order, AcAdAn,
which stands for the 12 Step Fellowship of Active Addictions
Anonymous - The Wild Life also has to come forth.
Those of us who, even if
we want to, cannot free ourselves from our Earthly dependency of
alcohol, drugs, nicotine, food, our body,
compulsive spending, sex, relationships, codependency, destructive
thoughts and emotions, character defects, work, money, power,
prestige, fame, material or spiritual ambitions, or any other
obsession that drives us to act compulsively, can
be a member of AcAdAn.
Today,
many are found who suffer from a severe case of active addiction, and
many more that have a mild or moderate form of this disease, and in
the here and now, any case of addiction can consist in mild cases that
can be resolved, medium or severe cases that may be resolved and light
cases that can be resolved, but whether our addiction can be resolved
in the here and now or not,
nobody who wants access to a 12 Step Fellowship should be denied this
no matter the character their active addiction.
TOTOS
SOLFOND
TuTu
said
that if the Fellowships Anonymous – all the Fellowships that work with
a 12-Step Program in one form or other – want to participate in
relieving the suffering on Earth, they could form a foundation called
ToTos Solfond, which could support the creationmanifestation of homes
for homeless human beings all over the World, in particular for
children.
On
the first of September every year, all of the Fellowships Anonymous
put together could distribute the foundation funds for homeless
purposes with 22% in The North, 22% in The South, 22% in The East and
22% in The West.
The
remaining 12% could be used for expenses incurred by the foundation,
and any surplus from here could be returned to the foundation at the
end of a calendar year and thus be included in the next year’s
distribution of the foundation funds.
If
we chose to use the surplus of our group from any 12 Step Group in
this way, at the same time, we chose to contribute to improve the
World we are part of, where it is needed the most.
On
the 22nd of August every year,
we could organize a convention in
Here,
we could look into how much money we had collected and participate in
the decision as to how we wanted our money to be used in accordance
with the suggested guide lines.
In the
beginning of the life of the foundation, there would hardly be
anything to distribute, in particular because we give free copyright
and access to those who want to read our literature or who want to
pass it on.
Still, we do
not increase our contributions in our own 12-Step Group, because we
want that the foundation should grow forth harmoniously as an
expression of the united will of our Fellowships to contribute to the
World we live in, where it is
needed the most, and
we
ensure that the foundation does not reflect one person’s or a few
members’ influence or affluence.
THE
FOUNDATION OF THE NEW WORLD ORDER
TuTu called himself the Messiah Anonymous.
Anonymity is the spiritual foundation of The New World Order, and that
means that it is not the personal data, life story or behavior of the
individual person which shall be focused on but how earthly and
spiritual principles work in this person’s life, and therefore no
person can evaluate another person or another person’s life or
behavior by looking at him/her from the outside.
Seen from the outside, a person’s life may be filled with misfortunes
and degradations, but seen from within, in spite of it all, living in
accordance with earthly and spiritual principles can fill the life of
the person with happiness and elevations, even if this person lives at
the bottom of society, outcast and persecuted, conscious that his/her
life will end at a young age with a violent death, like it was the
case for Jesus, and like it was the case for Harishchandra too, but
this can only be known if the person chooses to tell about it.
Therefore TuTu’s personal life shall not be considered an example to
be followed but to be one of many upcoming examples as to how living
in accordance with the principles of TuTu can affect a person’s life.
However, it is important to inform about his personal data, not to
break the principle of anonymity but for the sake of giving anybody
who needs a confirmation that he has indeed lived on Earth the
opportunity to have it confirmed.
THE
MESSENGER AND THE MESSAGE
TuTu explained that in the case of Jesus the principle of anonymity was not observed, and therefore, today, confusion still exists concerning the messenger and the message.
Jesus chose thirteen companions who were going to be the carriers of
the Christ Consciousness, so they could pass on the message about
Christ when Jesus himself died.
The teachings they received took a different course because they
traveled with him and were affected by his radiation, while at the
same time, they had the opportunity to observe how the principles in
Christ expressed themselves in one person’s life, namely in the life
of Jesus.
In spite of the personal teaching that they received, to some extent,
they too confused the messenger and the message, and also the
zeitgeist, to a certain extent, clouded their perspective.
VIRGINITY
The contemporary perspectives of
those times concerning women were also
prevalent among the thirteen and
this expressed itself in various ways, but TuTu said that in spite
of this, truth will triumph in the end.
The twelve had the idea that the message would lose its power of
penetration if society had to accept a woman like Mary Magdalene - who
not only spoke in congregations but at the same time was considered an
outcast of the society - as one of the carriers of the holy
consciousness of Christ, and therefore they expelled her from the
group after Jesus’ death citing the reason that Israel had twelve
tribes and there were twelve months in a year, and therefore thirteen
was an unfortunate number, and after that they spoke about her as an
appendage to the group and not as one of the group.
However, they understood that the feminine principle could not be
omitted entirely, and instead they chose to focus on his personal
story by involving Mary, the mother of Jesus, as the feminine aspect.
Jesus himself pointed out that his mother was not a carrier of the
Christ Consciousness when he dismissed her and his brothers at the
doorway stating that they were not his true family.
TuTu called the birth of Jesus a whim in nature, who, in this way,
chose to mark his birth as a special event which was worth noticing,
and therefore it could not be perceived as an example to be followed.
That adoration of virginity, which became a result of confusing the
messenger and the message, has cost both men and women much pain and
has also createdmanifested problems in the development of the love
life of humankind.
THE
NUMBER 13 AND THE NUMBERS 6-6-6
Even today, there are many who perceive thirteen as an unfortunate number, but Jesus chose thirteen disciples to call attention to the thirteenth letter ‘m’ in the Hebrew alphabet.
‘M’ stands for the holy feminine principle Goddess the Mother.
The sixth letter in the alphabet is ‘f’, which stands for the holy
masculine principle God the Father.
In the Bible, the Holy Trinity consists in God the Father, God the son and the Holy Spirit, and it is stated that the numbers 6-6-6 are the sign of the animal, which has given rise to many fables about these numbers as the numbers of the Devil, the Evil numbers etc.
The Bible warns people against the formation of 6-6-6, because if you exclusively perceive God to be the creative male force, and exclude the manifesting female force, it will createmanifest problems in the perspectives on existence both for the individual and for society, because this formation of numbers put God the Father in all three places of The Holy Trinity and thus it excludes humanity in the form of God the son and also the Holy Spirit, which is the holy feminine principle Goddess the Mother and Goddess the daughter.
When we embrace only the divine masculine force in our perception of God, we give life-force to the formation of 6-6-6, the number of the beast - the animal man and the animal woman - the lowest and most destructive class of people within humankind, thus creatingmanifesting an immense and prolonged suffering for humankind as prophesied in The Bible.
THE
ONE WHO IS WITHOUT SIN THROWS THE FIRST STONE
TuTu said that love and forgiveness go hand in hand, but the group around Jesus was not able to forgive Judas for his contribution to the death of Jesus in spite of the fact that they were carriers of the Christ Consciousness, but those who want to follow earthly principles have to work with themselves until they find the place of forgiveness within themselves.
Forgiveness cannot be given as a decision but has to spring from the
heart, otherwise the person puts himself/herself aside to give to
another, and thereby he/she loses contact with his/her true condition.
Judas was consumed by political issues and thought that Jesus was
going to be king of the country.
He imagined that if only the priests met him, they would realize that he ought to be king, and therefore he wanted to bring the priests and Jesus together, but when he saw the consequence of his action, he took his own life in pain and despair because of it.
After two thousand years, in her present life as TuTu’s wife, Mary
Magdalene realized that humanity consists in being limited, ignorant,
powerless and mortal, and like humanity prevented Judas from
foreseeing the consequences of his actions, it prevented her from the
same, and thus she had to realize the truth of the words of Jesus:
"The one who is without sin throws the first stone," and then she
forgave Judas.
LUCIFER
That time came too when she
forgave the people who contributed to the death of Jesus, but she was
only able to do so after her Spiritual Wedding with him as
Harishchandra Sharma TuTu took place, because she understood then what
she did not understand before, and thereby she realized that also she
had contributed to his death.
She understood that TuTu and she were the first of the eternal couples
who left the Absolute to experience life as creaturesmanifestations.
We chose to manifest as Quadruplets together with another couple, who
wanted the same, and thus we manifested in four directions - the
North, the South, the East and the West - and in that way, Four became
the first positive power factor in the creationmanifestation where the
invisible is the negative, the darkness or the Spirit, and the visible
is the positive, the light or matter.
Others of the eternal couples followed in the wake in wave after wave,
until everybody who had the same desire had projected themselves out
of the Absolute and into createdmanifested forms.
Gradually, as the couples moved into the third dimension, many forgot
their original desire and became dissatisfied with life.
They began cursing the day they were createdmanifested, and said that
they would not have gone out if he who went out first had not done so.
His name was Lucifer, the light carrier, whom God loved, because he
loved life under all circumstances.
Those who cursed their destiny asked Lucifer how he was able to love
life, and he answered that he had accepted that every
creaturemanifestation had to carry a cross, which consists in
limitation, ignorance, powerlessness and mortality.
THE
ONE WHO GIVES HIS/HER LIFE SHALL PRESERVE IT, AND THE ONE WHO
TRIES TO PRESERVE IT SHALL LOSE IT
They retorted that it was exactly
their limitation, ignorance, powerlessness and mortality that
createdmanifested the anger in themselves.
He explained that his acceptance sprang from the fact that he had
chosen to unconditionally surrender his will and his life to the care
of his Absolute consciousness, which he called his Higher Power.
His Higher Power’s form consisted in the individuality and the unity,
and these were not confined within any mortal body.
The result of his own limitation because of his mortal body was his
ignorance about many things and his powerlessness over that which he
did not know, but because his Higher Power was not submitted to these
limitations, he moved ahead courageously in life trusting the lead of
his Higher Power.
Therefore, he could use his life force to enjoy life and help himself
to all the good things that his Higher Power offered him on life’s
journey; while at the same time, he accepted the pains of life as a
necessary part of creationmanifestation.
To experience life as a creaturemanifestation, he had to separate
himself from the unlimited to take on a limited form, and the pain of
life consists in this separation, which is also called death in all
things, whether big or small.
They got angry and said that they had not got their life to give it
away to a Higher Power, but now they understood better why they
suffered.
The Higher Power was quite simply revengeful and sent them sufferings,
because they did with their life what they wanted.
He answered that their Higher Power gave them the freedom to do what
they wanted with their life, but when a creaturemanifestation reached
a point where he/she asked his/her Higher Power to take over the care
of his/her will and his/her life, he/she would open up to the
discovery that his/her Higher Power had taken on the responsibility of
leading him/her in accordance with his/her own desires from the
beginning to the end, and thereby, he/she would gradually realize the
unconditional love, care, compassion and mercy of his/her Higher
Power, and little by little, that would make his/her anger and
bitterness about being a creaturemanifestation disappear.
THE
FALLEN ANGEL
They were seized by distrust and said to each other that he was just a fallen angel who tried to misguide them, but now you could see that when all came down to it he was in Reality their most ardent opponent because who could rejoice in life if you had to give it away at the same time.
When they suffered, they wanted the same suffering to come to his lot
so he could discover the true character of his Higher Power.
NOT
A STONE WAS TO BE FOUND ON WHICH HE COULD LEAN HIS HEAD
When his other half heard their answer, she was seized by shame and fled from him.
In the end, the innocent one did not find
a stone on which he could lean his head, and he gave in to the
outrage and asked what we wanted from him.
We answered that he should live as a son of humankind, without a job,
at the bottom of society, outcast and persecuted, and besides this, he
should go through the most severe of tortures that came to the lot of
those whom society proclaimed to be criminals.
If, under these circumstances, without anger, he would surrender his
will and his life to his Higher Power’s care, then we would believe
that this was the way to love life as a creaturemanifestation.
He agreed to take on this task in compassion for our lack of insight,
and at the same time, he hoped that his destiny would arouse our
compassion, because he needed our love and compassion just as much as
we needed his.
When we saw him hang on the cross, we realized that he had completed
the task and many picked up the message, but many dissociated
themselves from it and continued to curse Lucifer and blame him for
their self-created-self-manifested hell.
THE SAVIOR
The many that picked up
the message spread over the Earth to pass it on.
One single person, who picked up the
message shortly after the death of Jesus, was a powerful messenger,
but to a certain extent, he was also blinded by his human
limitation, ignorance, powerlessness and mortality, and because he
could not simultaneously hold the thought that The Messiah, The
World Teacher, was executed as a criminal and that God's love is
infinitely merciful, he found peace from this paradox by creatingmanifesting
the myth about the Savior.
This misunderstanding has createdmanifested much suffering in those
who wanted to follow the teachings of Jesus, and now it seems to have
taken roots as that mental illness which is known by the name of The
Savior Complex, popularly known as Codependency.
Below is a graph which illustrates the thought pattern in this
complex.
THE
RING OF THE SAVIOR COMPLEX
These four
characteristics in the Ring of the Savior Complex constitute one
thought pattern and that means that all four of them become active if
one activates just one of them.
Below, the four main
streams of thinking in this complex are described separately:
THE SAVIOR: I have to
save others from the consequences of their social life, their
thoughts, emotions and actions so that I get to feel good about
myself.
THE SEDUCER: Others cannot bear to know how I think, feel and act, and
therefore I have to conceal, deny, twist, manipulate, lie or falsify
that image of my Reality which I pass on to others, so that I get to
feel good about myself.
THE OFFENDER:
Other’s social life, thoughts, emotions and actions are wrong, and it
is my task to change them so that I get to feel good about myself.
THE VICTIM:
I have to sacrifice my money, time, energy and interests for others so
that I get to feel good about myself.
The healing of this mental illness consists in creatingmanifesting an opposing environment of thoughts in one's mind, and the healthy thought pattern is illustrated in the graph below:
THE RING OF EMOTIONAL SOBRIETY
DETACHMENT: Others need to know the consequences of their social life, their thoughts, emotions and actions just like I need to know the consequences of mine, so that they and I can become more enlightened; so I give myself and others the time and space to get to know the consequences of our social life, our thoughts, emotions and actions, and thus we find that contentment begins to bloom within us.
INTEGRITY: I need to know the Reality of the others as it is, and they need to know my Reality as it is, so both they and I can form a truer image of Reality as it IS, and thus we find that contentment begins to bloom within us.
RESPECT FOR OTHERS: Others need to
think, feel, act and relate to others in accordance with their Reality
as it IS, just like I need to think, feel, act and relate to others in
accordance with my Reality as it IS, so that both they and I can find
out how to createmanifest a daily life which satisfies us, and thus we
find that contentment begins to bloom within us.
RESPECT FOR SELF: I and others need to use our money, time, energy and
personal interests on ourselves first of all so at to become able to
createmanifest a daily life for ourselves that satisfy us, and thus we
find that contentment begins to bloom within us.
HE
CAME AS A THIEF IN THE NIGHT
In spite of this misunderstanding, the soil was slowly fertilized so he could come back to conclude the work.
It is
written in the Bible that at the time of his return many would say:
"There he is… there he is…" pointing in many different directions, but
he advised the people not to believe it because he would come like a
thief in the night, and therefore the residents of the house would
only discover that he had been there when they woke up in the morning
and saw the result of his visit.
TuTu came as a thief in the night, lived
anonymously at the bottom of society and was only recognized by some
of those who met him personally, and who frequently greeted him with
the words: "Hello Jesus."
He took care of his errand on Earth and died in
THE
NEW HOLY
LAND
In the Bible, it is also written
that he would not return to
The Master said during one of his travels to the West that
Thus, he appointed Denmark to be the new holy land of the World.
TuTu chose to live, teach and die in
ARCHETYPES
TuTu taught me that the Universe consists of an infinite number of fields of energy, which are called interference patterns.
The voltage among compound energies in a certain interference pattern maintains the pattern in its form.
A certain number of individual and personal interference patterns of the same type put together form a bigger universal and impersonal interference pattern, and this is an archetype.
The archetype holds the combined consciousness of all the individual
parts, while at the same time, every single part holds the total
consciousness of the archetype.
He gave the example that the
individual human being can be seen as the individual and personal
interference pattern, and that all of humanity put together make up
the universal and impersonal interference pattern, which is the
archetype: The human being.
The connection between the archetype X and the individual part Y can
be configured in the equation:
X = (Y x Z) + S
where one multiplies Y with Z, which is the number of the parts and to this add S, which is their synthesis, because the synthesis of the parts is bigger than the sum of the individual parts in the same way as an alarm clock is more than the sum of its individual parts.
THE UNITY
OF HUMANKIND
I could not imagine that I, as a part of humankind, hold all of humankind’s consciousness, until TuTu took me to a holographic exhibition of pictures one day.
Holographic pictures are three-dimensional and arise
when a picture plate with an interference pattern is lit by laser
light, and thereby the three-dimensional picture appears.
If the holographic picture plate of a horse, for example, is cut into
many pieces and you pick up that piece which was a part of the horse’s
ear before and light it up with laser light, the piece shows the whole
horse.
He explained that the exhibition could be used as an illustration of
the principle that everybody is a part of totality and every part IS
the totality.
This implies that a single person’s happiness or unhappiness affects
all of humankind, if not in a wake and conscious state then in a
sleeping and unconscious state, and one person’s happiness or
unhappiness will thus express itself in all of humankind’s life.
GOD
That the individual human being is not necessarily aware that he/she holds the total consciousness is due to the limitation of the eye of consciousness in the third dimension, and this can be illustrated by drawing a big ball and placing a microscopic dot at any point somewhere on either the surface on the outside or inside the ball.
The ball then represents the total consciousness of the person, and
the dot represents the limited window of the consciousness in the
third dimension.
At the same time, the comparison of the dot with the ball illustrates
the relationship between the wake day consciousness of the person -
the dot, and the subconscious of the person - the ball.
The ball or the total field of consciousness is in and of itself an
archetype, which includes everything and everybody everywhere at all
levels of consciousness.
This archetype is called God, and everything and everybody everywhere
at all levels of consciousness is thus God and holds all of God’s
consciousness since each part holds the totality.
SPHERES
OF CONSCIOUSNESS
The dot can
be placed in various places on the surface of the ball or inside it,
and in this way, you can mark the focus point of the consciousness in
various areas, in various outer or inner spheres.
Various spheres of consciousness hold different Worlds and these can
be experienced by moving the focus point of consciousness by the help
of reflection, contemplation, concentration and meditation.
We are all used to moving effortlessly in the third dimension without
bouncing into other living beings or objects, but in our Earthly
lives, that is not so for our movements in the other dimensions of our
existence as well, and this is clearly seen when we clash with others
emotionally, mentally, socially or spiritually.
TuTu explained that by surrendering to his/her own emotions a person
can get used to be in that condition which exists in the fifth
dimension, where emotions move effortlessly.
By using his/her own thoughts in a reflective manner, i.e. by
reflecting everything instead of judging it on the grounds of good and
evil or right and wrong, a person can get used to be in that condition
which exists in the sixth dimension, where thoughts move effortlessly.
When a person goes into the contemplative state and thereby begin
concentrating in his/her consciousness, he/she can get used to be in
that condition which exists in the seventh
dimension, where love, care, compassion and mercy flow effortlessly in
our social interactions.
From the concentrated state of awareness, a person can enter the
meditative state, and a person can thus learn to consciously empty
his/her focus point and thereby become able to see, hear, feel or
sense God, and at the same time, he/she is able to enter the other
dimensions and thus become able to experience Reality in the other
Worlds without meeting resistance from emotions and thoughts which
spring from his/her experiences in the third dimension.
The graphs below
illustrate these states of consciousness.
Each circle represents
one of our states of consciousness and the dots inside them represent
our thoughts in the various states of consciousness.
STATES OF CONSCIOUSNESS
Ordinary
Reflection Contemplation
Concentration Meditation
The first circle shows a
normal state of mind with many thoughts that produces various
emotional states set into motion by our thoughts.
The second circle
represents a reflective state of mind where we allow our thoughts and
emotions to pass through us without trying to hold on to a particular
thought or the emotion the thought holds,
and by so doing, peace of mind arises, because
we
cease to give each and every thought or emotion power over
us.
The third
circle shows a contemplative state
of mind, which is an immersion in a particular thought or set of
thoughts,
and this is called prayer when it concerns
spiritual pursuits, where our thoughts are concentrated on an
object, a word, a mantra, a koan or a prayer wandering
to and from the point of contemplation.
The fourth circle shows a
concentrated state of mind, where all other thoughts but the object of
contemplation have disappeared.
TuTu further explained that by looking at the Rings of Social
Interactions a person can find help to develop his/her social life,
his/her love life.
THE RINGS OF SOCIAL INTERACTIONS
By the help of these Rings, it becomes easier for the person to see that there is a ‘me’, an ‘us’ and a ‘you’ in any social interaction.
If he/she pulls his/her own life-circle out from the intertwined circles, he/she sees that almost half of his/her personal life-circle is consumed by the ‘us’ in any social interaction.
From this, he/she can easily see that it will also settle as a hurt in his/her own life-circle if he/she hurts another.
It also
becomes clear that when two people have a social interaction,
they are both in touch with a Power Greater than their individual
selves as a ‘me’ and a ‘you’ – in the form of the greater entity
existing in the ‘us’ that is greater than the sum of its parts.
Many people
have a tendency in their social life, their Soul life, to usurp the
time, energy, interest and money of others, hoping that they could
liberate themselves from loneliness, boredom, emptiness and
meaninglessness this way and thereby harm their love life.
With the
help of the Ring of Emptiness and the Ring of Fulfillment, a person
can look into this idea and thus easily get to see that what they hope
to achieve cannot be achieved by something outside
them but must be healed from within.
THE RING OF EMPTINESS AND THE RING OF FULFILLMENT
If we found ourselves in the Ring of Emptiness when we had empty time in front of us, we felt bored, and life seemed meaningless to us when we felt bored.
In particular we experienced that we had empty time in front
of us when we had completed a specific task or project
which had usurped a large amount of time, or it could also
happen simply because we had a lot of time available in our day.
As a result of the
meaninglessness and boredom, we wanted to flee from
ourselves and our lives, and when we wanted
to leave ourselves and our lives we
felt lonely.
If we found ourselves in the Ring of Fulfillment when
we had empty time in front of us, we identified ourselves
with our true Self, our Spirit, and
thereby, we experienced oneness with ourselves on all
of our planes of existence and also with everything and everybody
everywhere at all planes of existence, even with the so
called 'dead' matter.
When we thus experienced oneness with everything, we found
everything and everybody everywhere at all levels of existence,
including ourselves, interesting, and thus we experienced that
every present moment, every NOW, filled us up in a
meaningful way.
TUTU’S
SUGGESTIONS FOR CONTEMPLATION
As an entrance to meditation, TuTu suggested the following prayer as an object of contemplation to address our Spiritual Parents, our Lord and our Lady in the God Realm, which is also called the Absolute, the Spirit plane, the eighth dimension or the plane of unconditional love, care, compassion and mercy.
In this prayer, we want to expand our consciousness to include our
true Self, our Spirit.
The symbol 22
refers to the TuTu consciousness, which is the holy name for
those of us who no longer are slaves of our thinking mind, our Ego and
furthermore have become united with our Spirit Mate, our significant
other plus our own and our significant other´s Spirit in one merged
consciousness of the masculine and the feminine principle called our
true Self, our Spirit.
THE SPIRIT PRAYER
The
‘I’ Version
My
FatherMother
May Your name be my
Holy Name Ardhanarishwara
May Your Realm come on Earth
so Your will may happen on Earth
like
it
happens in the God Realm
Give me this day what I need
Forgive me my wrongs and give me
the
capacity
to forgive those who wrong me
Guide me through my desires
and
liberate
me from my wrongs
For Yours is the God Realm
and the Power
and the Glory
eternally.
Amen.
He also recommended meditation in groups because the united force of the group can help the individual to enter into meditation.
As entrance to group meditation, the group can begin by saying these
words together and aloud:
The
‘Group’ Version
May Your name be our
Holy Name Ardhanarishwara
May Your Realm come on Earth
so Your will may happen on Earth
like
it
happens in the God Realm
Give us this day what we need
Forgive us our wrongs and give us
the
capacity
to forgive those who wrong us
Guide us through our desires
and
liberate
us from our wrongs
For Yours is the God Realm
and the Power
and the Glory
eternally.
Amen.
One can also use the following object of contemplation to make one's spiritual goal clear by addressing one's own and one's Eternal Beloved's merged Absolute Self:
THE GOD PRAYER
God
You
are the only true goal of my life
I’m
yet but a slave of my wishes
putting
bar to my advancement
and
You are the only God and Power
Who
can take me up to that stage.
And in the group setting:
God
You
are the only true goal of our life
We
are yet but slaves of our wishes
putting
bar to our advancement
and
You are the only God and Power
Who
can take us up to that stage.
In the morning, TuTu himself used a very simple prayer, which required that he received everything that came to his lot on that day with gratitude, because he considered it to come from his Higher Power and the Gratitude Prayer is expressed in the following way:
THE GRATITUDE PRAYER
God,
You know what this, your child, needs today.
And in the group setting:
God,
You know what these, your children, need today.
The Way
Prayer can be used to develop one’s communication with one’s chosen
Higher Power
God,
I seek guidance today about.......
the spiritual aspirant writes down his/her chosen question and become
silent, and when the answer rises from within himself/herself, he/she
writes down the answer)
SLEEPING
AND WAKE CONSCIOUSNESS
Every person
travels through the dimensions, from the fourth dimension to the
Absolute, every night during sleep, and in this way picking up his/her
life-force for the day.
The difference between the worldly and the spiritual person is that the worldly person does this in the night in a sleeping and unconscious state, and the spiritual person can furthermore do this in the daytime in a wake and conscious state.
THE HOLY GRAIL
That field of consciousness which is called Christ is found in the seventh dimension and it activates love, care, compassion and mercy.
That field of consciousness which is called TuTu is the entrance to
the Absolute and it activates the unconditional love, care,
compassion and mercy.
The Spiritual Wedding takes place in TuTu between that man and that woman who has achieved their individual and personal Self-realization and has then surrendered to each other in unconditional love, care, compassion and mercy.
As a result of this wedding, their consciousness merges into the Holy
Grail, which is also called the innermost heart of the eternal couple,
their heart's heart or the
THE MANWOMAN
The Holy Grail is held in that archetype which is called the ManWoman, The Individual and Personal God, the merged masculine and feminine principle.
ONE
GRAPHIC EXPRESSION OF THE
MANWOMAN
There are
many ways of illustrating the Holy Grail, the ManWoman and other areas
of the total consciousness through various graphs and symbols.
Below, the ManWoman is portrayed by the help of two graphs.
One symbolizes the merged man and woman, and the other the ManWoman’s archetype.
THE
INDIVIDUAL AND PERSONAL GOD: THE MANWOMAN
The first graph shows the ManWoman
resting in the rainbow-colored Cosmic Egg.
In Reality, the colors change in the oval openings, each in their way,
in all the shades of the rainbow, and thus show a continuously
changing picture.
The egg rests in the blue cosmic seed, which consists of the radiation
of The Cosmic Eggs.
The graph consists of one oval and four small circles - two each for
the masculine and feminine principles - plus the two major circles
called the Spirit-circles of the masculine and the feminine in the
form of their individuality.
The Spirit-circles hold the complete experiences of each of them from
the beginning of time to the end.
The various other parts and forms in the graph are various areas of
consciousness.
The black areas represent God the Father and God the Son - the
invisible unmanifest, and the white areas represent Goddess the Mother
and Goddess the Daughter - the visible unmanifest.
The black fish represents God the Father and the black eyes God the
Son, and the mutual black color illustrates that the Father and the
Son are one.
Goddess the Mother is illustrated by the white fish and Goddess the
Daughter by the white eyes, and the mutual white color illustrates
that the Mother and the Daughter are one.
Two of the fish are separated, and this shows the Individuality, which
holds the cold.
The other two are merged, and this shows the Fellowship, which holds
the warmth.
In the two merged fish, there is an area that shows the Absolute
heart, which consists of a white and a black area illustrating the
Individuality and a gray area illustrating the Fellowship.
The gray area is the Holy Grail.
The two graphs below accentuate the Absolute Heart and the Holy Grail
by depicting them in purple color.
THE
ABSOLUTE HEART
THE
HOLY GRAIL
Before
creationmanifestation,
all the MenWomen were resting each in their individual Cosmic Eggs,
every one of them containing a couple merged in perfect and blissful
love for eternities’ eternity, seen through an Earthly scale, until, in
two of the MenWomen, a desire arose to see Their beloved in a new
perspective, and the two merged MenWomen turned around Their own axis in
each their cosmic egg for this purpose and had thus set into movement.
This movement made the Cosmic Seed, which consists of the blissful
radiations of love from the yoke of the Cosmic Egg, which is the Holy
Grail penetrate the eggs, and thus radiation became irradiation.
As a result, a new life came into being by the two MenWomen projecting
out into the Cosmic Seed a mirror image of themselves split in four out
into the cosmic seed.
The MenWomen’s projection were each split into the masculine principle
God the Father and God the Son, who are one and the feminine principle
Goddess the Mother and Goddess the Daughter, who are one, and the two
lovers were a mirror image of each other, and this nuclear fission is
often popularly referred to as ‘The Big Bang’.
God the Father and God the Son is the Spirit of the Soul, and Goddess
the Mother and Goddess the Daughter is the Soul of the Spirit.
The Soul is the first mortal body of the individual and personal Spirit
and is like a thin film of crystallized Spirit around the free Spirit
inside the form, but both masculine and the feminine Soul have a free
individual and personal Spirit inside the form of their Soul, and thus
they continue their eternal being together, because God the Father and
God the Son are enveloped by Goddess the Mother and Goddess the Daughter
and Goddess the Mother and Goddess the Daughter holds God the Father and
God the Son within her.
The first two individual MenWomen’s projection into matter consisted in
two pairs that had decided to manifest together, and so they became
Quadruplets at the Soul Level, and as a result these two couples formed
the basic matrix, the blueprint of the createdmanifested Universe – the
North, the South, the East and the West.
Four is thus the first positive power factor in creationmanifestation as
the cosmic Quadruplets were the first visible manifestation.
THE COSMIC TWINS
AND THE COSMIC QUADRUPLETS ON THE SOUL PLANE
The
projection of the first two MenWomen pulled a wave in Their wake of
other Menwomen who had the same desire, and this wave pulled yet
another wave, until all those Menwomen who had set into movement had
poured out a projection of themselves.
However, the projecting of two couples forming Quadruplets at Soul
level were rare.
Most projected themselves as Twins, and also very few projected
themselves as Triplets, Quintuplets etc.
The plane of existence in which their projections lived their life on
is called the seventh dimension, the Divine plane, Paradise, the
Garden of Eden, Heaven, the Soul plane or the plane of love, care,
compassion and mercy and it is this plane that has coined the word
Soul Mates for those beings, who are lying in the same egg on the Soul
Level, because even if HeShe has been split in two, a ‘He’ and a
‘She’, they do still however, find themselves in the same cosmic egg.
Below is a graph showing the most common formation of Soul Mates
createdmanifested by one individual ManWoman, and it is called the
Cosmic Twins on the Soul Level and it illustrates the two Soul Mates,
the ManWoman split into two – a man and a woman, who are also called
God the Father and God the Son and Goddess the Mother and Goddess the
Daughter by humankind
Following this is a graph illustrating the archetype of The Cosmic
Twins.
Below these are two more graphs called the Cosmic Quadruplets on the
Soul Level that illustrates the first creationmanifestation
createdmanifested by the first two MenWomen that stepped into matter
into a particularly designed cosmic egg for Quadruplets, followed by a
graph illustrating the archetype of all the Menwomen, who manifested
as Quadruplets.
GOD THE
FATHER AND GODDESS THE MOTHER:
(FOR THE
COSMIC TWINS AT SOUL LEVEL):
THE
ARCHETYPE OF THE COSMIC TWINS AT SOUL LEVEL
(THE
COSMIC QUADRUPLETS IN FOUR DIRECTIONS)
(THE
COSMIC QUADRUPLETS IN FOUR DIRECTIONS)
(THE
COSMIC QUADRUPLETS IN FOUR DIRECTIONS)
GOD
THE FATHER AND GODDESS THE MOTHER AT SOUL LEVEL 2:
(THE
COSMIC QUADRUPLETS IN FOUR DIRECTIONS)
(THE
COSMIC QUADRUPLETS IN FOUR DIRECTIONS)
THE
BUDDHA AND THE TARA
At
some point in time, a desire arose in the Souls to see each other in
more particular perspectives, and the Cosmic Seed penetrated the Egg
again, and the Souls projected the split mirror image of themselves
out into the Cosmic Seed, which is the underlying field of energy of
all of creationmanifestation called the Ocean of Love, and in this
split, the masculine and the feminine principle were separated
completely.
This projection is called the second projection of the individual
ManWoman, which is the first projection of the Soul plane, the sixth
dimension, the Buddha plane, the plane of enlightenment, the plane of
ideas or the mental plane.
The feminine counterpart of the Buddha is called the Tara or the Rainbow
Goddess, and therefore this graph is called the Buddha and the Tara.
THE
BUDDHA AND THE TARA
THE
ARCHETYPE OF THE BUDDHA AND THE TARA
THE LIFE NERVE
When a desire arose in the Buddha and the Tara to fertilize their ideas, the third projection of the individual ManWoman came about, which is the second projection of the Soul plane, which is the first projection of the mental plane, which is called the fifth dimension or the astral plane.
Fertility is held by the feminine principle.
Therefore, the fifth dimension is also called the feminine sphere, and
it consists of the emotional movements of the masculine and the
feminine.
The two graphs below illustrate the
movement of the emotional in all directions and the archetype of the
emotional.
This projection is called The Life Nerve
because the emotional gives the direction to the movements of life.
THE
GRAPH OF THE LIFE NERVE
THE
ARCHETYPE OF THE LIFE NERVE
PASHUPATINATH-SHIVA
AND KALI-SHAKTI
When a desire arose to curb the emotions yet another projection took place, which is the fourth projection of the individual ManWoman, which is the third projection of the Soul plane, which is the second projection of the mental plane, which is the first projection of the astral plane.
The fourth projection createdmanifested
space and time and is also called the ethereal plane.
Space is the masculine side of this being, and the archetype of space
is Pashupatinath-Shiva, the destroyer, who breaks down ignorance.
The linear time is the feminine side of this being, and the archetype
of the linear time is Kali-Shakti, the destroyess, who breaks down
materialism.
THE
SON OF MAN AND THE DAUGHTER OF MAN
The last graph below illustrates the son of man and the daughter of man put together, which is the fifth projection of the individual ManWoman, which is the fourth projection of the Soul plane, which is the third projection of the mental plane, which is the second projection of the astral plane, which is the first projection of the ethereal plane.
PASHUPATINATH-SHIVA AND KALI-SHAKTI GRAPH
THE
SON AND DAUGHTER OF HUMANKIND
INVOLUTION
AND EVOLUTION
When a son of humankind and a daughter of humankind have had all their material desires fulfilled and thus have become full of days, a turning point arises in the form of a desire to experience again the bliss of the total merger with one’s other half, and with this desire the migration down through dimensions ends.
This migration is called creationmanifestation, involution,
entanglement or the descent of Spirit into Matter, and the migration
back through the dimensions begins.
The migration back to the origin is called dissolution, evolution,
untanglement or the ascent of
Matter into Spirit.
HINDUISTIC
ARCHETYPES
In India,
spiritual science works with a very vast number of archetypes, where
God is perceived to be the merged masculine and feminine principles,
called Ardhanarishwara, who abides the eight dimension, the Absolute
as pure Spirit and pure Spirits archetype, which consists of the
individual united Spirits and is called the God Realm.
The Souls, who were the first creaturesmanifestations, are called
Demigods and Demigoddesses and abide in various fields of energy
according to their own choice in the seventh dimension as Soul Mates,
who consists of the separated masculine and feminine principle into a
‘he’ and a ‘she’ from their personal Ardhanarishwara.
When a human being meets his/her Spirit Mate in his/her human life, it
becomes his/her task to approach God by seeing his/her God, his/her
personal Ardhanarishwara in his/her partner, and when that is achieved
by the help of The Four Weddings, it also becomes his/her task to see
his/her impersonal God, his/her impersonal Ardhanarishwara in
Ardhanarishwara’s archetype, who holds everything and everybody
everywhere at all levels of existence.
TuTu taught me many archetypes, but the
below five are fundamental for the spiritual aspirants'
perspective on existence.
Ardhanarishwara = halfwoman God = the ManWoman = God
Patiparamishwara = the woman’s God = spouse
Padniparamishwari = the man’s Goddess = spouse
Pashupatinath-Shiva = the destroyer = the
male God of the animal-man and the animal-woman =
Shiva/Maheshwara/the greatest God
Kali-Shakti = the destroyess = the female
God of the animal-man and the animal-woman = Shakti/Maheshwari/the
greatest Goddess.
EVOLUTION
When a
couple’s desire to merge completely arises, this desire sends an
impulse through the dimensions to exactly that ManWoman who has sent
out this couple as a projection of Himself-Herself, and the ManWoman
reflects the impulse by letting it wander back through the dimensions
to both of them as a desire to withdraw all projections.
Thereby, the two individuals begin to become
interested in spirituality, whether they live together or separate
in each their part of the outer or the inner Worlds, and thus they
begin receiving teachings as to how to withdraw all projections from
the outer and the inner Worlds.
SPIRITUAL
PRACTICE
In the Master’s teachings, this
takes place as a cleaning of consciousness by the help of
transmission, while at the same time, the disciple cooperates by
performing a daily mental cleaning ritual.
The Master’s disciples also practice contemplation and concentration
followed by meditation on a daily basis to expand their conscious
contact with their Higher Power.
In The Fellowships Anonymous, the withdrawal of projections takes
place through cleaning the consciousness with the help of daily
inventories and by the help of the Two Way Prayer that was coined by
the Oxford movement, which is the origin of The Fellowships Anonymous.
The Two Way Prayer, which is a meditation form, where the spiritual
aspirant writes a question down to his chosen Higher Power and this
he/she perceives as a prayer of guidance.
Then he/she lets the answer rise through the stillness within, and
this he/she perceives as meditation, and he/she writes down the answer
to hold it steady in his/her mind for contemplation.
Besides this, respect of one’s own and others’ emotions, plus
reflection, contemplation, concentration and any form of meditation is
a part of the daily work with expanding the conscious contact with
his/her Higher Power.
GOD’S PRESENCE
TuTu
explained that as a result of this training the spiritual capacity of
the person grows, and this capacity is decisive for the person’s
experience of God’s presence.
The lesser the capacity, the more distant
God appears to be to a human being, although
God is the very being of himself/herself and even though he/she is
surrounded by God in all ways, both physical and non-physical.
RETURN TO
THE ORIGIN
When the son
and the daughter of humankind return to the origin as the ManWoman,
they behold each other in blissful love with their new delighted eyes
that they have attained in involution, and when all
creaturesmanifestations have withdrawn from matter and the evolution
is thus completed, then at full blast, the cosmic orchestra plays the
music of the spheres, which is the rainbow-colored love movements of
the Menwomen, and in this way, there is joy in eternities' eternity,
until creationmanifestation begins anew as materiel manifestation.
NUCLEAR
FISSIONS AND NUCLEAR FUSIONS
TuTu explained
that in the Absolute the energy is constant, but from the seventh
dimension to the first, which all are the illusion about separation
from God and the eternal beloved Spirit Mate in each their way, energy
injections and energy deprivations are found, and here is the battle
about the energies and the fear of losing a normal expression in the
movements of life.
If the movement takes place from the Absolute to the dimensions, from
the seventh to the first, for each projection into form, a nuclear
fission takes place, and the result is a deprivation of awareness of
Spirit/Oneness of the eternal lovers and an injection of energy to the
awareness of Matter/Separation of the eternal lovers.
If the movement takes place from the dimensions to the Absolute,
after
a series of quantum leaps, a nuclear fusion takes place, and
the result is a deprivation of awareness of Matter/Separation of the
eternal lovers and an injection of energy to the awareness
Spirit/Oneness of the eternal lovers.
THE
MOVEMENTS OF LIFE
Changes in the emotional states
bring forth the movements of the energies of life in the worlds of
illusions.
Basic
emotional conditions arose in the seventh dimension and consist in
four fundamental emotions: Love, joy, pain and fear, and all other
emotions spring from these four.
They are the result of the illusion about ‘the Big Bang’, where the
separation of the masculine and the feminine principle apparently took
place.
But what God has joined together
is inseparable, and thus the masculine and the feminine principle
cannot be separated, because all the individual Spirits that God
createdmanifested as HisHer SonDaughters are thus one being like God
HimHerself and therefore any idea of separation is an illusion.
However, the illusion of
separation may appear to a human being to be real, because the human
lovers are separated into a ‘he’ and a ‘she’.
For the separated, love and fear
go hand in hand because love in the seventh dimension, after ‘the Big
Bang’, called out fear of having lost one’s eternal beloved Spirit
Mate.
Pain arises when the beloved
appears to be lost, and joy arises when the beloved appears to be
found.
In the world of illusions, the
eternally loving Spirit Mates meet and separate and meet again and
again, and even the act of lovemaking takes place by the bodies
meeting and separating and meeting again until the seed of love and
the egg of love meets at the peak of merging.
Separation therefore can appear to
be a prerequisite for setting the motions of the life energies into
movement so new life can come into being.
To illustrate the movements of the
life energies as they appear to the separated to be on Planet Earth,
two graphs are found below that illustrate the movements in the worlds
of illusions, where Spirit seems to be entangled in or untangled from
matter.
The two Rings are called the Magic
Rings, and they are found as two different energy fields in the
seventh dimension - one that works for involution/matter and one that
works for evolution/Spirit.
The first Magical Ring is called
the Ring of Maya, and illustrates the illusion of the entanglement of
the Spirit in Matter, and therefore this Ring is also called the Ring
of Matter or the Ring of Illusions.
The second Magical Ring is called
the ring of Reality, and illustrates the untanglement of Spirit from
matter, and therefore this Ring is also called the Ring of the Spirit
or the Ring of Truth.
THE MAGICAL RINGS
THE RING OF MATTER/THE RING OF MAYA/ILLUSIONS
The
feminine ring: Involution
(The movement is clockwise)
Right
symbolizes the illusion Left symbolizes the Truth.
Truth is given off and illusion is received.
The
Divine Father says: “Become light” and the Divine Mother becomes the
growth of Matter à
Limitation.
The
Divine Mother says: “Become manifold” and the Divine Daughter becomes
the form of Matter à
Mortality.
The
Divine Daughter says: “Become love” and the Divine Son becomes the
nourishment of Matter à
Powerlessness.
The
Divine Son says: “Become clean” and the
Divine Father becomes the consciousness of
Matter à
Ignorance.
THE RING OF SPIRIT/THE RING OF TRUTH
The
masculine ring:
Evolution (The movement is anti-clockwise)
Right
symbolizes the illusion, and left symbolizes the Truth.
The
Divine Mother says: “Become power” and the Divine Father becomes the
consciousness of the Spirit à
Omniscience.
The
Divine Father says: “Become force” and the Divine Son becomes the
nourishment of the Spirit à
Omnipotence.
The
Divine Son says: “Become oneness” and the Divine Daughter becomes the
form of the Spirit à
Immortality.
The
Divine Daughter says: “Become darkness” and the Divine Mother becomes
the growth of the Spirit à
Omnipresence.
THE
REALMS OF CONSCIOUSNESS IN THE THIRD DIMENSION
TuTu
explained that the movement of consciousness in the third dimension
passes through the outer and the inner planes of the mineral realm,
the plant realm, the animal realm and the human realm.
SURVIVAL
OF THE FITTEST
When the
individual’s consciousness moves from its outer form in the animal
realm to its new outer form in the human realm, he/she brings deep
instinctive experiences with him/her from the other realms from where
his/her consciousness has grown through various stages and has thus
become ready to take on a human form.
Throughout his/her time in the animal realm, the consciousness
develops new forms all the time to find the best-equipped survival
forms, and thus everything in the animal realm revolves around
becoming powerful enough to survive.
Therefore, in the animal realm, might is right.
THE HUMAN
RIGHTS
In the human
realm, the consciousness moves through various stages and reaches a
solution for everybody’s survival, and so it no longer revolves around
survival of the fittest here but around achieving the right for all
human life forms to survive – both the fragile and the strong –
without them being robbed of the necessities for survival and without
them being persecuted and punished by the flock because of their
choice of life style, as this is a prerequisite for the development of
the ability to discern that everybody have all their desires fulfilled
and thereby get the opportunity to get to know the contents of their
desires.
Thus, in the
human realm, might is no longer right, but the right to have one's
desires fulfilled is right.
THE FALL
OF MATERIALISM
If a
powerful person desires to usurp more than he/she needs, also such a
person has to have his/her wish fulfilled, but anybody has the right
to withdraw from this person if the person tries to buy one’s
life-force to usurp even more by exploiting his/her neighbor as labor
instead of sharing the surplus of their mutual endeavors with each
other.
By withdrawing from this kind of
exploitation, anybody can contribute to such a person discovering
for himself/herself as to which of his/her possessions hold a value
for him/her and which are acquired with the purpose of achieving the
power and the glory.
If such a person has set himself/herself
up as a dictator of a nation, humankind can open up to receiving all
those citizens from this nation who don’t want to contribute to the
dictator’s attempt to achieve the power and the glory by offering
them dignified and humane living conditions in another country and
thus take away the dictator’s opportunity to usurp rights over the
life and happiness of others by the help of persecutions, murders,
fire and brimstone.
In this way,
humankind can collectively help such a dictator to discover that
he/she is neither greater nor smaller than any other
creaturemanifestation, and that his/her desires therefore are neither
more nor less important than that of everybody else.
THE
DEVIL AND ALL HIS BEING AND ALL HIS DOINGS
That
consciousness which has just left the animal realm to enter his/her
human form, needs time, in life after life after life, to orientate
himself/herself in the new realm so as to be able to find out which
principles are valid here.
The general attitude of this type of
consciousness has made humankind
visualize it as a human being with hooves, horns and tail
besides a trident that could be used to attack others in the struggle
for survival.
THE SPHINX
When this
consciousness goes through experiences in
the human realm in life after life, the
person’s mental abilities become clearer, but he/she is still
influenced by the norms of the animal realm, and therefore humankind
has portrayed this type of consciousness
as the sphinx with a human head and an animal body.
JUSTICE
Gradually, as the consciousness
acquires more and more mental abilities, it gets consumed by system-building
and legislation to secure that both the strong and the weak
get the right to their life style, and thus
justice becomes the goal.
DISCERNMENT
When consciousness comes to realize that justice cannot be achieved solely by the help of system-building and legislation, it begins to seek for love, and thereby the person begins to follow the heart instead of the system and the legislation at those points in time where a conflict arises between the two.
CONDEMNATION
That person
who fears and condemns the expression of consciousness in the form of
the person with horns, hooves and tail thus condemns his/her own
roots.
By fearing and condemning this
part of himself/herself under many different labels such as the
devil, Satan and Beelzebub, the individual prevents himself/herself
from admitting that the qualities ascribed to
the devil is a part of himself/herself, and thereby this part is
pushed under the threshold of the daily consciousness.
This allows the fear and condemnation to breed and become avarice,
envy, hatred and arrogance, which can grow up as trees in the
consciousness and bear many different fruits such as anger, disbelief,
superstition and many other destructive attributes.
THE TREE OF HATRED AND THE TREE OF LOVE
The graph
below illustrates the growth of two trees in the human mind from their
birth to their full fruition.
In the above graph, the Tree of Hatred illustrates how hatred sprouts forth from a slight disturbance in a person’s life in the form of various emotions like ill will, unkindness, irritation and impatience to denial, manipulation, illness and insanity that lead into a trunk of low self-esteem crowned by hatred.
The soil the tree grows in can be looked at like a situation we encounter, and when we respond to the situation with ill will, unkindness, irritation, and impatience, we give nourishment to the Tree of Hatred.
Likewise, the Tree of Love illustrates how love sprouts forth from a slight movement in a person’s life in the form of various emotions like good will, kindness, calmness and patience to admission, self-acceptance, health and sanity that lead into a trunk of high self-esteem crowned by love.
Again, the soil the tree grows in can be perceived as a situation we encounter, and when we respond to the situation with good will, kindness, calmness and patience, we provide nourishment to the Tree of Love.
GUILT AND
INNOCENCE
To condemn oneself and others makes a person feel ashamed of himself/herself and feel guilt ridden about being the way he/she is, but anybody – be it animal man/woman or a saint - are at a stage in their existence which is connected with the extent of their existential experiences that are achieved in life after life.
The animal man/woman and the saint carry out actions, which their existential experiences has given them the impression, will be the most advantageous for themselves and their dear ones.
That animal man and animal woman sometimes carry out actions that are
harmful to the life and happiness of others is, therefore, connected
to the understanding that belongs to his/her existential stage.
That the saint abstains from carrying out such actions is also
connected with the understanding which belongs to his/her existential
stage.
Thus, the animal man and the animal woman act from the same motives as the saint and they are therefore equally innocent, and exactly this understanding will eventually lead humankind to forgive themselves and others for being as they are.
THE REDEMPTION
Only when a
person honestly admits to possess that part of himself/herself which
is ascribed to the devil can he/she begin to receive those qualities
that he/she attained from his/her time in the mineral realm, the plant
realm and the animal realm, so as to be able to screen out those
qualities they no longer need in their life as human beings, and
thereby achieve their redemption from their shame about themselves.
THE
POWERS OF THE DESTRUCTIVE RINGS
Below are some graphs that illustrate some of the characteristics which can sprout forth by denying one’s time in the other realms.
TuTu called these the destructive rings or the Rings of Pain.
THE
POWERS OF THE CONSTRUCTIVE RINGS
Below the
destructive rings are some graphs that show some of the
characteristics which can sprout forth after the cessation of the
denial, and these TuTu called the constructive rings or the Rings of
Joy.
THE
TRANSFORMATION
By looking
at the powers of the destructive rings and investigating their effects
in one’s own life and in the World, a person, a society, a country or
the World at large can inventory themselves and thereby find loving,
caring, compassionate and merciful ways of replacing the powers of the
destructive rings with the powers of the constructive rings within
themselves, within the society,
the country or the World at large if they
so desire.
THE
DESTRUCTIVE RINGS
The big
circle is the global ring, which is in force for both the individual
and for the World at large. The smaller circles on the rim of the
global ring are the four regional rings each carrying a destructive
interference pattern.
THE
RINGS OF PAIN
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THE
GLOBAL RING OF PAIN
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THE
NORTH
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): AVARICE
SWING:
AVARICE «
ENVY
THE
SOUTH
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): ENVY
SWING:
ENVY «
AVARICE
THE
EAST
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): HATRED (Suppressed anger)
SWING:
HATRED «
ARROGANCE
THE
WEST
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): ARROGANCE
SWING:
ARROGANCE «
HATRED
¯
¯
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): AVARICE
EFFECT
AT WORLD LEVEL:
SWING
NORTH «
SOUTH: STINGINESS «
GREED
SWING
EAST «
WEST: POVERTY «
GLUTTONY
When The Ring of Avarice becomes active in us, we want to receive something materially, physically, space-time wise, emotionally, mentally, socially or spiritually without using our own money, time, energy or interest to get it (Stinginess), and we readily receive anything that we do not have to make an effort to get (Greed) even if we do not need it (Gluttony), while at the same time we feel poor in spite of all the things and advantages we possess (Poverty).
THE
RING OF PAIN OF THE SOUTH
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): ENVY
EFFECT
AT WORLD LEVEL:
SWING
NORTH «
SOUTH: DISBELIEF «
SUPERSTITION
SWING
EAST «
WEST: SUBMISSION «
When The
Ring of Envy becomes
active in us, we imagine that we can get
what we see others have without
doing anything for it (Superstition), and that there is nobody
or nothing who will help us get
what we so desire if we work
towards fulfilling our desires ourselves (Disbelief).
We get angry if someone suggests that we should participate and contribute with our interest, energy, time or money just like others do to get the same as they have whether it is material, physical, time-space wise, emotional, mental, social or spiritual (Defiance), or we submit to various demands that are contrary to our innermost desires hoping that others e.g. God, our spouse, our employer, family, friend etc. will fulfill our desires if only we throw ourselves on our knees and flatter them with sacrificial gifts or words of praise (Submission).
THE
RING OF PAIN OF THE EAST
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): HATRED (Suppressed anger)
EFFECT
AT WORLD LEVEL:
SWING
NORTH «
SOUTH: DENIAL «
MANIPULATION
SWING EAST « WEST: DISEASE « MADNESS
When The Ring of Hatred becomes active in us, we deny our needs and refuse to take responsibility for ourselves, whether materially, physically, space-time wise, emotionally, mentally, socially or spiritually (Denial), and we try in roundabout ways to manipulate others into fulfilling our needs to have it confirmed that we are valuable (Manipulation).
At the same time, we imagine that others fulfill our needs because we are so special (Insanity), and if others do not fulfill our needs, we continue to deny them until we feel so bad materially, physically, space-time wise, emotionally, mentally, socially or spiritually that we get ill from it (Illness).
THE
RING OF PAIN OF THE WEST
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): ARROGANCE
EFFECT
AT WORLD LEVEL:
SWING
NORTH «
SOUTH: SUPERIORITY «
INFERIORITY
SWING
EAST «
WEST: OVERPOPULATION «
ISOLATION
When The Ring of Arrogance becomes active in us, we feel above others when our needs are met (Superiority), and below others when our needs are not met (Inferiority).
When we feel we are less than others, we stay by ourselves to hide our vulnerability and our feeling of worthlessness (Isolation), and when we feel we are more than others, we fill up our time and space with people and activities to show off our superiority by the help of the number of people present in our lives and the numerous activities we undertake (Over-crowding).
THE
CONSTRUCTIVE RINGS
The big
circle is the global ring, which is in force for both the individual
and for the World at large. The smaller circles on the rim of the
global ring are the four regional rings each carrying a constructive
interference pattern.
THE
RINGS OF JOY
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THE
GLOBAL RING OF JOY
THE
NORTH:
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): FAITH
SWING:
FAITH «
HOPE
THE
SOUTH:
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): HOPE
SWING:
HOPE «
FAITH
THE
EAST:
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): LOVE
SWING:
LOVE «
TRUTH
THE
WEST:
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): TRUTH
SWING:
TRUTH «
LOVE
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THE
REGIONAL RINGS
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): FAITH
EFFECT
AT WORLD LEVEL:
SWING
NORTH «
SOUTH: GENEROSITY «
TRUST
SWING
EAST «
WEST: PROSPERITY «
ACCOUNTABILITY
When The Ring of Faith becomes active in us, we believe that our Higher Power gives us what we need when we need it (Trust), and we use our Higher Power’s gifts to the full or pass them on to others if we do not find use for them (Accountability).
Therefore we pass on our material, physical, space-time wise, emotional, mental, social or spiritual surplus to others who lack what we have in excess (Generosity), and through these actions, we realize that we do have a surplus to give from (Prosperity).
THE
RING OF JOY OF THE SOUTH
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): HOPE
EFFECT
AT WORLD LEVEL:
SWING
NORTH «
SOUTH: CREDENCE «
INFORMATION
SWING
EAST «
WEST: DISCERNMENT «
SERENITY
When The Ring of Hope becomes active in us, we have faith in that our
desires will be fulfilled if we work for it (Belief), and that our
Higher Power will show us the way ahead (Enlightenment).
Therefore we
listen attentively to the guidance of our Higher Power (Discernment)
before moving ahead along the shown path, one step at a time
(Serenity).
THE
RING OF JOY OF THE EAST
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): LOVE
EFFECT
AT WORLD LEVEL:
SWING NORTH « SOUTH: ADMITTING « SELF-ACCEPTANCE
SWING
EAST «
WEST: HEALTH «
SANITY
When the ring of love becomes active in us, we take responsibility for
ourselves by fulfilling our needs materially, physically,
space-time wise, emotionally, mentally,
socially and spiritually (Self-acceptance), and we seek the help of
others for those needs that we cannot
fulfill ourselves by admitting our need for help to another
human being (Admission).
As we fulfill our needs this way
(Sanity), we experience an expansion of wellbeing in all areas
(Health).
THE
RING OF JOY OF THE WEST
ARCHETYPE
(INTERFERENCE PATTERN): TRUTH
EFFECT
AT WORLD LEVEL:
SWING
NORTH «
SOUTH: HUMILITY «
HONESTY
SWING
EAST «
WEST: INDIVIDUALITY «
FELLOWSHIP
When The Ring of Truth becomes
active in us, we feel that everybody is equally valuable to totality
(Humility) even though we are not able to evaluate the full value of
ourselves and others (Honesty).
Therefore, we do not try to evaluate our worth or that of others; instead we seek to find that part in ourselves where we recognize the emotions of others (Fellowship), while at the same time, we accept that we and others may have different reasons to feel the way we do (Individuality).
THE PRAYERS OF THE RINGS
We can choose to use the below prayers to make easier
our personal work with the Rings of Pain and Joy, and also we can use
The Smile Meditation below to intensify this work.
The below prayer is called the Prayer of Pain, because we pray to be
liberated from our use of the Rings of Pain in this prayer.
THE PRAYER OF PAIN
God,
Liberate me from using the pain of my self-important seriousness and make my stay in all of the Rings of Pain short today:
The Ring of Emptiness and thereby emptiness, boredom, meaninglessness and loneliness
The Ring of Self-centredness and thereby self-criticism, depression, euphoria and self-praise
The Ring of Codependency and thereby the savior, seducer, victim and offender roles
The Big Ring of Pain and thereby avarice, envy, hatred and arrogance
The Small Ring of Avarice and thereby stinginess, greed, poverty and gluttony
The Small Ring of Envy and thereby disbelief, superstition, submission and defiance
The Small Ring of Hatred and thereby denial, manipulation, disease and madness
The Small Ring of Arrogance and thereby superiority, inferiority, overcrowding and isolation
The Miniring of Avarice and thereby pettiness, clinging, malaise and hoarding
The Miniring of Envy and thereby insecurity, confusion, unclarity and wretchedness
The Miniring of Hatred and thereby ill will, unkindness, irritation and impatience
The Miniring of Arrogance and thereby condescension, intolerance, exaggeration and seclusion
The Microring of Avarice and thereby selfishness, hardness, unfreedom and negligence
The Microring of Envy and thereby denigration, incusceptibility, narrow-mindedness and unworthiness
The Microring of Hatred and thereby indignation, vindictiveness, belligerence and bitterness
The Microring of Arrogance and thereby disrespect, craftiness, distortion and separateness
The Nanoring of Avarice and thereby inhibition, nervousness, complaining and indifference
The Nanoring of Envy and thereby uncertainty, uncultivatedness, indecision and rashness
The Nanoring of Hatred and thereby resentment, unwillingness, vociferousness and
stiff-neckedness
The Nanoring of Arrogance and thereby insincerity, cunning, unreliability and alienation.
THANK
YOU!
The below prayer is called the Prayer of Joy,
because we pray for the capacity to make use of all the Rings of Joy.
THE PRAYER OF JOY
God,
Grant me the capacity to be unpretentious and cheerful, joyful and content and make my stay in of all the Rings of Joy long today:
The Ring of Fulfillment and thereby fulfillment, interest, meaningfulness and oneness
The Ring of God-centeredness and
thereby open-mindedness, empowerment, joy and gratitude
The Ring of Emotional Sobriety and thereby detachment, integrity,
respect for self and respect for others
The Big Ring of Joy and thereby faith, hope, love and truth
The Small Ring of Faith and thereby generosity, trust, prosperity and accountability
The Small Ring of Hope and thereby credence, information, discernment and serenity
The Small Ring of Love and thereby admitting, self-acceptance, health and sanity
The Small Ring of Truth and thereby humility, honesty, individuality and fellowship
The Miniring of Faith and thereby largesse, letting go, wellbeing and sharing
The Miniring of Hope and thereby safety, well-informedness, clarity and nobleness
The Miniring of Love and thereby goodwill, kindness, calmness and patience
The Miniring of Truth and thereby equality, tolerance, accuracy and belongingness
The Microring of Faith and thereby consideration, equanimity, freedom of action and contributing
The Microring of Hope and thereby appreciation, teachableness, openness and worthiness
The Microring of Love and thereby amiability, forgiveness, conciliatory and sweetness
The Microring of Truth and thereby respectfulness, straightforwardness, precision and togetherness
The Nanoring of Faith and thereby approachability, light-heartedness, validation and involvement
The Nanoring of Hope and thereby certainty, cultivatedness, resolution and level-headedness
The Nanoring of Love and thereby acceptance, willingness, quietness and flexibility
The Nanoring of Truth and thereby sincerity, simplicity, reliability and familiarity
THANK YOU!
The below contemplation is called The
Smile Meditation, and in this we use the healing power of our smile
together with the healing power from the central part of our brain’s
hormone-producing center, where the thalamus-, hypothalamus-, pineal-
and pituitary gland meet in one and the same area in the center of our
brain so as to become able heal pain both within ourselves and in the
outside World.
This central area of our brain together with the healing power of a
smile has been used by spiritual masters for millennia as an object of
contemplation and has createdmanifested the smiling eyes that are so
well known in spiritual masters.
The central area in the brain has been named the cave of Brahma in Hinduism and the Crystal Palace in Taoism.
THE SMILE MEDITATION
1. Sit comfortably with your
spine in an upright position and your head straight in a way that allow
the muscles of your neck and throat to feel relaxed.
2. Take a couple of deep,
slow breaths, noticing how your abdomen rises and falls.
3. Rest the tip of your
tongue gently on the roof of your mouth, somewhere behind and close to
your upper front teeth.
5. Now bring your attention to the space between your eyebrows.
As you rest your attention there, energy will begin to gather and as energy pools there, let your attention drift deeper into that pool - back and toward the center of your head.
6. Let your attention rest now right in the center of your brain. Feel the energy gathering in this powerful place.
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7. Allow this energy gathering to flow forward into your eyes. Feel your eyes becoming "smiling eyes."
8. To enhance this, you can imagine that you're gazing into the eyes of the person you love the most, and they're gazing back at you in the same way ... infusing your eyes with this quality of loving-kindness and delight.
9. Now, direct the energy of your smiling eyes into some place in your body that would like some of this healing energy or to some area in your emotions or your thoughts that would like some of this healing energy, but decide in advance if you want to address a pain in your body or you emotions or your thoughts today and focus accordingly.
10. Let the painful spot absorb the smile energy like a sponge absorbs water. It might be a place where you've recently had an injury or illness. It might be a place that just feels a little numb or "sleepy," or simply some place you've not recently taken care of.
In any case, smile down into that place within your body, your emotions or your thoughts, and observe how that place, that emotion or that thought opens up to receive the smile-energy.
11. When the place is saturated, direct your inner gaze with its smile-energy into your solar plexus center, feeling that warmth and brightness is gathering there now below your breastbone.
12. Release the tip of the tongue from the roof of your mouth and release the smile or keep it.
13. If you wish, you can - in the course of your day - choose to look at life around you with your smiling eyes and your smiling lips and thereby transfer the healing energy of your smiling eyes and your smiling lips to your surroundings, especially if you see a human being or an animal suffering from stress or other painful conditions.
In addition to working with the Prayer of Pain, the Prayer of Joy,
and the Smile Meditation, a spiritual aspirant can choose to work
with The Constructive and The Destructive Rings by the help of
Emotional Freedom Technique by following the suggestions for this
work in the book One suggestion
to work with The Constructive and the Destructive Rings and their
Super Strings for readers of the TuTu Doctrine -
The New World Order.
THE
SPOKEN AND THE WRITTEN WORD
The first step towards love is honesty towards oneself and others.
The difficulty about honesty consists in that the truth cannot be said
or written.
Truth IS.
No matter how many times a person says or writes the word chair,
the word will never become the chair, and therefore honesty consists
in the person expressing the truth about his/her existential
experiences, as they appear to be to the person right HERE right NOW,
while at the same time being fully aware that his/her image of Reality
changes day by day, hour by hour, and that he/she thus expresses a
limited and insufficient image in a limited and insufficient way.
THE ETERNAL TRUTHS
When
spiritual teachers speak or write about that which is called The
Eternal Truths, they also give a limited and insufficient image in a
limited and insufficient way of their limited and insufficient
understanding of how the spiritual dimensions affect life on Earth,
although their limited image was sufficient
to expand the understanding of the existential
experiences
of the people for whom it was meant at that particular time.
Moreover, these descriptions come from persons from many nations
across the World and they go way back in the existence of humankind,
and one can use the different descriptions to compare narratives
through millennia from all parts of the World and thereby discover
that a core is found which repeats itself in all these narrations, and
it is this core which is referred to under the concept The Eternal
Truths.
DISPUTE
ABOUT WORDS
Spiritual teachers often use to compare phenomenon from other dimensions with something which is known from the third dimension by most of their contemporaries.
In this way, they try to
give an initial understanding to
people who do not have experiences in the field themselves.
The disadvantage of using parables is that the comparisons get
outdated when the societies develop new habits and new aids, and that
many spiritual seekers enter into endless disputes about words to
decide who possesses the correct understanding.
THE END
OF THE DISPUTE
If you want to exchange existential information with others, one-on-one or in groups, you can let everybody who wants to express his/her perspective on a given topic speak and listen to the speaker in silence and without comments.
Then, you can take what is useful to you from the perspective of the
others and let that be which you do not want to make use of, while at
the same time, you understand that even if you cannot use all of the
information for something, others find exactly that information which
is useless to you useful for them, and therefore, all contributions
are equally valuable.
HELL
One day, light was shed on the problem of suffering in a conversation between the Master and us.
A disciple asked if hell exists.
The Master laughed and said: "Yes, it is found on Earth. Earth is that
place where sufferings are found everywhere, even if it is sometimes
in very subtle forms."
LIBERATION 1
The Master
added that the minimum goal for those who wish to liberate themselves
from sufferings is to liberate themselves from those dependencies that
bind them to Earth and thus liberate themselves from rebirth to Earth.
This he called liberation.
PAIN VERSUS SUFFERING
This
conversation made me think about pain and suffering, and I came to
perceive pain as a short-lived signal of action and suffering as a
prolonged feeling of discomfort springing from my lack of willingness
or capacity to perform the action that the pain ordains.
THE ETERNAL
LIFE
TuTu explained that many years ago the consciousness of The Eternal Life was only present in prophets and spiritual teachers who had the task of guiding humankind.
Today, it is present in many who have memories from their previous
incarnations and in many others who have chosen to have confidence in
that reincarnation is a fact.
Besides, it is possible today for anybody who wants to, to contact
his/her previous lives by doing consciousness-travels
on their own time track and thereby investigate the matter
personally.
EX CALIBUR
When
I began to come across information that
death is not the end of it all, I dared not believe it.
Even at the time when I traveled into the other spheres of existence
and spoke with departed Souls, I dared not believe that my experiences
were real.
In the end, I decided to weigh the pros and cons in taking my
experiences to heart.
If I perceived them to be an expression of an overactive fantasy or
downright insanity, they were out of contact with Reality and
therefore worthless, and then I was a confused person who could not
see the difference between Reality and the unreal.
If I perceived them as an expression of a special capacity to get into
contact with higher dimensions, I was in conformity with Reality, and
then I was a person with a talent.
Last, but not least, these experiences were so enriching that I
reluctantly abstained from them, but exactly that scared me most of
all.
If I took them to heart because they enriched my life for the moment,
and it later proved that they were a mirage, then I had wasted my life
on something unreal instead of using it for something better, and
thereby, I would be worse off later than I would be now if I renounced
them.
I realized that I was faced with Ex Calibur, the magical sword in the
stone, which is so strongly submerged in the stone that even the
biggest giants of the country cannot dislodge it.
A chosen hero comes to the stone and lifts the sword so easily as if
it had never been stuck.
Ex Calibur is a symbol of the power of
discernment, the stone a symbol of Mother Earth and the chosen hero
a symbol of the one who heroically liberates his/her power of
discernment from the earthbound.
I decided to lift the Ex Calibur, trusting my experiences to be my
Higher Power’s answer to my desire to attain knowledge about death.
THE PHYSICAL
DEATH
My experiences gave me the
impression that death is a process where, at first, the dying persons
are liberated from the physical body by the chakras beginning to close
from the bottom up, and in this way, the dying persons get help to
leave the body through the crown chakra.
THE JUDGEMENT
When the person moves on, he/she goes through the Gate of Death and then into a special meditation where he/she meets God's Light of Love, is penetrated by it and look at his/her life for two days in this light.
In this phase, joy arises about those
times where the person in question acted in conformity with the
insight it gives him/her to look at his/her actions in The Light of
Love, and pain arises about those times where he/she have not
done so.
The pain expresses itself in a heartfelt desire to make amends for
those actions which are not in conformity with love for oneself and
one's neighbor.
This is the judgment.
THE
RESURRECTION
Thereby, the physical and psychological stages of death are complete, and the departed person goes on to the higher Worlds on the third day.
Normally, the resurrected person begins life in the fifth dimension by
teaching others who are about to incarnate by telling them about
his/her experiences on Earth.
THE ASPIRANT
Besides this, he/she meets his/her spiritual guide and gets an opportunity to express his/her desires for a life to come.
Together, they find out which areas the aspirant wants to work with to
have his/her desires fulfilled.
Perhaps the aspirant remembers his/her
experiences in The Light of Love and expresses some of the desires
that arose there.
Beyond this, the aspirant can have a
desire for special circumstances, for
example, to become a beauty queen, an explorer or other
special aspiration.
DESIRES
The vast majority remember their
experiences in The Light of Love vaguely or not at all, and thus, they
do not have any special desires other than meeting again with those
they loved, or being successful in fulfilling the unfulfilled desires
they had last time around, for example, getting a business, a house,
liberating themselves from material distress and so on.
But even if
they do not
remember their desires from their
stay in The Light of Love, these desires lie like seeds in the
consciousness of their Spirit that holds all of their experiences
together with those desires which cannot be fulfilled in
their life to come due to the limitation of time.
All desires appear again, when time is ripe, until all desires are
fulfilled.
THE LAW OF MERCY
It is impossible for any human being to make amends for all those actions which the person wants to make amends for by looking at them in The Light of Love, but if a person sincerely repents a given action and therefore does not repeat it any more, or at least does not repeat it in the same way, this person comes under the Law of Mercy, and thereby the slate is wiped clean in context with this particular area for this person.
The Higher Power then connects those who
want to have restoration for the acts of others in their previous
lives with those who want to make amends to others, who do not seek
to achieve it anymore, and thus the Law of Mercy becomes beneficial
for all.
PERSONAL
CAPACITY
The ideas of
the aspirants as to how they attain the fulfillment of their desires
are very different from each other, depending on their respective
capacity to understand
the extent of the acts which are required for the fulfillment of their
desires, but if they do not seek
guidance as to how they can have their
desires fulfilled in the shortest possible time, there is nobody who
corrects them.
They have all of eternity at their disposal, and it is more important
that they have all their desires fulfilled and all their ideas tested
than achieving their goals in one single life, because they will have
all of their desires fulfilled in the long run anyway.
Sometimes, the aspirants have some desires
which cannot be met, because they don’t have the required capacity
to handle the circumstances that they want to experience.
In such instances, they receive guidance as to how they can develop
the required capacity, and a longer series of incarnations may come
into question.
Then, they decide if instead they want to let go of their desire, and
with this the guidance is over.
BACK TO
LIFE ON EARTH
The work
begins with finding the appropriate community and parents who are
willing to offer the aspirant the circumstance which he/she wants to
experience.
This process can take a short or a long time depending on how special
the desires of the aspirant are, and then, he/she is ready for
incarnation.
LIBERATION 2
If the
aspirant has had all of his/her earthly desires fulfilled and
therefore does not have any desires which need
be fulfilled on
Earth, he/she has achieved liberation, so unless, at some point,
he/she wants to incarnate on Earth to perform a special task the
aspirant’s return to Earth is over.
Instead, this aspirant’s life continues in the higher dimensions, and
the fulfillment of his/her desires in that context is planned together
with the spiritual guide accordingly.
THE TEN
COMMANDMENTS
TuTu
explained that the prophets of the past passed on their knowledge in
the form of injunctions and prohibitions to protect humankind from
straying out onto many wild paths as a result of the human limitation,
ignorance, powerlessness and mortality,
but this is no longer required
because the general education of the many at the present time has
reached a stage where it is possible to tell The Eternal Truths by
the help of concepts which were formerly inaccessible to the many,
and thus today the individual person can decide for himself/herself
by considering the advantages and disadvantages of taking the
statements of the prophets to heart.
Therefore,
a
revised version of the Ten Commandments follows below, where the word
'commandment' is changed to 'statement', the word 'must' is changed to
'can' and the Commandment of Love: 'You must love your God with all
your heart, with all your Soul, with all your mind and your neighbor
as yourself ”is included as the Eleventh Statement.
THE FIRST
STATEMENT
The first statement then read: "You cannot have other Gods/Goddesses than me."
God is perfect and unconditional love, and when a man/woman meets
his/her Spirit Mate, the perfect and unconditional love comes to life
in his/her heart, and thus he/she becomes able to experience God
through his/her own perfect and unconditional love for his/her Spirit
Mate.
IDOLATRY
If a person does not have a conscious contact with his/her Spirit Mate in the outer or inner Worlds, this person has an underlying feeling of existential abandonment and loneliness no matter how many people the person is together with.
Under such circumstances, the person in question may attempt to escape these emotions in various ways, for example, by exclusively being preoccupied with alcohol, drugs, nicotine, food, compulsive spending, sex, romantic relationships, codependency, family affairs, children, work, money, power, prestige, fame, material or spiritual ambitions, or any other activity he/she makes use of to escape these emotions.
Because the feeling of abandonment and loneliness cannot be removed in
this way, in utter desperation, such people may become more and more
consumed by their chosen escape attempts in their continuous attempts
to fill the void with more and more of their choice, until in the
end, their choice becomes an obsession that governs and controls all
areas of their lives.
This is called idolatry.
However, a time will come when the addicted person realizes that
he/she is compelled to carry out many actions that he/she does not
want to so as to escape these emotions, without succeeding.
When the person reaches this point, he/she feels compelled to find ways of giving up the chosen addiction and continue his/her search for that which can remove the feelings of abandonment and loneliness.
This search continues until the person attains his/her conscious contact with his/her Spirit Mate, his/her Eternal Beloved either in the outer or the inner World and thereby feels the abandonment and loneliness slowly fade, and thus it is not possible to have an idol as your God/Goddess in the long run
THE SECOND STATEMENT
The second
statement then read: "You cannot make yourself an idol."
When a person enters various addictions, he/she forms an idol, but
since only the interaction between oneself and one's Spirit Mate can
fill the existential void, he/she cannot form an idol and keep it.
THE THIRD
STATEMENT
The third statement read: "You cannot misuse the name of your God/Goddess."
Yearning
for
his/her Spirit Mate, a person may try to give that love which belongs
to his/her Spirit Mate to someone or something else, but this is an
intermediary solution, because a time always comes when the person
realizes that the intermediary solution does not fill the existential
void, and thus it is not possible in the long run to call anything or
anybody but one’s Spirit Mate for one's God/Goddess.
THE FOURTH
STATEMENT
The fourth statement is unchanged: "Remember the day of rest to keep it holy."
TuTu added that the societies have a habit
of forcing its members to work when they need rest, but in doing so
you act against the holy body, because honest citizens feel
compelled, subconsciously, to contract various illnesses to be able
to feel that they have earned the right to rest.
It will be an advantage, both to society
and to the individual, if instead, you choose to let the individual
decide for himself/herself as to when and how much rest he/she
needs, and at the same time, consider this need to be holy so that
nobody has to harm his/her body by contracting illnesses that can be
avoided.
THE FIFTH
STATEMENT
The fifth statement: "Honor your father and your mother" is unchanged.
The parents give the child life, and anybody who gives this gift is
entitled to be met with honor and respect, even if the birth is the
only obligation which the parents have been willing to take on in many
cases.
A child who comes into life in this way calls for a united endeavor
from society.
By the help of this child, society can
learn to cooperate about contributing to the flowering of life by
providing the maximum options for such a child who does not have the
support of his/her parents during growth, and in this way, the life
of the child can be a gift to society.
The ideal is a society where everyone
feels that all children belong to everybody, because everybody feels
responsible for the children to thrive knowing very well that the
harm you do to children will rebound on society when the child
becomes an adult and begins acting in accordance with his/her
experiences as a child.
Any child knows at heart that the love of a parent is only surpassed
by the love of the only one, and anything the parents do is
perceived to be an expression of love by the child.
When the child grows up, he/she will
express his/her love the way he/she got to know love in his/her
childhood, and in the subconscious mind of the adult who acts in
undesirable ways, seen with the eyes of society, confusion arises
and then anger, because nobody seems to understand his/her
expression of love, and no amount of opposition, ridicule or
punishment will stop such a person.
He/she will only try harder and harder to express his/her love, hoping
that it will be understood and appreciated sooner or later.
However, sometimes parents misuse this statement to demand undue respect from their children by demanding obedience from the child rather than teaching the child to follow his/her own heart's guidance.
Trying to usurp authority over the child's fate with this type of demands is a misuse of the parental role as guardian angels for the child.
The child, at all times, has the right to follow his/her own ideas and perceptions of what will make him/her happy, while at the same time, being willing to listen and follow the guidance and advice of the parents, but having the right to respectfully decline the suggestions from the parents, if there is a conflict between the two.
THE SIXTH
STATEMENT
The sixth statement read: "You cannot kill."
Life is eternal for everyone, and thus you
cannot kill, but if a person interrupts another person's life on
Earth, this person is called a murderer and his/her action means
that the murdered person does not get the opportunity to execute
his/her errand on Earth, and this will not only affect the murdered
person but also all those people who were supposed to benefit from
his/her presence on Earth.
When the murderer himself/herself dies,
the moment comes where he/she has to look at his/her action in the
Light of Love, and at this point, the pain arises because of this
action together with a desire to make amends to everyone involved.
This desire will be fulfilled and this
work is enough on its own, but if society chooses to murder the one
who murdered, those members of
society who take upon themselves to sentence others to death
or become murderers themselves, as a job
they perform in their daily lives, will come to look at their
actions in the Light of Love, grieve over them and later have their
wish fulfilled to make amends, because it rests on no one to judge or
to take a life.
HONOR
WHERE HONOR IS DUE
However, the condition of life is that we all have to eat by shedding innocent blood, but when we do this, we can receive the gift of life from the being we eat, whether this is a plant or an animal, with the reverence that is due to the one who lets down his/her life for us to live.
THE
SEVENTH STATEMENT
The seventh
statement then read: "You cannot commit adultery."
A marriage cannot be instituted by any society.
Such an act exclusively consists in
securing the material well-being of the woman, who is suppressed in
many societies, but now time is ripe where this treatment of women
is coming to an end, and this gives both the man and the
woman the option of leaving a marriage which is not instituted by God.
The sign that a marriage is instituted by God is that the couple is blessed with a love for each other that is so powerful that it binds the couple to each other with ties so strong that not even they themselves can break them.
In some
cases, two people may marry out of convenience hoping that this union
will lead them to the love residing in their innermost heart, but that
love belongs exclusively to their Spirit Mate, and such a love cannot
be forced by reasons of convenience.
However, anybody has the right to fulfill their sexual needs in whichever way they can as long as it happens without hurting themselves or another.
But only
when one come together with one’s Spirit Mate can one become able to
unite the sexual act with a perfect love, and thus one cannot commit
adultery.
THE EIGHTH
STATEMENT
The eighth statement is changed to: "You cannot steal."
One who appropriates something that
doesn’t belong to him/her has to look at this act in the Light of
Love and later have his/her desire fulfilled to make amends to the
plundered person and all the others who were affected by this
looting.
THE NINTH
STATEMENT
The ninth
statement is changed to: "You cannot falsely accuse."
One who does this will later want to make
amends to the falsely accused, and thus truth will always
triumph in the end.
THE TENTH
STATEMENT
The tenth statement: "You
cannot desire that which belongs to your neighbor."
Anybody has
the right to desire anything, but if a person desires something which
belongs to another, the fulfillment of the desire will not
createmanifest the satisfaction the person hoped for, and thereby,
he/she himself/herself will let go of his/her desire in the end.
THE
ELEVENTH STATEMENT
In the eleventh statement, the
word ‘shall’ is changed into
‘can only’ or ‘can’
and the words 'from this stage'
are added.
"You can love only your God/Goddess with all your heart and all your
Soul and all your mind, and from this stage you can love your neighbor
as yourself."
Until a person achieves contact with his/her Spirit Mate, his/her
Eternal Beloved in the outer or the inner Worlds, that place in the
innermost heart which belongs to his/her Spirit Mate is experienced as
abandoned, and thus the person is not able to love of all his/her
heart and all his/her Soul and all his/her mind.
When a person achieves contact with his/her Spirit Mate in the outer
or the inner Worlds, his/her heart is purified of all false
conceptions of God.
Eventually, this leads the couple to The Spiritual Wedding, during which a merger takes place in the Absolute, and thereby, he/she become able to love his/her God/Goddess with all his/her heart and all his/her Soul and all his/her mind, and from this stage, he/she recognizes himself/herself and his/her Spirit Mate in everything and everybody everywhere at all levels of existence, and in this way, he/she becomes able to love his/her neighbor as himself/herself.
THE
PHOTOGRAPHS OF TUTU
The below
photograph of TuTu is one of a series of four and has been
createdmanifested by him, by him posing in front of a mirror and
letting the flashlight from the camera createmanifest the light
phenomenon on his heart, while at the same time, a spot of light
reflected from his watch became the spot of light on his forehead.
It took him four attempts to make the spot of light on the forehead
find its exact place.
It illustrates a principle, which is true for all of us.
The photographs of his hands were taken on the photocopying machine in
Sundholm and show the lines in his palms for anybody who would be
interested in studying those.
HARISHCHANDRA TUTU
LIKE
THE MOON REFLECTS THE LIGHT OF THE SUN
THE
EMOTIONS REFLECT THE LIGHT OF THE THOUGHTS
TUTU’S HANDS
THE PERSONAL
ANGER
AND REVENGEFULNESS
I kept wondering why the Master had not accepted that I had the right to be angry with my co-travelers, who had left without asking the rest of us if we wanted to come along.
One day, I came across a guideline in one of his books, which read:
"Don't be revengeful about mistakes done by others. Receive them in
gratitude as heavenly gifts."
This, I thought, was disadvantageous and unfair.
I had learned that when somebody committed a mistake, they could learn to stop making mistakes if somebody punished them for it; so according to my perception, it was not only my right but also my duty to punish the others if I wanted to be a good person, and at the same time prevent the mistakes of others to be taken out on me in the future.
Later, I became able to take the Master’s suggestion to heart by
choosing to work on changing the emotions and thoughts that arise in
me when I think that others have made a mistake, instead of demanding
that others must change in conformity with my perception of the right
thing.
If I discover that I was materially, physically, energetically, emotionally, mentally, socially or spiritually harmed by the mistakes made by another, I used this information to decide how to avoid getting myself into a similar situation in the future and then acted in accordance with that.
ARROGANCE 2
It made a deep impression in me that I had cried from shame about my arrogance and my impatience during the Master’s morning sitting.
When I came back to
When I observed them, I tried to fight them, but a number of years
passed before I realized that I
could not get rid of them by
deciding that they were not allowed to be
there, and they did not go away
just because I suppressed them or denied them.
Since I did
not know what else to do, I began praying a couple of times every day,
to be granted learning as to how to become humble and patient.
That went on for a couple of years after
which I was whirled into many dramatic events that eventually landed
me in Narcotics Anonymous.
Until then, I had connected humility with humiliation, and therefore I
thought that I had to make myself small and submissive if I wanted to
become humble.
Now, I was told that I had to find that place within me where I felt
that I was neither more nor less than others if I wanted to achieve my
goal.
I had thought that it was
arrogance when I felt that I was more than others, but not that it
was also so when I felt that I was less than others.
Then, I was told
that I had to first accept possessing the feeling of arrogance to be
able to investigate under which circumstances it arose and what
results I achieved from the actions I did under the influence of my
arrogance.
Now that I knew what goal I had to strive for, I began investigating
the issue.
First, I searched for an intellectual stand, where I could accept that
I was neither more nor less than others.
I found this when I spotted the paradox that I was unique and that it
was totally common to be so.
If I placed my thumb on something,
there was not one fingerprint in
the World similar to mine, and so I was unique, but so was
everybody else!
Then, I
investigated when my arrogance arose.
My feeling of being less than others
became particularly predominant if I spotted the beauty and
qualities of others, or if others got more attention from the
people I wanted to get attention from.
If others behaved in ways that I thought implied that they considered
me to be nothing, particularly if it was people whom I secretly
admired, or if they were figures of authority, I got angry and
revengeful, but I thought they were right.
I was nothing.
When, for some time, I had felt that I was nothing, I shook it off by
thinking that if others really knew me they would discover that, in
Reality, I was better than most.
At this point, I found various reasons that supported this perception.
If others expressed that they found me better than most, I became
suspicious of their motives.
I believed that they said so to console me, because, in Reality, I was less than most, or because they wanted something from me, or else I thought that this was due to the fact that they didn’t really know me.
Now, I could see that I was in an endless swing in the pendulum of
arrogance from more than to less than others and back again.
I kept asking myself why it was so important for me to compare my size
with that of others, and what it was that I had to be for myself to
think that I was good enough as I was, until I discovered my most
secret thinking.
I had to be good enough for the prince on the white horse.
Secretly, I waited for him to come and
take me in his arms and ride away with me, away from all the dull
and gray, and then we were going to get married and live happily
ever after, but for him to choose me I had to be better than others.
Yes, actually I had to be better than a real princess.
I had long since forgotten this dream,
because I thought it was too embarrassing that I was so childish,
but nevertheless, this hope lived in best of health, as a shadow
under the threshold of my day-consciousness.
THE
FEMALE ARCHETYPE OF THE SPIRITUAL WEDDING
In my
opinion, the fairy tale of the prince on the white horse is an
archetypal description of that couple that
wish to return to the Absolute love, seen
from the feminine perspective.
In this fairy tale, the prince always
prefers a poor girl with a pure heart, which he finds nobler
than the one he finds in the real princess
he is expected to marry.
The prince shows up in her life because of a strange coincidence of
events which are outside both his and the
girl’s control, and she had not even considered that it is
now that something great is about to happen,
namely the meeting with her one and only.
The prince is the only one who discovers that the poor girl is his heart’s chosen one.
Everybody else expect that he will marry the real princess, and his
love for the poor girl is met with great resistance by the
environment.
Sometimes, he forgets her when he returns to the castle.
This can make her take into use the magical powers which she is
already equipped with, or which she receives in a mystical way and
that suits her purpose, which is to make the prince remember her.
Sometimes, a curse is thrown on the prince when he returns to the
castle, but the poor girl understands that he is bewitched and finds
ways of reaching him anyway.
In certain instances, she transforms herself into an animal.
The animal approaches him in some way or the other, and now he
remembers the poor girl, begins to look for her and finds her in the
end.
Sometimes, it happens that, at first, the prince comes in the form of
a toad, but her heart knows that he is not an ordinary toad, and when
she kisses him in spite of his repelling and unacceptable condition,
he transforms into the prince she is waiting for.
Sometimes, she sleeps for hundreds of years, while she is waiting for
him to come and wake her up.
The environment exposes their love to
incredible hardships, but because of mystical and unusual
intervention in events, they overcome all opposition and all
troubles in the end.
The prince takes her with him to his castle.
A big wedding is held, and they live happily ever after.
INTERPRETATION OF THE ARCHETYPE
As I understand it, the symbols of the fairy tale describe the
energies that play together in the archetype so as to bring about the
Spiritual Wedding.
The prince symbolizes the love that
recognizes his one and only even in a depleted state.
The poor girl symbolizes the one who doesn’t have anything to offer,
which justifies his choice.
The mystical unplanned circumstances
that cause their meeting are a
symbol of the Higher Power’s steering of
events, and their meeting is a symbol of the meeting with the true
great love.
That he forgets her at his return to the castle shows
his attachment to his habitual environment.
That a curse is cast upon him shows that which hinders him in seeing
clearly.
Her magical powers show the qualities of character that she has
developed.
The activation of her magical powers illustrates the activation of her
hidden and apparent qualities of character to reach the
goal,
which is to make the prince remember her.
The mystical events that come to the
rescue of the couple, when it all is about to go wrong, illustrates
the help of the Higher Power to the couple.
That she reaches to him in spite of the
curse symbolizes the power of penetration of her love.
Her transformation into an animal is a symbol of her use of her
deepest instincts to reach him.
To kiss the toad illustrates
her
ability to recognize the only one behind repulsive and
unacceptable appearances.
The resistance of the environment shows
the contribution of the World towards the purification of their
love.
That she sleeps for hundreds of years shows that even if he is long in
coming, only the meeting with him is of interest to her.
That the prince takes her with him expresses his definite choice.
The big wedding symbolizes the Spiritual Wedding.
That they lived happily ever after symbolizes their immersion in God’s
Light of Love, until creationmanifestation begins anew.
THE MALE ARCHETYPE OF THE SPIRITUAL WEDDING
Seen from
the masculine perspective, his fairy tale is that he is a poor boy who
doesn’t have anything to offer a princess.
Many in the country court the princess and
show many good qualities, but she is not interested in any of them.
Sometimes, he sees the princess for the first time because she is out
among the ordinary people in his town, and he senses immediately that
she is his only one.
When he decides to court her, everybody thinks that he is an ignorant
fool for thinking that a princess would want him, and sometimes, he
cannot get access to the castle to meet her, but because of mystical
coincidences he succeeds in getting in anyway and in proposing.
Sometimes, the
princess
says yes immediately, because he shows special qualities
which others do not find attractive but which are to the special
liking of the princess, and they marry.
It happens that the environment interferes in the situation with curses and bewitches, which leads the couple astray.
Sometimes, she exposes him to various tests to see if he is the one
she has been waiting for.
Sometimes, the
king is not interested in having him as a son-in-law unless he shows
unusual courage, unusual power of action, unusual wisdom or unusual
strength, and therefore, first he has to kill a dragon which is
pestering the realm or find a magical treasure that nobody else can
get hold of and bring it to the king.
Sometimes, a
dragon has captured the princess, and the king has promised
her and half the realm to the one who
frees her.
He sets out in confidence of his destiny, but
sometimes he gets problems.
Then, it may happen that a being turns up in a mystical way and helps
him by providing him with magical powers or magical things.
In the process, he develops the required qualities, passes all the tests and wins the princess in the end.
A grand wedding is held, and they live happily ever after.
REDEMPTION
Through self-investigation, I found out that I had made a decision as a child, which, until now, was lying like a shadow under the threshold of my day-consciousness together with the hope that the prince would come to marry me.
I had decided that I might as well make myself ready while I was
waiting so as to make sure that he chose me.
A proof that I was ready was that I had a more noble heart than a
princess.
I was not able to evaluate the condition of my heart, but if others
confirmed that I had a noble heart, it had to be true, and then I was
ready.
As there was nothing indicating that others found my heart nobler than
that of others, I had to change.
If I changed that which I or others did
not like about me, if I became better in doing this or that, if I
thought in a different way, felt in a different way, acted in a
different way, then others had to confirm that my heart was noble,
and if everybody agreed on it, the prince also had to be able to see
it.
Since I now knew why it meant so much to me to be better than others,
I investigated how the things I did worked, and realized that exactly
my arrogance and impatience were the properties which separated TuTu
and me over and over again, and the actions I had done under the
influence of these emotions had cost both me, him and others much
pain.
I was seized by pain when I faced all of
this, but when the pain subsided,
I became grateful that I no longer had to fight to achieve a
confirmation from others indicating that I had a heart that was nobler
than that of a princess.
My heart was good enough.
It needed not be better than the heart of others, because the goal of my heart had been to become the bride of the prince.
TuTu was my prince, and he had found the qualities of my heart good
enough to make his definitive choice and lead me to God’s Sacred
Altar, to enter into his Spiritual Wedding with me.
IMPATIENCE
Only after I worked through the two spiritual programs suggested in this book did I realize that when I took my arrogance into use, it meant that all of the four powers in the Big Ring of Pain became active in me, because they constitute one mental-emotional pattern.
Thus, I discovered that avarice, envy and hatred are companions of my
arrogance together with all the defects of character described in the
Small Rings of Pain.
Besides these all the other defects of character that are companions
to the defects of character in The Big Ring of Pain, such as the Small
Rings-, the Minirings-, the Microrings and the Nanorings of Pain also
arose in me, as these Rings are like a Chinese box system and thus I
became aware that my usage of the mental-emotional pattern in the Big
Ring of Pain lead to my irritability and impatience that belongs in
the Miniring of Hatred with its ill will, unkindness, irritation and
impatience.
Until I realized this, I considered my irritability and impatience to
be comparatively innocent flaws in my character but now I discovered
that, in Reality, they led to my usage of the Small Rings of Pain, The
Big Ring of Pain, the Ring of Codependency, the Ring of
Self-centeredness and the Ring of Emptiness upwards and the
Microrings- and the Nanorings of Pain downwards.
I also had to face the fact that it was from my use of these
mental-emotional patterns that all my existential pains sprang, and
however unpleasant it was to admit that I possessed these defects of
character, it was necessary for me to do so, so as to be able to begin
observing them and their consequences.
By the help of my observations, I discovered that a desire was always
to be found at the root of any of my defects of character, and that
when I denied them, I actually cut off myself from discovering what I
wanted innermost, not to mention having that desire fulfilled or
choosing to let go of it.
At the same time, the concept of defects of character became a neutral
concept for me in the same way as I did not have any painful emotions
by the thought of a defective radio, because I realized that this
concept only expressed that I used a defective mental-emotional
pattern, that is, a pattern which does not work according to intention
- the intention always and without exception being of a loving,
caring, compassionate and merciful nature - in an attempt to have a
desire fulfilled which I was not even aware of having.
When I began acknowledging my use of my defects of character, I became
aware that my defects of character hold information about myself and
my existence, which I cannot get access to in any other way than
acknowledging them, investigating them, taking to heart the message
they hold.
However, it took me completely by surprise that it was the pain in my defects of character that led me to spiritual enlightenment, because I realized that as long as everything in my life went smoothly, I did not stop to think about my existence, but when I encountered resistance whether it sprang from painful emotions from within or from opposition in my surroundings, I paused to investigate more thoroughly the cause for this.
At first, I thought that I had to find the root of the pain or the opposition, so as to rid myself of these pains or overcome this resistance.
After having worked on this issue for quite a while with this motive, I discovered that I believed I had to rid myself of the pain and the opposition, because I judged the pain and the opposition on a foundation of good and evil.
If instead, without judgments on good and evil, I redeemed myself by finding out the desires at the root of the character defect and used the Rings of Joy to begin the work of fulfilling those desires or letting go of them, I succeeded more often in having my desires fulfilled or letting go of them, while at the same time, it happened in a way where I felt a deep satisfaction about the accompanying emotions and thoughts.
DEMONS
After I had found a way to work around my defects of character, at long last, the concept of demons fell into place in my psychological landscape.
For a long time, the concept of demons had appeared scary to me, but
when, at long last, I acknowledged my defects of character and
compared them to descriptions of demons, I realized that the concept
of demons is used to symbolize the various characteristics and their
consequences, which are also described in the form of the defects of
character found in the Rings of Pain.
When I acknowledged my defects of character instead of suppressing or
denying them, I discovered that all these terrifying demons turned out
to be frightened little children inside of me who had a desire that
they could not find out how to get fulfilled, and out of sheer fear,
they hit out in all directions without knowing what they were doing.
Hence, I needed to take these little children – my defects of character, by the hand and guide them by the help of all the wise and mature sides of myself – my inner angels, so as to find a solution to their problems in a way that neither hurt them nor others in the process.
Also, I realized that the outer demons, that is resistance and opposition from the outer World, are not real.
They are projections of my own inner demons.
For example, if I was arrogant in my approach while asking for help
from another human being, I am, in fact, calling out the demon of
hatred in the other person as arrogance and hatred are twins in the
Big Ring of Pain, and the other person will feel no impetus to help me
out when he/she is in the state of hatred, and I am thus cut off from
receiving the help that I need.
If I then chose to see this resistance as a sign of ill-will from the other person, I had chosen to demonize the other person instead of lovingly taking care of my own demon, my arrogance, and thereby being able to approach others with humility, when I needed their help.
SUDARSHAN
CHAKRA
As a result of this inner
purification work, I also became able to use Sudarshan chakra, which,
in my opinion, is the divinely simplest way of working on my defects
of character on a daily basis.
In the holy trinity of Hinduism they have three male gods: Brahma,
Shiva and Vishnu and their wives
Saraswati, Parvathi/Kali and Lakshmi.
These three gods or archetypes are also
called: The Creator, The Destroyer and The Maintainer, and their
wives are perceived to be Shakti or the manifestation of the
qualities of their husbands.
Vishnu, The Maintainer, descends on Earth
from his Divine abode and takes on a human form when humankind is in
need of spiritual guidance of a Divine nature.
When Vishnu takes on his human form, he is also subjected to the
conditions of a human being, and that means that also he is limited,
ignorant, powerless and mortal and thereby fallible, but since Vishnu
knows this prior to his descend, he brings with him his whirling ring
of power, which lights up his inner World
just as brightly as the sun lights up the
outer World, and he uses it in his human life to neutralize all
inner and outer demons.
This bright, whirling ring of power is
called Sudarshan Chakra.
I have chosen to give Sudarshan chakra a
name that is more easily understood by me and have therefore
called it The Ring of Fulfillment.
It is the antidote to The Ring of Emptiness.
THE
HIERARCHY OF THE ARCHETYPAL RINGS
Below the Hierarchy of the Archetypal Rings is shown in order from the highest to the lowest.
Highest in this Hierarchy the Ring of Emptiness and the Ring of Fulfillment is to be found.
In Greek mythology the Ring of Emptiness is called Pandora’s Box.
Pandora’s Box is said to bring all the sufferings of the World to the one, who opens the box, and it is perceived to be the origin of all our defects of character.
In the Fellowships Anonymous the Ring of Fulfillment is called the God Box and i Hinduistic mythology it is called Sudarshan Chakra or the Sun Wheel.
The God Box is said to bring all the blessings of the World to the one, who opens the box, and it is perceived to be the origin of all of our virtues.
THE RING OF EMPTINESS AND THE RING OF FULFILLMENT
Second in this hierarchy is the Ring of Self-centeredness and the Ring of God-centeredness.
THE
RING OF SELF-CENTEREDNESS AND OF GODCENTEREDNESS
When I use The Ring of
God-centeredness, I choose to refrain from criticizing myself for
the mistakes I think I have committed today, thereby avoiding bringing
depression into being within myself.
Instead, I choose to open my mind to new ideas, as to how I can
neutralize my mistakes or transform them to successes, whether the new
ideas spring from inside or outside of me, and thereby I achieve an
empowerment that makes it possible for me to come closer to the
solution of my problems.
Instead of praising
myself for the successes I think I have achieved today and thereby
creatingmanifesting a short-lived euphoria or elation about how good I
think I am, I choose to focus on my gratitude, because my inner guides
or the people in my environment were willing to help me by thinking
empowering thoughts on my behalf and thus helping me neutralize my
failures or transform them into successes.
When, in that way, my failures are neutralized or transformed into successes, joy arises within me that this was possible because of my Fellowship with others both in my inner World and my outer World.
Third in this hierarchy are the Ring of the Savior Complex, also referred to as the Ring of Codependency, and the Ring of Emotional Sobriety.
THE
RING OF CODEPENDENCY AND OF EMOTIONAL SOBRIETY
Fourth in the hierarchy are the
Big Ring of Pain and the Big Ring of Joy.
THE BIG RING OF PAIN AND THE BIG RING OF JOY
The graph below with the many Rings illustrates the connections between the Big Rings of Pain and Joy with their corresponding Small Rings.
The various colors in the graphs illustrates a defect of character with its corresponding virtue in the same color, thus showing that it is the same energy that is held in both, but the defect of character is the unenlightened or immature and dysfunctional stage of the energy and the virtue is the fully enlightened or mature and functional stage of the energy
THE
BIG AND THE SMALL RINGS OF PAIN
THE
BIG AND THE SMALL RINGS OF JOY
The undergrowth in the Ring of Emptiness and the Ring of Fulfillment is the Ring of Self-centeredness and the Ring of God-centeredness.
The undergrowth of the Ring of Self-centeredness and the Ring of God-centeredness is the Ring of Codependency and the Ring of Emotional Sobriety.
The undergrowth of the Ring of Codependency and the Ring of Emotional Sobriety is the Big Ring of Pain and the Big Ring of Joy.
The undergrowth of the Big Ring of Pain and the Big Ring of Joy is the Small Rings of Pain and the Small Rings of Joy.
The undergrowth of the Small Rings of Pain and the Small Rings of Joy is the Minirings of Pain and Joy.
The undergrowth of the Minirings of Pain and Joy are the Microrings of Pain and Joy and the undergrowth of the Microrings are the Nanorings as shown in the below graphs with the tables that comes after the two graphs.
If one pulls the corners of the graphs below the text becomes clear.
THE
BIG RING, THE SMALL-, MINI-, MICRO- AND NANORINGS OF PAIN
THE BIG RING, THE SMALL-, MINI-, MICRO- AND NANORINGS OF JOY
TABLE OF THE BIG RINGS, THE SMALL RINGS, THE MINI-RINGS, THE MICRO-RINGS AND AND THE NANO-RINGS OF PAIN (HORIZONTAL) AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS (VERTICAL OR DIAGONAL)
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THE FOUR BIG RINGS OF PAIN AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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|
North |
South |
East |
West |
|
The Ring of Emptiness |
Emptiness |
Boredom |
Meaninglessness |
Loneliness |
|
The Ring of Self-centeredness |
Euphoria |
Depression |
Self-criticism |
Self-praise |
|
The Ring of Co-dependency |
Savior-role |
Seducer-role |
Victim-role |
Offender-role |
|
The Big Ring of Pain |
Avarice |
Envy |
Hatred |
Arrogance |
|
THE FOUR SMALL RINGS OF PAIN AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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|
|
North |
South |
East |
West |
|
Avarice |
Stinginess |
Greed |
Poverty |
Gluttony |
|
Envy |
Disbelief |
Superstition |
Submission |
Defiance |
|
Hatred |
Denial |
Manipulation |
Disease |
Madness |
|
Arrogance |
Superiority |
Inferiority |
Overcrowding |
Isolation |
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THE FOUR MINI-RINGS OF PAIN AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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|
|
North |
South |
East |
West |
|
Avarice |
Pettiness |
Clinging |
Malaise |
Hoarding |
|
Envy |
Insecurity |
Confusion |
Unclarity |
Wretchedness |
|
Hatred |
Ill will |
Unkindness |
Irritation |
Impatience |
|
Arrogance |
Condescension |
Intolerance |
Exaggeration |
Seclusion |
|
THE FOUR MICRO-RINGS OF PAIN AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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|
North |
South |
East |
West |
|
Avarice |
Selfishness |
Hardness |
Unfreedom |
Negligence |
|
Envy |
Denigration |
Insusceptibility |
Narrowmindedness |
Unworthiness |
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Hatred |
Indignation |
Vindictiveness |
Belligerence |
Bitterness |
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Arrogance |
Disrespect |
Craftiness |
Distortion |
Separateness |
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THE FOUR NANO-RINGS OF PAIN AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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North |
South |
East |
West |
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Avarice |
Inhibition |
Nervousness |
Complaining |
Indifference |
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Envy |
Uncertainty |
Uncultivatedness |
Indecision |
Rashness |
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Hatred |
Resentment |
Unwillingness |
Vociferousness |
Stiff-neckedness |
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Arrogance |
Insincerity |
Cunning |
Unreliability |
Alienation |
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THE FOUR BIG RINGS OF PAIN AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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North |
South |
East |
West |
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The Ring of Emptiness |
Emptiness |
Boredom |
Meaninglessness |
Loneliness |
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The Ring of Self-centeredness |
Euphoria |
Depression |
Self-criticism |
Self-praise |
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The Ring of Co-dependency |
Savior-role |
Seducer-role |
Victim-role |
Offender-role |
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The Big Ring of Pain |
Avarice |
Envy |
Hatred |
Arrogance |
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THE FOUR RINGS OF AVARICE AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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AVARICE |
North |
South |
East |
West |
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The Small Ring |
Stinginess |
Greed |
Poverty |
Gluttony |
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The Mini-ring |
Pettiness |
Clinging |
Malaise |
Hoarding |
|
The Micro-ring |
Selfishness |
Hardness |
Unfreedom |
Negligence |
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The Nano-ring |
Inhibition |
Nervousness |
Complaining |
Indifference |
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THE FOUR RINGS OF ENVY AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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ENVY |
North |
South |
East |
West |
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The Small Ring |
Disbelief |
Superstition |
Submission |
Defiance |
|
The Micro-ring |
Denigration |
Insusceptibility |
Narrowmindedness |
Unworthiness |
|
The Nano-ring |
Uncertainty |
Uncultivatedness |
Indecision |
Rashness |
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THE FOUR RINGS OF HATRED AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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HATRED |
North |
South |
East |
West |
|
The Small Ring |
Denial |
Manipulation |
Disease |
Madness |
|
The Mini-ring |
Ill will |
Unkindness |
Irritation |
Impatience |
|
The Micro-ring |
Indignation |
Vindictiveness |
Belligerence |
Bitterness |
|
The Nano-ring |
Resentment |
Unwillingness |
Vociferousness |
Stiff-neckedness |
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THE FOUR RINGS OF ARROGANCE AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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ARROGANCE |
North |
South |
East |
West |
|
The Small Ring |
Superiority |
Inferiority |
Overcrowding |
Isolation |
|
The Mini-ring |
Condescension |
Intolerance |
Exaggeration |
Seclusion |
|
The Micro-ring |
Disrespect |
Craftiness |
Distortion |
Separateness |
|
The Nano-ring |
Insincerity |
Cunning |
Unreliability |
Alienation |
TABLE OF THE BIG RINGS, THE SMALL RINGS, THE MINI-RINGS, THE MICRO-RINGS AND THE NANO-RINGS OF JOY (HORIZONTAL) AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS (VERTICAL OR DIAGONAL)
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THE FOUR BIG RINGS OF JOY AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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North |
South |
East |
West |
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Ring of Fulfillment |
Fulfillment |
Interest |
Meaningfulness |
Oneness |
|
Ring of God-centeredness |
Joy |
Empowerment |
Open-mindedness |
Gratitude |
|
Ring of Emotional Sobriety |
Detachment |
Integrity |
Respect for self |
Respect for others |
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The Big Ring of Joy |
Faith |
Hope |
Love |
Truth |
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THE FOUR SMALL RINGS OF JOY AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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North |
South |
East |
West |
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Faith |
Generosity |
Trust |
Prosperity |
Accountability |
|
Hope |
Credence |
Information |
Discernment |
Serenity |
|
Love |
Admitting |
Self-acceptance |
Health |
Sanity |
|
Truth |
Humility |
Honesty |
Individuality |
Fellowship |
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THE FOUR MINI-RINGS OF JOY AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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North |
South |
East |
West |
|
Faith |
Largesse |
Letting go |
Wellbeing |
Sharing |
|
Hope |
Safety |
Well-informedness |
Clarity |
Nobleness |
|
Love |
Goodwill |
Kindness |
Calmness |
Patience |
|
Truth |
Equality |
Tolerance |
Accuracy |
Belongingness |
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THE FOUR MICRO-RINGS OF JOY AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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North |
South |
East |
West |
|
Faith |
Consideration |
Ease |
Action-freedom |
Contributing |
|
Hope |
Appreciation |
Teachableness |
Openness |
Worthiness |
|
Love |
Mercy |
Forgiveness |
Conciliatory |
Sweetness |
|
Truth |
Respectfulness |
Straightforwardness |
Precision |
Togetherness |
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THE FOUR NANO-RINGS OF JOY AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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North |
South |
East |
West |
|
Faith |
Approachability |
Light-heartedness |
Approval |
Involvement |
|
Hope |
Certainty |
Cultivatedness |
Resoluteness |
Level-headedness |
|
Love |
Acceptance |
Willingness |
Quietness |
Flexibility |
|
Truth |
Sincerity |
Simplicity |
Reliability |
Familiarity |
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THE FOUR BIG RINGS OF JOY AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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|
North |
South |
East |
West |
|
Ring of Fulfillment |
Fulfillment |
Interest |
Meaningfulness |
Oneness |
|
Ring of God-centeredness |
Joy |
Empowerment |
Open-mindedness |
Gratitude |
|
Ring of Emotional Sobriety |
Detachment |
Integrity |
Respect for self |
Respect for others |
|
The Big Ring of Joy |
Faith |
Hope |
Love |
Truth |
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THE FOUR RINGS OF FAITH AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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FAITH |
North |
South |
East |
West |
|
The Small Ring |
Generosity |
Trust |
Prosperity |
Accountability |
|
The Mini-ring |
Largesse |
Letting go |
Wellbeing |
Sharing |
|
The Micro-ring |
Consideration |
Ease |
Action-freedom |
Contributing |
|
The Nano-ring |
Approachability |
Light-heartedness |
Approval |
Involvement |
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THE FOUR RINGS OF HOPE AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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HOPE |
North |
South |
East |
West |
|
The Small Ring |
Credence |
Information |
Discernment |
Serenity |
|
The Mini-ring |
Safety |
Well-informedness |
Clarity |
Nobleness |
|
The Micro-ring |
Appreciation |
Teachableness |
Openness |
Worthiness |
|
The Nano-ring |
Certainty |
Cultivatedness |
Resoluteness |
Level-headedness |
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THE FOUR RINGS OF LOVE AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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LOVE |
North |
South |
East |
West |
|
The Small Ring |
Admitting |
Self-acceptance |
Health |
Sanity |
|
The Mini-ring |
Goodwill |
Kindness |
Calmness |
Patience |
|
The Micro-ring |
Mercy |
Forgiveness |
Conciliatory |
Sweetness |
|
The Nano-ring |
Acceptance |
Willingness |
Quietness |
Flexibility |
|
THE FOUR RINGS OF TRUTH AND THEIR SUPERSTRINGS |
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|
TRUTH |
North |
South |
East |
West |
|
The Small Ring |
Humility |
Honesty |
Individuality |
Fellowship |
|
The Mini-ring |
Equality |
Tolerance |
Accuracy |
Belongingness |
|
The Micro-ring |
Respectfulness |
Straightforwardness |
Precision |
Togetherness |
|
The Nano-ring |
Sincerity |
Simplicity |
Reliability |
Familiarity |
EGO DEATH
Besides this, at long last, I achieved the ego death.
When I became acquainted with this concept, I imagined it to mean that all my defects of character would disappear in one stroke one day when time was ripe, almost like a miracle like it happened to TuTu on his way to Katmandu, but in my case, it merely happened by my identification with my thinking mind, my Ego slowly stopped and instead I identified myself with my true Self, my Spirit.
DREAM
INTERPRETATION
Over the
years, I tried
to learn something about dreams and I often returned to the dream I
had the first time I visited the Master, to find out what its
message was.
Gradually,
as I learned something about symbols, and due to the events that
transpired at the same time, I realized that my first interpretation
had been very limited and had led to various misunderstandings.
Now, I
did a re-interpretation of the dream seen through the eyes of the
new knowledge I had acquired.
To me, the Master was an expression of God’s universal and impersonal
love for me as it expressed itself in the platonic love-relationship
between the Master and me, and the handsome young man who stepped out
of the Master’s form was TuTu, who was an expression of God’s
individual and personal love for me as it expressed itself in the
sexual love-relationship between him and me.
The Master’s farm was a symbol of the Soul plane, the Divine plane,
which I left together with TuTu.
The bath
with the other young woman in the bathtub was a symbol of the
cleansing I had to go through in connection with TuTu’s love for his
childhood love.
The arousal of my sexual feelings for TuTu symbolized the activation
of my power of manifestation, which was required for me to be able to
write this book.
The Master cleansed the Master, so the
young handsome man stepped out, symbolizing that my relationship
with the Master was a preparation for my meeting with TuTu, who
would step into my life as a result of my relationship with the
Master.
After we left the Divine plane, we walked on the high edge, which illustrated the spiritual aspirant’s walk on the sword’s edge, which is the balancing point between the earthly and the spiritual.
The land symbolized the earthly and the ocean symbolized the
spiritual, the shop my mind and the strange things in the shop the
contents of my mind.
The mirror that I thought to be magical was a symbol of my need for
confirmation from others, and the temptations were my desires.
The disappearance of the young man showed that he died.
The castle symbolized The Fellowships Anonymous, and the man in the
wheelchair a sick person, who scared me at the arrival there but who
would disappear because of my own actions.
The prince symbolized the consciousness of TuTu, also called the
existential state of the unconditional love, care, compassion and
mercy – the existential state of the Absolute consciousness.
The bride of the prince symbolized Mother Earth.
That he was yet a child symbolized that the consciousness of the
principles in TuTu were ripening.
The
representative of the prince, who took care of the bride and the
realm till the prince had become an adult were the 12 Step Programs
of the Fellowships Anonymous that were acting as the maintainers of
the fertile soil until the new level of existential awareness had
become accessible in the form of The TuTu Doctrine –
The New World Order and the two 12-Steps Programs Active
Addictions Anonymous – The Wild Life and Christs
Anonymous – The Thirteenth Step as two spiritual
paths within the 12 Step paths and furthermore the new version of A
Course In Miracles, the original, seen through the eyes
of The TuTu Doctrine – The New World Order that could be taken
up by anybody, who wanted it.
The deep sleep of the intermediary
symbolized the lack of knowledge in The Fellowships Anonymous about
the principles in TuTu.
The realm was a symbol of the human realm and the bride of mother
Earth.
That it wasn’t the right thing for me to become the bride of the
prince symbolized that I was only a single flower in the garment of
the bride.
Returning to the Master’s farm symbolized my return to the Divine
plane.
My wet socks symbolized mistakes committed.
The
last bath symbolized the cleansing that took place through my Step
Work with the two 12 Step Programs suggested in The TuTu Doctrine
- The New World Order with The TuTu Doctrine
– The New World Order itself and with the new version of A
Course In Miracles, the original, seen
through the eyes of The TuTu Doctrine – The New World Order.
The clean, white, long cotton dress showed simplicity and purity from
top to bottom.
The Master’s lack of attention at my return showed that I had only done my duty to my own desires.
To sit in front of the Master again symbolized my return to God’s
universal and impersonal love for me.
To sit among the other disciples symbolized humility, and the sigh of
relief that my goal was achieved.
To close my eyes and slide into meditation
symbolized that I had gone through the ego-death and thus
slipped into the direct experience of Reality.
TUTU,
THE MASTER OF THE MASTER
According to my interpretation of this dream, my interaction with the Master was thus a preparation for my meeting with TuTu.
This, I felt, was confirmed by TuTu, when he told me that he had taken on a life just ahead of his present one to prepare our meeting in this life by creatingmanifesting that system of meditation which the Master got the task to pass on, and he had thus been the Master of the Master.
He had createdmanifested the system to
createmanifest the right conditions to catch me in the West and
bring me to the East, to meet him there.
When I began meditation under the guidance of the Master, I was told
that the Master himself had a Master who was dead now.
The Master’s Master had performed the unusual feat of achieving his
individual and personal Self-realization in the course of seven
months.
Besides, he revived the Pranahuti process.
Shri Krishna had used the Pranahuti process when he performed his
spiritual work, of which the most renowned example took place when he
taught Arjuna in the battle of Mahabaratha.
However, The Pranahuti process had been
extinct for so long that many thought it never existed, and
therefore only few people gathered around the Master’s Master.
When the Master met his Master, he was seized by an inextinguishable
love for him, and his Master opened some channels in him and a few
other disciples which made it possible for them to perform the
Pranahuti process, which consists in transmission of higher states of
consciousness straight into the heart of the disciple.
When the Master of the Master
died, the Master was chosen to pass on the process, and this process
had indeed caught me in the West and brought me to the East, where I
met TuTu.
A
LIST OF LITERATURE THAT MADE AN IMPACT ON MY PERSONAL UNDERSTANDING
OF EXISTENCE
A
COURSE IN MIRACLES, THE ORIGINAL, SEEN
THROUGH THE EYES OF THE PRINCIPLES OF THE TUTU DOCTRINE – THE NEW
WORLD ORDER, SCRIBE
HELEN SCHUCMAN CO EDITOR WILLIAM T. THETFORD
A COURSE IN MIRACLES , COMPLETE AND ANNOTATED EDITION BY
CIRCLE OF ATONEMENT, SCRIBE
HELEN SCHUCMAN AND EDITOR WILLIAM T. THETFORD.
ACTIVE ADDICTIONS ANONYMOUS - THE WILD LIFE - ACTIVE
ADDICTIONS ANONYMOUS, WSO
A
NEW EARTH –
ECKHART TOLLE
A
YOGI’S MEMORIES –
YOGANANDA
BASIC
TEXT – NARCOTICS
ANONYMOUS
CHRISTS
ANONYMOUS - THE THIRTEENTH STEP
- CHRISTS
ANONYMOUS, WSO
CITY
SHAMAN – SERGE
KING
DEATH
AND THE DYING –
ELIZABETH KÜBLER ROSS
DET
TREDIE TESTAMENTE –
MARTINUS
DIANETICS
– L.
RON HUBBARD
FLIGHT
INTO FREEDOM –
EILEEN CADDY
FRACTALS
– TELEVISION
PROGRAM ABOUT MANDELBROT'S EQUATION
GODS
IN EVERY MAN –
JEAN SHINODA BOLEN
GODDESSES
IN EVERY WOMAN –
JEAN SHINODA BOLEN
I
NEED YOUR LOVE – IS THAT TRUE? –
BYRON KATIE
IT
WORKS HOW AND WHY –
NARCOTICS ANONYMOUS, WSO
JORDEN
DØR UDEN KÆRLIGHED –
BIRGIT KLEIN
KAHUNA
HEALING – SERGE
KING
LIBERATION
OF CONSCIOUSNESS –
JES BERTELSEN
LIFE
AFTER DEATH? –
NILS OLE JACOBSON
LIFE
AFTER LIFE –
RAYMOND MOODY
LOVING
WHAT IS – BYRON
KATIE
MEMORIES
AND LETTERS –
C.G. JUNG
MY
MASTER – P.
RAJAGOPALACHARI
NO
MORE CODEPENDENCY –
MELODY
PHILIP’S
GOSPEL –NAG
HAMMADI
LIBRARY
PRINCE
VALIANT – (CARTOON
SERIES
IN WEEKLY MAGAZINE)
REALITY
AT DAWN – RAM
CHANDRA
70
INCIDENTS OF REINCARNATION –
IAN STEVENSON
TEN
COMMANDMENTS –
RAM CHANDRA
THE
ACTIVE SIDE OF INFINITY –
CARLOS CASTANEDA
THE
ART OF DREAMING –
CARLOS CASTANEDA
THE
FIRE FROM WITHIN –
CARLOS CASTANEDA
THE
THE
HOLY GRAIL –
MALCOLM GODWIN
THE
INNER WEDDING –
LINDA SHIERSE LEONARD
THE
MASTER GAME –
ROBERT DE ROPP
THE
NEW TESTAMENT –
JOHN, MATTHEW, LUKE, MARK
THE
POWER OF NOW –
ECKHART TOLLE
THE
TAO OF PHYSICS –
FRITJOF CAPRA
THE
WAY OF THE SHAMAN –
MICHAEL HARNER
TOMAS’S
GOSPEL – NAG
HAMMADI
LIBRARY
TOWARDS
INFINITY – RAM
CHANDRA
TRUTH
ETERNAL – RAM
CHANDRA,
FATEHGARH
VOICE
REAL – RAM
CHANDRA
THE 22
DOCTRINE 3
THE
SEVENTH DIMENSION
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THE
SOFTENING OF THE STONE HEART
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THE
MASCULINE AND THE FEMININE:
LOVE
THE EARTHLY WEDDING
THE FEAR OF LOVE
When I came
back to
I was used to focus on an inner image of
the Master at those times and tried
to brush aside the uninvited image, but that was only possible for
short moments.
I remembered the dream where I left the
Master’s farm together with the young man, and I thought that maybe
this had got something to do with what was happening.
I worried about it because I was not interested in leaving the Master
to follow this young man only to discover later that it had been a
mistake and therefore I would regret it.
In the end, I felt so bewitched by the phenomenon that I decided to
write a letter to the Crown Prince.
He had met TuTu and might be able to tell
me if, perhaps, he had some special qualities that made it possible
for him to intrude on me against my wish.
He answered that one should be careful not to mix the love of God with
the earthly love, and besides, it could only be decided if it was love
if it led to marriage, otherwise the relationship had to be termed
lust.
I was dissatisfied with the answer because I did not think that the phenomenon had got anything to do with love and had wanted him to put a stop to it or tell me how I could do it myself.
I decided to write a letter to the Master instead even if he had not
met TuTu.
I wrote that I had met him in
I feared that the wind took me away from him, and as I did not want
that, I would now leave the case in his hands.
A preceptor was about to go to
After coming back she told me that he had read it immediately.
"This is a very good letter," he then said and kept it with him for
some time before he took it to his room.
When he came back, he still had it with him and stuck it under the cushion on his chair before he sat down again.
At the same point in time that she mentioned she had given the letter
to the Master, I was vacuum-cleaning when I suddenly
felt a whirl of transmission in the living room and sat down to
meditate.
The whirl moved through me for 3-4 minutes, after which it
disappeared.
When I heard about his reaction and
compared it with my experience, I was convinced that he had both the
will and the power to take care of the issue,
so it was now in the best of hands, and with this, I calmed down.
A couple of days later, I received
a letter from TuTu where he wrote that he doubted he would succeed in
coming to
Besides, he wasn’t sure he wanted to because after I left, he had
become so energy-less that he had fallen
ill; so now he had come to believe that I had
cast a spell on him and sat like a spider in my web waiting for my
prey.
I was so hurt by his perception of me that I had to lie down on my bed.
I thought that he had decided to stay in
A prayer streamed through me on its own
accord that he must come to
Startled, I observed myself and mustered all my willpower to add:
"Though, your will be done."
However, it rang so powerless internally
that my fear did not decrease.
Shortly afterwards, I received a letter
from TuTu’s father, who wrote that he hoped I would receive his son
well when he came to Denmark, and in the beginning of august
1978, at long last, I was to pick him up in the airport.
THE SPIDER
Twenty years later, I had an inner experience with a spider myself, and I was also frightened at first.
However, when it was explained to me, I became glad that he had
experienced me in that way.
My experience took place in one of my shamanic travels.
They took place after TuTu’s death and consisted in me going into my consciousness like in a dream in the night, but with the difference that I was awake while dreaming.
Like in a dream in the night, or like in the three-dimensional Reality
for that matter, events developed in known or surprising ways.
At that time, the Master had been dead for 14 years, but I traveled to
meet him in the inner World to thank him for having suggested me the
task of writing this book.
When I began my inner travel, my Power
Animal – my jaguar Kava, Goddess the Mother, God the Father
and TuTu waited for me at the departure place.
I told them my traveling purpose, and Goddess the Mother stepped
forward, took me in her arms and ascended through the clear air,
higher and higher, until I suddenly got a glimpse of the Master and
finally saw him fully.
I also spotted TuTu, who stood in the background on his left-hand
side.
I told the Master my errand.
He did not say anything, and I added that
I would like to hear if he had something to say, which I could use
as a guideline in the future.
He still did not answer.
I did not know what to do next and threw a
fast glance at him.
TuTu had disappeared, but instead, I
spotted a big black spot on top of the Master’s left thigh.
When I took a closer look at it, I discovered that it was a black
spider with long hairy legs, a tarantula.
It lifted its forelegs towards me, and
when I saw its mouth, I got scared and shrank away.
"Divine Mother, remove this fear," I prayed.
The fear disappeared.
Again, I looked at the spider and
maintained my calm even if it came towards me, while at the same time
becoming bigger and bigger.
It poured itself over me and glided down
and around me so that I was completely enveloped by it.
Then, it became very tiny and fell down on the ground.
From here it jumped up on my chest, sank into my heart, became a small
dot, disappeared, became visible again and turned its back against my
back.
Then, it grew again until it filled out my chest.
My inner travel ended, and the shaman told
me that the spider is the symbol of that being who
gathers
all the threads of the Universe
in a perfect pattern.
This made me realize that my experience meant that the threads of the
Universe had gathered in a perfect pattern in my heart, and in the
following years, gradually, I experienced the realization of this
travel through the change in my perspectives.
DRACULA
On another
occasion, both
TuTu and I had an experience with another scary creature.
It was about that archetype which is called
the vampire or Dracula.
In the physical body, the heart is considered to be the Holy of
Holiest because it is God’s abode and thus the seat of the
unconditional love, care, compassion and mercy, and blood is
considered to be the holiest because the blood passes through the
heart and brings life to the whole body, and blood is thus an
expression of that love, care, compassion and mercy which is
conditioned by the power of the heart and then assigned to passing it
on.
When the vampire sucks the blood out of his/her victim, he/she
therefore sucks the life-giving force of the holiest out of the person
in question.
My
experience took place in a dream where I was on my way up a broad
staircase that led up into the Heavens.
When I had come up some distance, a figure dressed in a black cloak
stood there, blocking my way up.
It was TuTu.
Even if I could not see his teeth, I knew he was Dracula.
I got frightened and ran down again, but when I came to the foot of
the staircase, he was waiting for me there.
I ran up the stairs again, but a bit higher up he stood yet another
time blocking my way.
When I woke up and thought about the dream, my sexual feelings arose, and a joyous shiver went through me, because I could not avoid him whether I ran up or down the Heavenly ladder.
I reproached myself and thought that there had to be something wrong
with me when I was so enthralled by TuTu that I did not want to avoid
him, even if my dream had revealed that he was a monster.
In an accusing tone of voice, I told him about my dream, but he looked
happy and reminded me that he had a similar experience ten years
earlier, where he had a vision of me as a vampire with long pointed
purple nails and tusks.
He had become frightened by his vision too, but in the meantime he had
investigated the issue.
He had found out that when love for the beloved is powerful, fear could rise that love would overpower him/her to such an extent that he/she lost his/her own willpower and was transformed into a zombie whose life energy is sucked out by the vampire, because the he/she could not resist his/her urge to serve her love in ways that were contrary to his/her own desires.
This meant that when a person met this archetype in his/her inner World, the person was involved in the great, true love that exists between Spirit Mates, and thus I understood that both TuTu and I felt the same, and that his joy sprang from the fact that my scary dream had revealed my love for him.
TUTU’S BEING
TuTu’s being
mystified me from the beginning, and over the years, I had many
different ideas as to who he was.
When we turned off the light to go to
sleep on his first night in
At first,
I thought that the Master had decided to charge him with the same
power that he himself radiated, so as to help me not to lose my
contact with him.
That did not appear unlikely to me because
I had read in one of the Master’s books
that the saints of the past sometimes infused vibrations into a
wooden or stone sculpture, which then radiated this power up to a
couple of hundred years afterwards for the benefit of people who
were not able to relate to an abstract concept of God.
If that was possible, then why not this?
At a later point, I had some dreams during a visit at the Master’s, and they made me change my point of view.
In one case, I dreamt that TuTu walked among a big group of the Master’s disciples and helped them with various problems.
The Crown Prince walked by his side and received teachings.
At some point, they came over to me, and I told TuTu about a round
spot of psoriasis that I had on my shin.
TuTu explained something to the Crown Prince, and a moment later the
psoriasis began to grow into a bigger and bigger lump, and in the end,
a kind of body separated from me, fell down on the ground and was
lying there, writhing in death struggle.
A disciple came over to TuTu and asked a question.
He looked gently at her and said in
a soft tone of voice: "This is sheer
folly," indicating with loving gentleness that what she asked was
pure nonsense, but at the same time,
he understood that she just needed to connect to him, and
they both went with her.
In the
meantime, the form on the ground dissolved
but for a very small part that swooped
back into me.
In the course of a fortnight my psoriasis healed, and that made me think that the dream was an event in the inner World, which now had expressed itself in the outer World.
I also thought that my dream showed that
TuTu was going to be the Master’s successor, because it was he who
taught the Crown Prince and not the other way around.
In the other incident, I dreamt that we were an infinite stream of disciples who walked together on a long road towards the Master in the far away distance.
By my side walked my friend from the Master’s group of disciples in
Suddenly,
I saw TuTu standing on a balcony on the right hand side of the road,
elevated above the stream of
disciples that passed by the balcony, and I understood that he was
the true Master.
I turned my head to tell that to
my friend and discovered that she and the others still had their gaze
turned towards the far away distance.
This dream
made me think that I was the only one who discovered that TuTu was
going to be the Master’s successor, and when the Crown Prince took his
seat after the Master’s death, it came as a shock to me.
For a long time,
I thought that my being in love with TuTu had made my
spiritual sight unreliable, until I realized that although he
was not the Master’s successor in the other disciples’ lives,
he was in mine, and then I began trusting my spiritual sight again.
However, Reality superseded my wildest imagination when he told me that he was the Master’s Master in his previous incarnation.
However, this information appeared to me to be too fantastic for me to be able to believe in it, and so eleven years passed by before I was able to take this fact to heart.
When my heart answered my question to myself as to whom I considered him to be by answering that he was the Second Coming of Jesus Christ, I could not believe that either, and I absorbed this information in small bites too.
The absorption took place by me constantly asking myself for a number
of years: "If that is true, then why does he do this or why does he
say that?"
For every answer I came up with, one of my illusions was broken down
as to what it meant to be the Master of Masters when he lived on Earth,
and I understood why Jesus emphasized again and again that he was a
son of man.
THE
NECESSITY OF PAIN
It was a bitter pill to swallow
that TuTu’s pains were as real as everybody else’s, because I hoped
that, in some way or another, it would be possible for me to rise
above the pains of life if only I changed enough, but now I had to
realize that when even the Master of
Masters could not avoid the pain of life, it was likely that
it was not possible for me and everybody else either.
Only when I faced this, I came to
accept the pains of life.
When the
acceptance occurred, I realized that the pain of life is not only a
necessary part of existence but also an advantageous one.
What would otherwise prevent me from sitting down on a steaming hot
object?
THE
EVIL I DID NOT WANT…
Another part
of my hope that he did not suffer in Reality was connected with the
pains I had inflicted on him
in our marriage, but when the blinds began to fall off
from my eyes, I was inconsolable.
I pondered on how it happened that I too
had contributed to his pains in spite of all my intentions to the
contrary, and I realized that my interaction with him in the
spiritual field had impressed and overwhelmed me to such an extent
that I was not able to take it seriously when I saw his human
limitation, ignorance, powerlessness and mortality.
On one hand, these sides of him brought forth my deepest feelings of
togetherness and tenderness, and on the other hand, they gave rise to
the little tiffs and big clashes of daily life, but at the same time,
I perceived them to be some kind of play-acting on his part, and it
was many of those actions I had done with this attitude that pained me
now.
When I remembered what he often said whenever I felt repentant about
unwillingly having harmed him: "Love is to never have to say you are
sorry," my pain began to lift, because I
perceived this phrase to be his way of stating that he knew I acted
out
of love for him, and the damages I brought forth were due to my
ignorance rather than a desire to harm him.
However, I had to work a lot with the problem before it became
possible for me to forgive myself.
THE
PHYSICAL DEATH OF JESUS CHRIST
I had to
swallow yet another bitter pill in this process, because
I had hoped that what I learned in my
childhood was correct, that Jesus was not subjugated to the physical
death so that TuTu could materialize for me in flesh and blood after
his death.
I had never read the Bible myself, but now I decided to read The New
Testament to get confirmed that my desire could be fulfilled.
When I read about Mary Magdalene’s meeting
with Jesus in front of the tomb, it occurred to me that Mary would
have recognized Jesus immediately if he had appeared before her in
flesh and blood, and so in my eyes, this event was a channeling, and
therefore, Mary only became aware that it was Jesus who spoke to her
through the mouth of the gardener when he pronounced her name with
that particular sound and intonation which Jesus used to use, and
which the gardener could not know.
I think the same goes for the disciples’ meeting with him at the
fisher boat, because they would not have had to discuss afterwards if
it had been him or not if he had looked like he used to.
The only narration which describes that he looked like he used to is
the story about their meeting with him behind closed doors.
In shamanic travels, however, it is possible that a group travel
together in the inner Worlds and experience the events together in the
same way as when a group in the third dimension experiences something
together on a travel in the outer World, and therefore, I think that
it was with their astral ears and eyes that they heard his astral
voice and saw his astral body.
How would it otherwise be possible for him to appear in the room
without coming in through the door like all other physical beings?
In the same way, I believe it was with their astral ears and eyes that
they heard his astral voice and saw his astral body when he came to
their rescue by walking on the water on his way to their boat when it
was thrown around in the stormy weather.
Therefore, after finishing my reading, I gave up my hope that TuTu
would materialize for me in flesh and blood, but instead, I began
hoping that my spiritual capacity would become so well developed that
I would be able to hear, see and experience him just as clearly as if
he was physical, like the disciples had done.
A DREAM VISION
My spiritual vision was not particularly well developed when I was awake and conscious.
I saw the images as transparent forms and
in a very airy way, in the same way as filmmakers portray
spiritual phenomena to separate them from
the secular.
After my reading of the Bible, I
complained to TuTu about the lack of density in my inner
images when I saw him in this transparent form
in the course of the day.
A couple of days later, I had a dream in the night.
I dreamt that we were lying, sleeping together, like we used to do
while he lived here on Earth.
In the dream, I woke up because he put his
arm across my head so I could see his hand and part of his arm in
front of my face that was turned away from him in my sleep.
I removed his arm, but a moment later, it was there again.
"Harish,
take away your arm. I can’t sleep when it is lying there," I said.
He woke up halfway and said: "Ok, I’m sorry,"
and pulled his arm back, but a moment later it was there again.
"If you don’t keep your arm away from my head, I’ll bite your
fingers," I said irritated.
He pulled his arm back, but a moment later it was there again, and I
let action follow words.
He woke up and said gently but
with an undertone of hurt: "Ouch, why did
you do that?"
I always became repentant when I heard the gentleness in his voice
after having hurt him and said: "I’m also sorry about that, but I
really can’t sleep when you put your arm on my head all the time."
"Ok, ok," he said and dropped off to sleep again, but a moment later
his arm was there again.
I woke up from my dream, sat up in the
bed physically speaking, turned around
towards him and said angrily: "Harish, I’m telling you......."
I stopped abruptly by the sight of the empty space in the bed.
An intense joy went through me because he had responded to my wish of
experiencing him as clearly as if he was physical, but I also felt
embarrassed that I had bitten him.
When I saw him the following day, as transparent as I used to, I said
to him with my inner voice: "I thought it would be a blissful
experience to be able to see you and feel you as clearly as if you
were physical, but instead it was an embarrassing story where I bit
your fingers."
"I had to irritate you a bit to make you
remember the experience because we are actually together every
night, while you’re asleep. You don’t remember when you wake up
because our being together is so harmonious," he said.
INITIATION 2
One day, a
short time after his arrival in
I said that the Master had already initiated
me but he answered:
“Yes you are indeed, but the
Master only possesses the bright tone of
I possess both the bright and the
dark tone.
I have seen your face when you meditate.
You look intensely sad, and I don’t want
to see you sad whenever you meditate.”
I agreed to be initiated again, and the same evening he took out a
chillum, which he had made from soapstone.
He began carving a face on one side, and after a couple
of
hours, it began looking like me.
Gradually, as the time passed, I got sleepy, and my eyes began
blinking.
He stopped carving: "Are you going to sleep now?"
"I’m so sleepy," I said.
"That’s all right," he gently said and put his knife away.
There was something in his tone of voice which
made
me open my eyes and shake off my sleepiness.
I managed to stay awake for the rest of the night, while he finished
the carving.
On the front side of the chillum, he had carved my face and my eyes,
and the third eye on my forehead was carved vertically.
He carved an
Both the third eye and
In the end, he decorated the carvings with delicate green, red and
blue colors.
A
He took out incense sticks and two candles
and put them on the chest of drawers.
Then he took out clean clothes for both of
us, and in the end, he picked up clean towels.
"Now, we are going to have a shower," he said.
After the shower, we went into the living room, where he lit the
candles and said that it is good for the spiritual health to have
living lights lit.
Then he lit the incense sticks, held them
in his hand, and rotated them circling around the two candles while
saying: “One becomes two becomes three becomes many…”, and then we
sat down opposite each other.
He began chanting OM in such a sonorous
resounding way that I had only experienced a similar sound in a dream
I had had once at the Master’s farm, where I woke up immediately after
and tried to imitate the sound, because I was told in the dream that I
should sit up and try to chant what I had heard, but at that time I
could only produce a frail and broody sound.
After a few moments, I followed my impulse to join in, and to my joy,
the sound streamed from my lips in as sonorous resounding as the way
TuTu’s chant.
Slowly, he let it fade.
"Start meditation on
When I began meditating, my body
jerked, and I remembered that I had hidden
from him that I had a contagious skin fungus, which produced
some small white spots on my skin.
I opened my eyes and said: "I'm sorry to interrupt the meditation, but
I have hidden something from you, which I should have told you."
"That’s all right. What is it?" he asked.
"I have fungus."
"Is it contagious?"
I wringed, ashamed: "Yes."
"Is there anything else?"
"No."
"That’s all right. Continue the meditation."
When I closed my eyes and began meditating
again,
my body jerked yet another time and I remembered an event that had
happened recently.
One day, he gave me a flower in a flowerpot, but a couple of days later, it had a white fungus on the green leaves.
In a teasing manner, he asked me why the
plant had fungus, as if it was my responsibility.
I thought it was a strange way of asking, but said that it probably
had got too much of water, but he kept teasing me about it.
Now, it occurred to me that he had known my secret all along.
My cheeks became warm from embarrassment.
In the future, I’d better hurry to tell him if I came to think of
something which I felt he ought to know.
I sank into deep meditation, and when it was over, he had made the
chillum ready and asked me to light it.
He struck four matches all at once, and
they flared up dramatically.
He held them over the chillum to give me light, and when I sucked in
the smoke, he chanted in a loud and humorous tone of voice: "BUM
ShivaShakti Shambhu," as if he thought that something or the other was
incredibly funny.
The power of the mantra shook me for a moment, and I stifled from
fear.
After smoking, we were to make love, and
in the end, I made breakfast.
While I made the food, I asked him many times what the time was,
because I had to be at work at
It proved that time almost stood still, like when I was with the
Master, so I gave up keeping an eye on time and instead I surrendered
to what I was doing.
We ate peacefully and calmly, and first
after that, I looked at the clock again.
It was time to go to work.
THE SEED OF LOVE
Later, I
investigated the content of the concept of ideas of this ceremony, and
then I realized what I had already felt, namely that it were great
powers that had been activated in this initiation.
Nyasa
means to apply the energy of dawn with the purpose of transferring
power to an aspirant during initiation, and TuTu kept me awake the
whole night for this purpose.
The shower and the clean clothes
represented cleansing and the two lit candles the eternal fire of
the masculine and the feminine principle.
He had chosen incense sticks
with the fragrance of musk, which is the distinctive characteristic
of Lord Krishna.
Lord Krishna is that archetypal sphere of consciousness in the seventh
dimension which radiates The Seed of Love.
To achieve the
The lower
heart
is the uterus of love, and when the lower
heart
is emptied of all other desires but the desire for love, The Seed of
Love can penetrate to impregnate The Egg of Love.
After the impregnation, it is the person’s own task to allow the
embryo to grow, so that love gradually gets to fill up the whole of
the lower
heart.
THE DIVINE
INCARNATION
Humankind’s
craving for love can release an impulse
so
that one individual and personal consciousness among those
who have their permanent abode in the seventh dimension
lets himself/herself be born on Earth in flesh and blood, coming out
directly from a given sphere in the seventh dimension, for example,
from the Lord Krishna sphere, and therefore charged with its energy
combination.
Such a person is a
Divine incarnation, called an Avatar in
Hinduism, a Bodhisattva in Buddhism, a
Wali in Islam and an Angel in Christianity, because he/she is
coming from the Divine plane, the seventh
dimension, and not from the fifth dimension which is the incarnation
point for people who have various personal desires they want to have
fulfilled by taking birth in the third dimension.
The fifth dimension is also the
incarnation point for newly liberated people
who have liberated themselves from desires in the third dimension
but want to return to undertake various types of charitable social
work to relieve the sufferings here.
However, gradually as their development
progresses, they are also liberated from returning to the fifth
dimension, which means, they get further and further removed from the
affairs of the third dimension, and it thus takes a special impulse
before a descent can take place from the seventh dimension, not to
mention from the entrance of the Absolute.
When a descend takes place for the first time, the energy combination
of the Earth is changed, and thereby it becomes easier for the
subsequent individual and personal
consciousnesses from various fields of
consciousness in the seventh dimension to incarnate on Earth, and
thus today, there exists numerous avatars on Earth with the purpose
of participating in the creationmanifestation of the New
World Order.
THE
INITIATION OF THE EARTH INTO THE SEED OF LOVE
The first individual and personal
consciousness who succeeded in emerging straight from the field of
Lord Krishna, the seed of love, in the seventh dimension was born in
the Yadu Dynasty in India and got the very name of Krishna.
The descend became possible because 16,000 people were found on Earth with open and empty lower hearts, who craved for love.
They did not meet him personally, but in one and the same day, he
transmitted The Seed of Love into the lower heart of all 16,000 by the
help of the Pranahuti Process in the same way as the Master
transmitted to my heart, even if he was in India and I in Denmark.
Posterity said about Shri Krishna that he married 16,000 women the same day.
However, this should not be taken literally.
The lower heart, both in men and women, is the uterus of love, and its
open and empty condition is the holy yoni, the literal yoni
being the female sexual organ, and both men and women are thus women
to Lord Krishna, whom Shri Krishna represented.
Previously, the atmosphere of the Earth had received The Seed of Love
as subtle irradiation, but on this occasion, the Earth got a direct
injection of The Seed of Love by the help of Shri Krishna and the
16,000 fertilized lower hearts, which now contained The Seed of Love,
and thus, the energy combination of the atmosphere of the Earth was
changed.
Later, others of the individual and personal consciousness descended from this field to Earth in the form of various Avatars, Prophets, Saints and Sages to shower the impregnated lower hearts with renewed energy and to infuse The Seed of Love into those lower hearts that had become ready in the mean time.
THE
EARTHLY LIVES OF THE AVATARS
Both Shri Krishna himself and the
other Divine incarnations had their personal earthly lives besides
their spiritual work, and just like all other creaturesmanifestations
in the third dimension, they were
limited, ignorant, powerless and mortal, but because their
personal radiation and spiritual work was a mystery to their
contemporaries, many stories sprang up describing them in a way that
gave the impression that it was possible to be in a human form without
being submitted to a human being’s conditions, and thus many
imaginative concepts arose about the life of the avatars as human
beings.
THE
144.000 CHOSEN ONES
Slowly, over time, many large and small events transpired, gathered in my mind, and made me believe that TuTu was the same individual and personal consciousness who once descended to Earth as Shri Krishna.
However, this time he descended from the sphere of consciousness called TuTu.
TuTu contains both the Absolute’s
power of creation in the form of The Seed
of Unconditional Love, Care, Compassion and Mercy, and the power of
manifestation in the form of The Egg of the Unconditional Love,
Care, Compassion and Mercy.
For TuTu to be able to descend to Earth charged with the energy
combination of the field, it was required that the original 16,000 men
and women had expanded their capacity for love to also include their
neighbor, by the help of the merciful capacity of love that springs
from that sphere in the eighth dimension which is called Christ, and
that their number had increased minimum nine times the original
number.
This number is required for the principle of morphic resonance,
popularly known as ‘the hundredth monkey’, to come into play.
The principle of morphic resonance states that when a certain number
of individuals from a specific species, for example, monkeys, have
achieved a specific skill, it spreads to the whole species even if the
individuals haven’t been in contact with
others from whom they could have learned it.
When a specific number of people possess love, care, compassion and
mercy for those who suffer, this quality will spread to the whole
species from that point where the critical
mass is achieved – in this case 144,000 – and
at the same time, humankind put together becomes powerful
enough to bring forth a descend from the entrance of
the Absolute.
Today, humankind holds these 144,000 love-filled and compassionate
hearts, and the descend has taken place.
As described in the Bible, the descend ushers in a new Heaven and a new Earth.
This happens because the descend
makes a more exact description of the contexts of the dimensions, seen
with earthly eyes, accessible, and this means that spiritual science
will reach new heights and change the outlook of the many.
A sign that the descend has taken place is the news that The Spiritual
Wedding of the descended and his other half has taken place, and at
the same time, this news holds the
promise that these 144,000 will soon stand
in front of God's Holy Altar, to
enter into their own Spiritual Wedding
with their other half.
By the help
of the power of their unconditional love, care, compassion and mercy
for each other, they enter into the Absolute and thereby they become
immersed in God’s Light of Love until the beginning of a new
creationmanifestation.
Before these 144,000 return home, they
will share with others the information about their own personal and
individual experiences both on the way to the wedding and in
connection with the wedding itself.
The more such narrations that come
forward, the more perspectives become accessible, and the more
people will recognize themselves in these narrations.
Thus, wave after wave will follow in their
footsteps until all have returned to the Origin, and the evolution
thereby has come to an end.
POWER PLANTS
The contents of the chillum for the ceremony was Indian hemp, which contains medicated expansion of consciousness, mixed with tobacco, the sacred plant of the Red Indians, which was used in their peace processes because of the medicated serenity it gives.
Both at this and other times, the sacred plants, the tobacco, the
Indian hemp, the opium Popeye, the grape, the coca bush and the hop
just to name a few, were essential contributions to my inner
enlightenment, because they opened up doors of my consciousness
which could not be opened in any other way in my case.
These plants are called power plants in shamanism, and when I saw
those conditions which surrounded these plants, both in my own and
other societies, I came to perceive the gift of these plants to
humankind as a two-edged sword,
which could transform into a curse if parts
of humankind appropriated the gift either through violence
and armed force or legislation, to usurp power over their fellow human
beings for the purpose of obtaining material gain or to exploit them
as labor force for the same purpose.
TuTu had made a little poem about this with a play of words, the playfulness of which can only be seen in Danish in which TuTu composed it, but the meaning of it in English is: "Life is fun when it revolves around something which is fun. It is shudder when it revolves around dough."
In Danish:
Livet er sjovt,
når det drejer sig om noget, der er sjovt.
Det er gys, når
det drejer sig om gysser.
The chillum was made especially for the occasion.
The face on the chillum portrayed me in a peaceful condition with a
Mona Lisa smile.
TuTu made many of this type of power
objects, and gradually as I became more aware, I observed that he
used them in a way which redeemed both my own and other people’s
destructive emotions in relation to objects instead of in
relation to fellow human beings.
Ahead of the ceremony, he had
asked me what I feared the most, and at
that point, my fear was that the man I loved would be unfaithful to
me with my sister so I would feel
let down without being able to seek consolation from her.
When he carved the chillum, he asked me who it looked like, and I said
that it looked like me, but the next day, I discovered that it had a
small spot on the tip of the nose and a small spot above the upper
lip.
My sister had those too, and since we were
twins, these two were one of the distinguishing marks in our
appearances.
I told her about it believing that she would be pleased.
She got scared and said that she did not
want her face on any chillum.
He had also asked her what she feared the most, but she would
not even dream of telling him, because she had discovered that those
who did came to experience to
some degree or other what they feared shortly after, and that
she was not interested in.
I had not observed
this phenomenon, but I became more
observant and discovered that she was right.
Anyway,
I did not stop telling him what I feared when he asked me, because I
felt that some kind of purification took place, which I could not
see through but which I believed would prove to be to my advantage
in the end.
SECURITY
RATHER THAN LOVE
The chillum got a chaotic life.
More and more of the mouthpiece broke off, and in the end, it was not
good to use, and it got so many cuts that it wasn’t beautiful anymore.
I was tormented by discovering that, secretly, I became glad every
time it got to look a little worse.
In the end, I chose to tell TuTu about it, and he said that the
chillum portrayed me, but there were various kinds of problems in my
relationship with my sister.
One thing was a sibling complex, which was bigger than normal, and
another was that the jealousy lay under the threshold of day
consciousness, and therefore, had chances of doing greater harm.
For example, he had noticed that my sister intuitively called me every
time a peak experience was about to happen between him and me, and
thus she disturbed the event.
For a long time, I got angry when he touched on my relationship with
my sister, but in the end, reluctantly, I began to observe it.
I had never put a question mark on my love for her and hers for me,
but now I discovered that our relationship did not have the character
that I had imagined.
It consisted in a pact, which said that we,
always and under all circumstances, should be there for one another no
matter the cost for each of us, and besides this, we always had to be
loyal to each other above anybody else, and it was this pact of
security that I had perceived as love.
The pact had always createdmanifested problems in our relationships
with our respective boyfriends, who got angry by discovering that they
had the second priority in her or my life.
It had also createdmanifested many difficulties in our social lives,
because other people felt left out when we were together, even our
mother.
When I had spotted all this, a desire arose in me to change the nature
of our relationship.
This started a process and it ended up with the both of us admitting
that, in reality, we would rather give our spouses first priority than
each other.
After this conversation, we began freeing ourselves from each other
with stumbling legs, but it was not easy because we were so entangled
in each other’s lives and memories that we often had difficulties
remembering who did what during our growth, and it also called forth a
lot of fear when one of us took a step forward which was a bit too big
for the other.
In the end, I realized that my fear was not the fear of losing her,
but of losing the security that our pact gave me, and from thereon, it
became easier.
She felt the same way and, little by little, we managed to give our love for our spouses’ first priority and our friendship second priority.
OM
In the initiation ceremony, the
lighting up of the
It is pronounced ‘aum’
in Hinduism and
‘a’ designates the day consciousness, ‘u’ the dream consciousness and
‘m’ the dreamless consciousness, which is also called the pure
consciousness.
The initiating movement of creationmanifestation is said to have been
accompanied by this sound, which is called Amen in Christianity and
A’meen in Islam.
Spiritual seekers try to get into contact with their origin by using 